Simple mistakes

I'm not having a great day today.

Two of the paper delivery customers that I deliver to called. One because of accidental paper deliveries when they were meant to be on stop, and the other because I forgot to mark off that she'd paid last week and she was billed for two weeks this week because of this.

It was two simple mistakes, but because Sean answer the phone for both of the calls, I've been getting lectures and bitched at about it all. Apparently, the two customers complained that if it happened again, they'd stop getting papers delivered and just go to the store to buy it themselves. For some reason, I don't believe they'd have actually said that. But, just to be safe, I think I'll knock on their doors at some time tomorrow and apologize for the mistakes. Surely they're not heartless enough not to forgive me for a simple mistake. It's not like I do it all on purpose now, is it?

It's understandable because of all of this why his kid wouldn't want anything to do with him. On the 24th December, I heard from one of the paper customers that the kid is apparently 13 years old now. He apparently dated this customer's daughter in the past, and he apparently abused her. That doesn't surprise me at all.

Thought provoking games...

I recently came across a couple of Flash games that are very thought provoking. If anyone is interested, these two games are definitely worth looking at.

SPENT - This game is all about choices. As the intro tells you, over 14 million Americans are unemployed. Now, you may be one of them, or you may not. If you are unemployed, then you'll understand the game very, very well.
You've got to try to make it through 30 days of choices with as much money as you possibly can manage. I'm sure you'll discover how good...or how bad you are with money as you play through it. Personally, I am not doing too well with money in the game (or in real life for that matter).

How well will you do? If you play, please leave a comment and let me know how much money you have left at the end of the month.

The second Flash game I have for you guys is One Chance. Now, this truly is an extremely sad and thought provoking game. In it, you play a scientist who has come up with a cure for cancers. Only you find out that it doesn't just kill cancers, it kills everything. With six days before the world ends, how will you spend your time?

I've played through One Chance a few times (you'll need to clear your browser cookies and all if you want to play through the game more than once) and discovered that there is only really one "good ending". However, if you see that ending, it's not all that good. I won't spoil any of the endings, but damn...I think the "good ending" is actually worse than all of the bad endings to the game.

Definitely check these two games out, and let me know how you get on with them. :)

Just what I need...more stress...

This week just doesn't seem to be going well at all. Firstly having to bury Rachel, and now even more worry about ending up homeless.

I had my brother come up to my room not too long ago to tell me that Sean, Mom's boyfriend, told Mom that she should kick me out of the house because I won't talk to him. He's not given me any reason to WANT to talk to him. All he's ever done since he moved in here is boss me around instead of letting me decide shit on my own, and belittled me when I won't do what he wants. Why is he so surprised that I won't talk to him after all that shit?

So currently, I'm really stressed out, angry, and scared that I have no idea how long I'll have a roof over my head. It seems like I'm going to have to take the advice I got from an old lady last Saturday and call Social Services cuz I'm seriously scared due to the fact that Mom just agrees with Sean, and after so many different reasons as to why I should be banished from the house, I've no idea how long I've got left at all and calling Social Services may be my only salvation.

This definitely is becoming one of the lousiest weeks I've had in a while. Depression over the death of a dog, and now stress and worry from a possible...or probable loss of shelter. With Mom constantly taking his side over family, I'm not sure what's gonna happen at all...

R.I.P. Rachel

Today definitely hasn't been the best of days.

This morning, the skies looked ominous from all the grey clouds, sadly with a blue sky that was slowly fading into the distance. Luckily, the blue sky broke through. It's just too bad that good "news" kinda thing didn't last for too long.

As soon as I got into Lostwithiel, I had Richard tell me he had some bad news. My immediate thought to that was "Oh great...some grant never went through huh?". The bad news was nothing like that though. During the time I hadn't been going up there, one of his dogs, Rachel, had run out onto the railway tracks. Somehow, she survived that, which is honestly a miracle in itself. However, her spine was broken and Richard just couldn't afford to have it fixed or nothing, so it was best for her just to be put to sleep.

We had to go and pick up her body from the vets, and had a very sad burial out on the field. Richard and I dug the hole, and he went to get her from the car, crying his eyes out as he carried her up to the hole we'd dug. I ended up crying myself as we started to bury her. May not have been my dog, but I still cared about her since I'd seen her a lot during this project, and it was just sad as hell to see that she was dead and wouldn't be racing around the field anymore with her sister Poppy. I can't imagine what this is gonna be like for Poppy. She's gonna be wondering where her sister is for a while now. Will probably be looking around for her too.

This is going to be a complete worry for Richard now too. Everytime he takes Poppy out to the field now, he's gonna be worried that the same kind of thing will happen to her, and we really don't want that to happen to Poppy too. It's gonna be sad for a while to do any work out at the field because of the loss of Rachel.

Rest In Peace, Rachel. You will be sorely missed by your family, and by me too.

Save and move out

I haven't had too much sleep today.

I woke up to go to the project, only to find out that Richard didn't want me coming in today because he's going to be moving a whole ton of furniture and stuff from his old place into his new place. Because of this, I thought I may be able to catch up on sleep. That never happened though. I got maybe 30-60 minutes of sleep before Mom's asshole boyfriend started banging on my bedroom door telling me that I supposedly told Mom that I'd go and claim unemployment today. Since no one will listen to me, I went along to the Job Centre to go and claim it, only to be told that I'd have to do it all online. So, that turned out to be a waste of a journey.

When I snapped at Sean about it, he told me that they don't want me to claim the money to hand to them, but instead want me to claim it so I can save it all and get an apartment in the New Year or something. This just shows even more just how dense Sean is. Of course, the money saved in the two months before New Years will possibly get me an apartment for a couple of months, but after that, the amount you receive every month would not cover the costs of the apartment and all. So, as I've said before, I really need a JOB if I wanna move out. The cash from unemployment isn't going to get me a place or anything, especially in only two months of saving. Honestly, I don't think two months of saving the unemployment cash will get me an apartment for any longer than one month.

It's pretty clear that Sean just wants everyone thrown out of the house. I would love to move out and just have nothing to do with him anymore, but there is no way in hell that unemployment benefits are going to cover the cost of an apartment and food and everything else. The question is, am I the only one who understands that? Unless it was an extremely cheap apartment, I'm not gonna be able to move out by relying on unemployment.

I need a JOB if I want to move out, and I'm having a hard time finding anything. I've tried for a few jobs, but I've never gotten anywhere with them. No one thinks I'm trying though. Everyone just seems to assume that if you really do apply for a job, you'll get it no matter what. If only it was that fucking simple!

That reminds me. Yesterday while I was out at the field with Richard, he was chatting on the phone to someone about money for the project, and was talking about all these ideas he had on his mind for how we can make money for it, but that it's just that. Ideas. We really need a plan for something that will be a sustainable area of business. I was asked for ideas, but I really don't have any. He then wished his father was still around because he had a great mind for business.

Earlier today, I thought that maybe I should talk about it here, and see if any of my readers have any ideas for a sustainable area of business for this project. Several ideas we've got are like making garden furniture, making apple juice and all, but things like that are only sustainable if we have good crops of apples and all. Any good ideas from you all?

Just ignore it

We didn't get too much work done yesterday at the field.

Richard went straight to Newquay when I arrived in Lostwithiel, to meet with Peachy. I've no idea what's happening with him currently. He's basically stopped coming along to the project because of money issues. So currently, I'm the only one on the project (apart from Richard) who may end up getting paid for working there.

Obviously, Mom's asshole boyfriend doesn't believe for one second that I'll get a job out of it, and that Richard is just using me. I don't believe that. Sure, I may not get a job out of it if Richard can't get the funding for it, but he IS trying to help me out by getting me a job.

When I was talking to Richard yesterday about Sean's bitching on the 20th November, he bought up a very valid point about the whole thing. Usually when Sean lectures me about claiming unemployment, the conversation always ends up being about how it'll "fix" my life; how it'll help me instantly get a job, and all this other shit. It always ends with "Grow up and stop acting immature!". Richard's point about that was "So, in his retarded mind, growing up and maturing is as simple as claiming Job Seekers Allowance?" Yeah. Life isn't THAT simple.

Richard also suggested that if he thinks I'm immature and all, I should just act immature, just to piss Sean off. I probably won't, but it seems like a fun idea, especially if he starts to badly stress me out again. In fact, I don't think I even need to act immature to piss him off. It's worthless to argue with him because he's dense, so what I should do is just not answer him at all. Just sit there ignoring him completely if he starts lecturing me again. I'm sure that'll piss him off even more than me just acting immaturely.

As I was walking up the hill to get home yesterday, there was a white van parked right across the hill. From a distance, it didn't appear like I could get around it. There was a couple of guys there, as well as a cop. I've no idea what had happened, but the front end of the van was imbedded in the hedge. There was a sloped path behind the van, which I'm guessing is where the van was pulling out from before it somehow got wedged into the hedge. So, it was possible to get around the van by going up the path just a little. Lucky really. I was scared that I would have to walk all the way down the hill again and use one of the other hills to get home. That would've been a MAJOR pain in the ass if I did have to do that.

Anyway, the only reason he wants me to claim it, as I've mentioned several times before, is to give money to Mom. So yesterday, I handed Mom £10 I had in my pocket. Sure, that's £10 less for me to spend on food, and obviously, I'll have to do that every week but hopefully he'll get off my back about claiming Job Seekers Allowance. I seriously doubt it though.

How to make life worse...

Things just seem to be getting worse and worse here.

Today, Sean went and upset Mom, once again. He then came up to lecture me about The Street Outreach Project, asking when I was going again. Told him I was going again tomorrow, and he told me that I'd apparently said that I was going to go to Liskeard with Mom tomorrow to sign onto Job Seekers Allowance (unemployment), and look for a Council Apartment. Funny; I don't remember saying ANY of that shit.

I yelled at him, basically telling him to fuck off, and slammed my door in his face. He hit the door hard, and has basically broken the door frame of my bedroom door. Thanks a lot, you fucking asshole!

Hopefully, Richard isn't still feeling ill tomorrow. If he is, I won't be going to TSOP again, and I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself them. Going to have to remain outside for a while to make it seem like I'm out at the field working with Richard. Question is, what am I going to do tomorrow if I'm not going to TSOP again?

I wish Mom would just throw him out of the house already. The only thing making everyones' lives hell is him. Without him, things would be a lot better. Not perfect, but it would be a billion times better than it is now.

M-5 pileup

Yesterday, I was being told by Mom's boyfriend that on the news there was a report of a HUGE pileup on a motorway somewhere in the UK. Today, I saw that same story on the front of several newspapers, and it supposedly happen Friday night. I'll post the news story in this entry, but I've got to say that it's kind of weird what happened Friday night.

No idea if the thought happened before, during or after the crash, but I never knew about the crash at the time. Oddly enough, Final Destination 2's intro popped into my mind out of no where. That movie starts out with a huge pileup on a freeway. Question is, why did THAT intro pop into my head Friday night? I've seen three of the Final Destination movies, and it just seems odd that was the intro that my mind picked to remember at the time.

Anyway, with that bit of weirdness out of the way, here is the news story on the pileup.

The death toll in the worst motorway accident for 20 years is expected to rise as police continue to search the crash site for the missing.

Seven people were confirmed dead and 51 injured after 28 cars and six lorries were involved in a multiple collision on a northbound section of the M5 in Somerset.

Police expected the number of dead to reach double figures once all the bodies had been removed from the scene.

Some of the injured were unaware that they had lost family and friends.

Many of the cars had been melted into the Tarmac by a fireball which engulfed a 100-yard stretch of the motorway. Four of the confirmed dead were in one vehicle.

Jaysen Sharp, who witnessed the incident from a nearby rugby club, said: “It was a horrific accident. There were a number of explosions and black smoke. It’s not something you expect to see on the motorway, it was more like a scene from Afghanistan.”

The rugby club’s “spectacular” fireworks display is being investigated to see if thick smoke drifted on to the motorway.

The accident occurred at 8.25pm on Friday after a bank of fog or smoke 200 yards thick enveloped a section of the M5 between junctions 24 and 25, close to Taunton.

The pile-up appeared to have begun when an Iceland lorry entered a fog which one motorist said was “like emulsion”.

Police said vehicles were “immediately alight” after the crash as a “massive fireball” engulfed the carriageway. Mobile phone footage showed members of the public desperately trying to pry open vehicle doors in an attempt to rescue those trapped inside.

Witnesses spoke of hearing the screams of men, women and children. One man who rescued people from burning cars had to dodge debris “like shrapnel”.

The scale of the fire left many cars unrecognisable and the scene was described as a “mash of many, many vehicles”.

Assistant Chief Constable Anthony Bangham, of Avon and Somerset police, said they expected the death toll to rise as the painstaking search continued. Police received more than 400 calls on a special helpline from people who feared their family and friends might be among the dead or injured.

“I am afraid there are still a number of bodies trapped inside vehicles at the scene, but we believe all those alive and injured have been removed and treated,” said Asst Chief Con Bangham. “We fear the number of fatalities will rise as the day continues.

“We will be searching a number of waterways nearby as debris may have been flung into them from the scene.”

He added: “We believe there may be some casualties being treated in hospital who may be unaware they have friends or family members still trapped at the scene.”

Emergency services praised other motorists and people living nearby who had battled intense heat to help rescue those trapped.

“The intensity of the fire — it was a fireball on the carriageway — made it incredibly difficult for people to approach,” Mr Bangham said. “People did their very best.”

The cause of the crash was being investigated last night but police confirmed they were looking at the possibility that a pall of black smoke from a firework display at Taunton Rugby Club, 300 yards from the scene of the crash, may have drifted on to the motorway.

Mr Bangham said: “We are aware there was a fireworks display nearby happening at a similar time and we will also be looking closely at that and at what kind of planning was looked at ahead of that event.”

A member of the public who attended the display said: “The fireworks display was massive and caused a huge amount of thick black smoke that drifted towards the motorway less than 10 minutes before the crash. Before the display I could see right across the pitch and see the headlights of traffic on the motorway. After the display the visibility dropped to less than 30ft, I couldn’t even see the huge floodlights positioned around the pitch.”

Sam Kotvics, who was at the display, said: “I think the fireworks had a contributory effect. It was a spectacular display. Anything could have happened to cause the accident though.”

Weather forecasters said that smoke from bonfires encourages fog, especially in damp conditions.

Dr Colin Close, the medical director at Musgrove Park Hospital in Taunton, said that the most badly injured had been admitted to his hospital. He said there were 16 patients who had suffered a range of injuries including broken legs and abdominal wounds.

A further 26 people were taken to Yeovil hospital 20 miles away and were described as “walking wounded”.

The accident is already the worst on British roads since 1991 when 10 people were killed and 25 injured in a pile-up on the M4 near Hungerford, Berkshire.

This entry was taken from The Telegraph's website.

So, the crash happened at 20:25. It was around about 20:00-21:00 when the movie's introduction popped into my head, oddly enough. It's strange how at times I'll have a totally random thought like that and it turns out to be linked to something.

Has anyone else had that kind of thing happen to them? You have a completely random thought about something, then find out about a crash or something happening around that time and think "How very strange!"?

I wouldn't say this is the first time this kinda thing has happened to me. I'm sure it's not gonna be the last either.

I think from now on, whenever I have a random thought like that without it being linked to something I'm personally doing, I'm going to note it down and a time, and possibly post it in a blog. That way, we can see if it turns out to be linked to something.

There was really no way Final Destination 2 was linked to anything I was doing at the time because I was only making jokes with friends in a chatroom, and watching videos of Kenny Everett, some of which I will link below.

A Big Chunk Of The Kenny Everett Video Show #12
Kenny Everett - Fulcrum: Success with Dick Thrust
Kenny Everett as "Cupid Stunt" on "Parkinson" - '82 - (pt.1 of 7) - HQ
"Up Your Way" with Verity Treacle (Kenny Everett)
Kenny Everetts Big Cock-Up.The Messy Parts
Kenny Everetts Big Cock-Up.The Messy Number Two

Enjoy!

No entry for you!

One of my favorite Kenny Everett sketches appears at the end of a video on YouTube called A Big Chunk Of The Kenny Everett Video Show #12. In the sketch, he messes up a whole bunch of times before eventually getting it right. Check out annedoverfist's channel for more great Kenny sketches.

Anyway, that isn't really the main reason for this entry. As I was reading the comments for the video, I noticed these following comments.

somewhere in heaven, the angels are being entertained by a funny energetic man with a beard and a wicked sense of humour.
WildWelshWitch 8 months ago

This comment went and received a reply which reads...

@WildWelshWitch he won`t be in heaven friend, he was gay..sorry
B4ll4che 2 months ago

Disgusted by this comment, I went and replied to B4ll4che with the following comment.

@B4ll4che He'll be in heaven. Screw that whole "No gays allowed" bullshit.
TidanLikida1 1 sec ago

Seriously, are religious people still stuck on that tired old routine that homosexuals would never get into heaven? I'm not saying personally that I believe there is a heaven, but damn, if there is, they're not gonna turn away great people like Kenny Everett just because he was homosexual. Also, it brings up the point that if "God" didn't want people of the same gender to be together, then wouldn't it be emotionally impossible to fall in love with the same gender because "God" doesn't want it? Think about it.

There goes my day...

I'm not going to be doing a whole lot today, it seems.

I tried messaging my girl again, and once again I had no reply. Am I ever going to hear anything from her again? At this point, it seems unlikely. I'm not even sure if she's answered any of my friends as to what is wrong. That put a total downer on my morning.

I got to Richard's place at about 7:55, only to find out that today he only has a two seater car, and that the only way I could really come along today is if I'm willing to sit in the boot with his two dogs. I wasn't going to do that. I'd end up extremely dirty by the time I got home if I did do that because I'd have had them jumping all over me with their muddy paws after they'd been out on the field for a little bit. So, my escape from depression for a few hours also went out the window.

So, what do I do now?

There's not a whole lot of stuff I really have to do at the moment. No where to go, and until this afternoon when I have to collect Betterware catalogs, I have nothing to do at all. I'm just stuck at home with depression, no-one to really talk to. I'll most likely end up playing a video game of some kind soon, just to try to get my mind off of the sadness of my girl seemingly being angry and ignoring me. I could possibly watch some YouTube videos too. In fact, I think that's what I'll go and do right now.

I hope all my readers have a good day today! Take care.

Not the greatest day...

I haven't been having the greatest day today at all.

I logged onto the Net at about 7:00 to check if my girl, Lacey, was online. She was, however, I never got a single word out of her. I heard from a couple of people in the room that she was talking before I'd entered, and was talking about how she hates moobs. Not too sure on how long before I entered that was, but she definitely wasn't talking after I entered, and instead left.

A couple of days ago when I was talking to her, she told me in an IM that she wasn't really in the mood to talk, and since then hasn't said a word to me, which makes me wonder if I've done something to badly upset her. If I have, I can't work out what it is, and I don't keep Yahoo! chat records on my computer, so I can't look back at my conversations with her to see if I've said anything wrong. Then again, maybe it's nothing I've said, and is instead something someone else said about me. For example, maybe some dickhead in the room that I don't get along with said I've been cheating on her with another girl or something, and she bought it.

For the past couple of days now, I've been extremely worried about her, and I'd really love to know if I've done something to upset her. The sad thing is, if I have, and if she's not going to talk to me, how am I going to find out what I did wrong? How am I going to be able to apologise for whatever it is?

I can only hope that she'll talk to me and tell me what is wrong, or hope she'll answer someone else in the room so I can get the problem revealed by them.

When I went out with Richard to help out with the TSOP Project, I was told by Richard that the two contracts he'd had with two different companies were now cancelled, meaning that I won't be taking over the computer side of stuff currently because he wouldn't be able to pay me for it. That was the other thing that made today extremely bad. He said he'd most likely still give me a job if I want to keep coming along to help, but it may not be in computing afterall, and may instead be something like a Grounds Keeper at the project. I told him it'd be ok, because it's not like I'd get anything better around the Looe area. Around here, I'd most likely either be doing either retail work, or cleaning work...if I could get anything.

It would be perfect if he could get me work in working with computers, but if he can't, Grounds Keeper wouldn't be any different to work I've already done in the past. I'm most likely going to be getting a job out of this in some form, just may not be in the form that I would ideally like.

Parrot - Executed

I am totally shocked by a picture and article that a friend had shared from another user on Facebook.

Although I won't be posting the picture here, I will post the article here for you all to read, and possibly share your thoughts on it.

The dog was named Parrot.
This was taken moments before Parrot was murdered by the cop. The cop drove his knee into the middle of Parrot's back while stretching Parrot's forelegs behind him, as one would do with an armed criminal. Without waiting to determine whether this technique would calm Parrot, the cop grabbed Parrot, lifted him off the ground, and brought him to the top of the concrete staircase.

He threw Parrot over the banister, down twelve steps, and onto the concrete floor. Then, the cop stood at the top of the stairs, drew his weapon, and executed Parrot. Aaron, the animal's owner, cannot recall the number of shots fired. Witnesses state that Parrot was not harming anybody and was simply frightened by the cop. At no time did Parrot try to bite the officer, all he did was start barking.

It doesn't matter if you are a part of an Occupy movement, PETA, Republican, Democrat, Independant Religious or not, if you are a part of the human race this should be a wake up call that something is very wrong with our society.

Isn't brutally killing animals something that most Serial Killers do right before they switch to killing humans?

I found some of the comments posted on this article even more shocking.

A lot of people, like myself, have posted comments saying they're completely disgusted with what the cop did. However, one guy, Andy Gray, had posted several comments sort of saying that the cop was right to do what he did. Just so you all can see, I'll post his comments (and some of the reactions to his comments).

Andy Gray sorry to be the one who says it but kill of be killed the dog showed some aggression, it seen him and as ANY dog Could have gone for for him and attacked him i love dogs but they are ALL wolves no matter what and can all bite and kill

Tamara So if a person shows "SOME AGGRESSION," he or she should shot rather than restrained?? DUMB!

Andy Gray but you cant tell what a dog will do . . . . a human is more predictable Humans are more "predictable"? I wouldn't say ANYONE is predictable. Humans are probably LESS predictable than any animal. Not sure if I'm alone on that thought, but that's what I think personally.

Tamara You must not know many people.

Shari ok so the cop held him now ok then why pick him up and throw him down the steps and shot him he was holding him why not get the owner or something thats un called for

Andy Gray no you just look at animals as cute things but reality they are wolves they will have no hesitation to bite if they feel they need to defend them selfs . . . . . thats why they have teeth

Tamara Humans make decisions, dogs are instinctual.. DUH!!!!

Shari parrot didnt deserve to die

Andy Gray i am not saying he deserved ! i love dogs i have dogs but you cant trust them fully. any dog could go beezerk, whats to say parrot couldnt of gone beezer after the owner calmed him down ?

Tamara Really, Do you know anything about Pitbulls?? Obviously NOT!! You CAN NOT shoot one in the head directly because like the alligator, there is a SMALL portion of the skull that can be penetrated ONLY.. Knowing this, one would question WHERE that BULLET COULD HAVE GONE?? Maybe into you?? Or me?? or a child?? Educate yourself before you wreck yourself.. Whoops.. Too late!

Shari RIP sweet parrot god bless you really really didnt deserve this to happen to you and i hope something gets done abt it

Andy Gray shari - well that dog could of been put on a leesh then it pull away and go for someone and once its got a hold of anyones neck then it gets shot. is it now right to shoot the dog ?

Tamara - yeah i know alot about pitbulls . . . . my mums mate rescues staffy bull which the american pit bull is bread from but the american pit bull is an illegal breed where i am from becasue in there nature of it. im quite sure that if i bullet was shot to its head no bone in the world could stop a bullet i do anatomy and physiology and no bone can stop a bullet

I am only saying the cop might of though the dog would turn on him after he treated it (not saying it was the best way to treat the situation) but maby he knew dogs are aggressive animals and will bite

Tamara Point well taken.. But holding this dog down and clearly over reacting is what the issue is in the USA right now.. Where you are from, the police DO NOT CARRY GUNS>.. Enough said.

It's amazing to think that anyone could say that the cop was doing the right thing when he threw the dog down the stairs and shot it. How is it right? Someone please explain how mercilessly killing anything is "right"...

Resident Evil: Operation Raccoon City

Resident Evil: Operation Raccoon City. Now, I know that there are quite a few Resident Evil fans out there who are hating how the game is turning out so far. I had the game suggested to me on Amazon UK, so curious, I decided to check out demos/trailers of it on YouTube.

After reading the description of the game on Amazon, I realised I'd already heard of the game. In it, you play as an Umbrella operative, and you have the option of kill Leon S. Kennedy. It's clear from this that the game is NOT canon, and this is simply a "what if..." scenario.

Several comments on YouTube videos I've decided to check out are already saying the game is crap just because of the style. Basically, it's a third-person shooter...or as some people in the comments have called it - Resident Evil: Call of Duty. Never played Call of Duty myself, and I have no plans at all to do so. I do, however, want to play Operation Raccoon City. I love the old Resident Evil games, and this one looks interesting from what I've watched.

Here are some of the videos of the game that I have watched.

Resident Evil: Operation Raccoon City - SDCC 11: Campaign Gameplay Part I
Resident Evil: Operation Raccoon City - SDCC 11: Campaign Gameplay Part II
Resident Evil : Operation Raccoon City - Official Captivate 2011 Trailer [HD]

I bought two new games recently. The Adventures of Tintin - The Secret of the Unicorn, and Batman - Arkham City.

Tintin turned out to be a platformer game, and was pretty fun to play, although it was a pretty short game. Only took me about three hours to complete. I'm sure it would have taken a lot less if the game didn't freeze up several times on me. There was only one place in which that happened, and I'm not too sure why it kept freezing up in that area. You get into a fight on a bridge, it breaks; you go tumbling down a steep rocky surface, then fall into some water. Around it, there are several platforms with enemies on them. That is the area where the game continually froze up. I'm not 100% sure, but I think it may have something to do with how you knock out the enemies. The freeze ups tended to happen if I took out the guy on the far left of the screen, then dived back into the water to be able to sneak behind the only other guy carrying a gun in that area.

Someone will have to let me know if they've had the same freeze up, or if there's just something wrong with my copy of the game.

I'm not too far into Arkham City yet as I've been gliding around the city searching for side missions...just for fun! Definitely a great game though! A lot more fun that Asylum, which is a great game itself!

A Dismal Day

It's been such a dismal day outdoors today.

I'm not going to be doing any work with TSOP this week. We never actually got any work done today. Tomorrow and Wednesday, Richard and Peachy are going to be busy with other things, so there's no point in me attending unless I want to get extremely bored due to having nothing at all to do. As for Thursday and Friday? They're planning on just relaxing.

It appears that the weather forecast for the week is just going to be rain. It really does affect what you can do out on the field and all because no one really wants to be digging up extremely wet mud. Strangely enough, it's typical weather. Not because it's the UK, but because this week is a school half-term. It's typical weather for that kind of thing. Half-term comes around, and you're almost guaranteed awful weather, preventing the kids from actually really doing anything.

So, this week, I've got nothing at all to do really. All I can see happening this week is Sean bitching about how I'm lazy and don't do anything; telling me that I need to go out and find a job. I don't want to! I'm getting a job from Richard if I stick with this project, and it'll be in computing, something I actually WANT to do. I don't want another job in retail or cleaning if it's possible to get one in computing!

Tomb Raider - Pre-order?

Tomb Raider already available for pre-order? But why?

Yesterday, as I was checking my e-mail, I noticed one e-mail from Amazon UK letting me know that Tomb Raider is now available for pre-order. How is this possible though? If you're interested in the game, as I am, you'd have read in a lot of places that the game isn't being released until the third quarter of 2012. However, since it's available for pre-order on Amazon UK now, does this mean that the game is being released soon? If not, this has to be the first time I've ever seen a game available for pre-order almost a full year before the game is due to be released.

Sadly, there isn't a release date listed on Amazon UK, so it's not possible at this moment to tell if the game is still being released in the third quarter of 2012, or is being released soon. I would really love to know though.

Does anyone know of the exact release date for the game? Has a release date even been announced at all yet? All I've heard so far is third quarter 2012. That would suggest it'll be available for purchase sometime between the 1st July - 30th September 2012. I've not heard of a more narrowed down release date so far. Hopefully, someone has heard of an exact release date, or a much more narrowed down release date.

The Adventures of Tintin: The Secret of the Unicorn

I recently looked up a trailer for the movie "The Adventures of Tintin: The Secret of the Unicorn". The reason? I was stuck in a room alone for a while at Richard's father-in-law's house. Richard, Peachy and myself all went there for a director's meeting, and I ended up being sent out of the room while they spoke about my role in The Street Outreach Project. I'm hopefully going to be taking over the computer side of things.

Anyway, while I was in the room alone, I picked up a paper that was laying on a nearby table and was browsing through it. Right at the beginning of the paper was a two page article about the Tintin movie that Steven Spielburg and Peter Jackson have been working on together. I ended up being real interested in seeing the movie, and thought to myself "I should look up a trailer of this when I get home on YouTube. I'm glad I see. The movie looks really funny and I definitely want to see it, despite all the comments on the trailer saying it looks like a huge pile of shit. I haven't really read the books, so I can't see what the problem with the movie is. Looks perfectly fine to me and looks like a great piece of entertainment.

It seems that there are more than one book mixed into the movie, but is that really such a huge problem? I'm going to have to check out the novels at some time, if I can find anywhere to get them from.

Here are some of the comments that are bad-mouthing the Tintin movie.

"they've also included the book where Haddock and Tintin become watered down stereotypes of themselves as if recreated by a 5 year old from a cursory glance, I believe that one was "Tintin and the Multiplex""

"although i love Spielberg and all i've read Tintin my whole life and this looks terrible"

"I'm afraid to say this looks f*cking awful"

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion of things though. Question is, how many people are going to see the negative remarks and think "Alright. I'm definitely not going to see this." instead of forming their own opinion?

Move out...now!

Once again, I'm being told by Mom to move the hell out of the house and get my own place because it's unfair on my youngest brother to share a room with someone. I just hope I can move out to Lostwithiel and be near the project and all soon, as Richard has suggested to me a few times. Been told I can either move to Lostwithiel with him, or remain in Looe and get a train pass to get to Lostwithiel. At this point, I think the answer is pretty obvious. I wanna move out to Lostwithiel. That way, I'd be away from Mom's asshole boyfriend, and Mom can be extremely happy that she doesn't have me around anymore. Question is, will it all work out? I certainly hope so. I know for sure I need to be living near someone I know incase something bad happens to me, and I want to be living away from the regular stress I get here.

Although, in Sean's mind, what do I have to be stressed about? I'm not ladened with bills and all. Well, Sean, have you ever consider that you're the bulk of the fucking stress? You're certainly not helping anything, that's for sure.

What would Joan Jett do?

Referring back to my entry "Deep emotional issues? I'm not the one to talk to...", it made me think. The friend I was referring to in it is a HUGE fan of Joan Jett, and has quoted in the past the line "What would Joan Jett do?". It made me wonder, if you're a fan of a strong person like that; if you want to be like that person, then where is the thinking "What would Joan Jett do?"?

If Joan Jett were to hit rock bottom, do you honestly think that her only options would be to smoke or to cut? Personally, I don't think so. I'm not really a Joan Jett fan myself, but I know that she is a strong person. Put yourself in her shoes. I've thought about it with people like Lara Croft and all. All these strong people would not resort to cutting or smoking in my mind. But, I guess in a way, some people can't change; can't look up to their heroes and think responsibly.

Sadly, I think by not understanding her, I've lost her as a friend. Is it for the better? For her, possibly. I hate losing friends, but maybe those friends I lose are better off without me. Less hassle for them. Just hope she's ok.

"There's no such thing as bi. You're gay!"

I've got to say, I am now convinced that Willy, a Yahoo! chat user who frequently visits 20's Love: 2 and 20's Love: 3, is the BIGGEST fucking idiot in existance. He started out by asking if this girl, Michelle, was truly bi, and then Willy got into an argument with her that being bi means you're gay. It doesn't matter if you like the opposite gender too, according to him, if you like the same sex, you're gay.

Here's how the conversation went -

everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:08:51): are you really bi ?
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:09:06): have you been with girls before
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:09:20): oh thats hot
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:09:29): talk about ittttttttttttttttt
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:09:42): lol ive been inna threesome This line is a complete lie. Any regular visitor to these two rooms will know he's never been in a threesome. Never been with just ONE girl.
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:09:46): with two girls that were lesbians
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:09:47): soo yeaaahh
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:10:01): biii lol
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:10:09): thats just another word for confused
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:10:13): of course ur gay if ur bi
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:10:31): its the same thing
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:10:37): u like the the same sex
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:10:40): that makes you gaty
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:10:46): bi and being lez is totally diff dude u dont know shit lol
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:10:47): its nothing wrong with it
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:11:11): you cant be with a girl and be bi
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:11:17): when ur with a girl urra lesbian
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:11:34): gawd she is stupid
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:11:43): no wonder she issa lesbian
tidan_likida (08/10/2011 13:11:46): You're the stupid one, Willy
tidan_likida (08/10/2011 13:11:55): :))
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:12:00): if ur attrackted to the same sex that makes you G A Y
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:12:08): he special highly special ed
tidan_likida (08/10/2011 13:12:11): I think he's the only one clueless on the whole thing, Michelle
udontwant_thedramabytch (08/10/2011 13:12:17):  phat whats up
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:12:21): just because you are attrackted to the opposite sex does not mean you are not G A Y
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:12:31): hey udont
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:12:39): michelle i have been to bed
udontwant_thedramabytch (08/10/2011 13:12:40):  how u are
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:12:43): the time here is 14.00
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:12:47): 14.12
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:12:49): reallyy
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:12:53): i am fine just chillni tired a lil
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:12:56): ur the one that needs to some sleep
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:13:00): so u can make more sense
udontwant_thedramabytch (08/10/2011 13:13:15):  oh really
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:13:23): im 187
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:13:35): u cant be homicide stupid thats a verb
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:13:45): its a # too
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:14:01): stop lying to urself
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:14:02): michelle
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:14:03): ur gay
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:14:07): nothing wrong with it
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:14:23): she loves gurls and guys dude there can u understand that
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:14:37): but you cannot love the same sex without being gay
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:14:47): if you are in love with a guy that makes you gay
tidan_likida (08/10/2011 13:14:47): Stop lying to yourself, Willy. You're a complete idiot who doesn't know shit
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:14:58): it isent really that hard to understand
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:15:06): people are just afraid to accept who they really are
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:15:08): lmao i was gonan say that hard
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:15:23): ya i know sum men that would love to have him in prison
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:15:27): at least if i was GAY it would not be ashamed of it like you MICHELLE
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:16:08): no it doesent
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:16:13): omg ur 27 years old
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:16:18): u cannot
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:16:31): IF UR GAY UR GAY JUST ACCEPT WHO U ARE
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:16:52): THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS BEING BI
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:17:04): your either gay or your not
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:17:18): BUT YOU ARE GAY THOUGH
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:17:19): WTF
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:17:26): HOW CAN U NOT SEE THAT OR UNDERSTAND IT
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:17:27): bisexual
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:17:33): do u know uwt that means
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:17:42): she liked to be gay with other gay girls
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:17:41): wut
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:17:49): which is cool
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:18:07): ur still gay lol
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:18:16): nope not at all a real lezcant stand dick for real lol
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:18:20): just because u like guys at the same time doesent mean you are not gay
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:18:30): u cannot be bi with somebody
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:18:34): you are gay with somebody
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:18:42): imma write a blog about this shit
tidan_likida (08/10/2011 13:18:43): Michelle, just give up arguing with him. He's too stupid to understand
phat_kunts_anonymous (08/10/2011 13:18:52): no dont waste ur time on sumthin like that udont
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:19:00): she keeps arguing with me cause she sees i have a point
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:19:08): im not trying to mean to her im just being honest
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:19:40): BE GAY BE HAPPY
tidan_likida (08/10/2011 13:19:45): brb. I went brb here so I could blog about how completely fucking stupid he is.
everything_remainz_raw_yooo (08/10/2011 13:19:45): OR BE BI AND NEGLECTIVE

Some of the conversation is missing because Michelle was talking to Willy on the mic, and I can't recall exactly what she said, but I just wanted to show how much of a complete idiot Willy is.

Deep emotional issues? I'm not the one to talk to...

I've just discovered that I am not the best person for some people to talk to about their problems. The reason? I've never been in the same situation as them, so can't possibly understand what they're going through.

I figure that because of this, I could just sign out of my main ID before I make anything worse. I'm sure I've already made things worse anyway, just by being online to talk to.

Anyway, I'm sorry for being an asshole about the situation you're in, and I know I'm not the person you wanna be talking to about the problems. You need someone who actually understands why you'd do those kinda things.

I had trouble sleeping last night. I had a bit of a stuffed up nose, and my arms are sore from carrying several boards of plywood yesterday. Discovered that although it looks light enough, it's pretty damn heavy, and when you're not used to carrying that kind of weight, it soon hurts your arms. They're still sore from yesterday. It's a good thing I have three days to recover from that.

Monday, I won't be going with Richard out to the farmland because there isn't going to be enough room in the car, so I won't be going again until Tuesday.

Apart from carrying all that plywood, and slipping all over the place because of the wet mud, Richard and I set up some computers in Restormal Lodge Hotel. The main reason we went there was to sort out their wifi because it'd gone out again. The first time we went to sort it out, the problem was that the router was switched off. Yesterday, the reason for it being out was because the phone wire had been disconnected from the router. Two simple, easy to fix problems in two days. Wonderful.

We set up two new computers for them too while we were there, and installed AVG Virus Scanner onto them. They seriously need Firefox or Google Chrome installed onto them as well because Internet Explorer is a pile of shit. No idea if we could've done that though. They may prefer to have IE on them, but I'd want Firefox or Chrome on them myself if it was my choice, but it isn't.

Shake it off!

Not much to this entry. Just a simple note from a friend's Facebook page. Enjoy!

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.

As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

MORAL :

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happens.

3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less from people but more from God.

"Fuck this..."

I had a much shorter day of helping out Richard today.

His daughter, Abby, went into school in tears because she was hurting, so Richard called the doctor to make an appointment for her. The appointment wasn't until about 11:40, so we had a bit of time to do some stuff...or avoid doing some stuff.

We went back to do this old lady's garden again today, try to finish it off, and she just added more work onto it. Yesterday, we'd weeded some of the garden, and dug up several concrete blocks which were moved to the top of her garden. Today, she tells us she doesn't want the blocks anymore and asked if we could take them away. This would involve carrying several blocks all the way BACK down the garden, and around to the front of the house to dump into the trailer, which was full of several other blocks from yesterday. Richard and I emptied the trailer of the blocks it already contained at the farmland, and after that, we were both like "Fuck this.", and decided to go do other things...anything just to get away from moving these blocks.

So, we went all the way down to St Austell to collect several plants, which Richard had been planning to do for quite a while now. After that, I suggested that we go to this hotel where he's meant to be sorting out some computer stuff for a guy named Steve. He thought that was a good idea after dropping off the plants at the farmland. It turned out that Steve wasn't there today, and we'd managed to pick the one day he wasn't at work.

Eventually, after wasting enough time, we went back to the old lady's place, did about 10 minutes of leveling out the soil in her garden, then left again because it was about time for his daughter to go and see the doctor. She saw him, then wanted to go home instead of going back to school, which is what we did. It was great not having to haul all those blocks out of her garden. I'm sure that old lady isn't going to be too happy about it, but then, neither are we. Richard only quoted like £25 for the job, and doing all this extra shit, it really requires her to pay more money, or just forget the whole thing. No one should have to haul all that shit and stuff for £25.

Richard admitted he'd made a mistake by only quoting £25 for it, and should've thought about it some more. However, it was the first time he ever had to quote a price on something, and he wasn't too sure on how much work it was actually going to be.

Act your age! No!

I had quite a laugh today. Got to Richard's place, and surprised him because I don't think he was expecting me to show up since I'd forgotten to call him yesterday and tell him I'd be coming along. Read through a plan he's come up with, which was a plan to build some garden furniture and sell it, and hopefully it'll raise some of the money needed for the project.

Left there and went to the farmland to let his 2 dogs have a run around the place for a bit...where he said "If you have any ideas, please share them.", so I told him all about this joke sprinkler idea I came up with when I was talking to my baby yesterday. He seemed to think it would be a good idea, although a little naughty. Some parents probably wouldn't be too happy about it.

We then had to leave the farmland to weed some old lady's back garden for about an hour or two, then left again for the farmland and sat around for a bit having lunch. Went back to the old lady's place again to continue the weeding, and as it was getting toward the end of the day, Richard and Darren decided to have a mud fight...totally covering each other in mud. I just stood back and watched, laughing.

It was great listening to him explaining to parents why he was covered in mud. It definitely shows that Richard is one of those older guys who is not afraid to act immaturely, which is always great. People like Mom's boyfriend are just a pain to deal with. You get lecture after lecture about how childish you're acting and all. I'm so fucking tired of listening to it.

On the way home, Richard had asked me if I was claiming benefit money. I told him I wasn't, but keep getting told by Sean and Mom to claim unemployment, which I don't want. He actually understands why I wouldn't want to claim that. Go on to claim that, and you're forced into doing shit you don't want to do. I'm glad to see that someone older than me actually understands the reason WHY I don't wanna claim it. I don't want the hassle of the shit that comes with it...especially since last time resulted in the crash which left me with the fucking problems I have now.

Why aren't there more older people who fucking understand why someone like me would NOT wanna claim unemployment? The money would be useful, but it's not worth all the hassle that comes with it. Not at all.

I took some pictures of the farmland this project is taking place on, and I figured it would be good to take more pictures as the project progresses, showing how it does from a completely overgrown mess into something great. I'll upload those later on.

Linked minds?

I just had a HUGE laugh with my girlfriend, Lacey, in an IM on Yahoo! I started off by asking her to guess something, and amusingly, that lead to us somehow being on the same wavelength. Here's how the conversation went, for those few lines at least.

tidanlikida: Gueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeess what!
Suductive Eyes: what
tidanlikida: I LOVE YOU!
Suductive Eyes: i love you<3
tidanlikida: ;))
Suductive Eyes: ;))
tidanlikida: :))
Suductive Eyes: :))
Suductive Eyes: omg

It's great to be on the same wavelength as the one you love! Also gives you both something to laugh about.
I seriously can't wait to be here. It'll be even more amusing if we ended up doing the same in person, although we would look kind of crazy doing it in public then bursting out laughing hard because of it.

It's not psychotic, it's protection!

Wow. This is funny. I was browsing the Entertainment articles on the website The Sarcasmist when I came across an article titled Bieber Fans Want Kardashian Dead

Here is what the article says -

Here is a perfect reason why fans should be called what they really are, fanatics.

After Bieber revealed that he had the hots for Kardashian, and then ended up meeting her at the White House Correspondents’ dinner, his rabid fans came after Kardashian with death threats on twitter.

On Tuesday, the reality star tweeted, “Seriously Biebs! @JustinBieber I’m getting death threats from your fans! This is unBeliebable!!!” Bieber responded with a tweet to his fans saying, “Ladies calm down. @kimkardashian is a friend. a very sexy friend but a friend. no need 4 threats. Let’s all be friends and hang out often.” (MTV)

But it’s kind of understandable that Justin Bieber’s fans would be upset about the possibility of Kim Kardashian taking his innocence away. This is not psychotic behavior at all. His fanatics are just trying to protect him.

It's not psychotic? I wish I could understand peoples' thinking with that. It seems completely psychotic to me. What are they trying to protect him from? It's more like complete jealousy; if they can't have him, then whoever can must die! Logical thinking there; not psychotic at all, right?

Interesting day

Had a rather amusing day today. I went to meet Richard, who I'd met at the fish & chip shop just down the road from me, but I wasn't too sure where to meet him at first. So, I was stood around the approximate area he said to go to, and waited, hoping I didn't miss him. Luckily, I didn't, and he was running late.

I got a lift from him to the project he is running, and was shown around and told what they were planning to do. They're planning on building a garden, farmyard stuff, a club house for people to hang out in and all. For anyone interested, here is the website for the project, which explains some of the things they are hoping to accomplish. Currently though, it's just a huge overgrown mess.

I helped out a while while I was there, doing some digging, as well as helping them hang up a gate. Not the biggest leap forward in the project, but it got it a tiny bit further.

I may be going out there with Richard again on Monday to help with some stuff again, and some computer stuff was mentioned by him while I was in the car with him, so hopefully I'll get to do a little bit of computer work.

Richard seems like an extremely nice guy, and has said that if I keep coming along, he may pay for webhosting for me, which means I'll be able to have an official website for the webcomic I'm planning. All that I need now would be to improve my art if he does that for me. I'll have the website, all that would need improving is artwork. It helps me quite a bit. Real nice of him to do that for me if he does.

I swear one of the guys who I met today, a guy Richard calls Peachy, runs on Energizer batteries or something because Richard, Darren, and myself kept taking breaks (it was hot and tiring), but Peachy just seems to be able to keep going and going and going. He'd be good in a commercial for Energizer batteries.

Darren kept wanting Richard to get girls there, and at one point, I joked with Richard that we should bring back a couple of old ladies for Darren, then see what he says.

Hold the line!

Lately, a company has been calling the house trying to push off a service in which they supposedly stop companies you don't want calling you from calling unless they give some password first. Oddly enough, they're the ones I don't want to have to listen to, yet they never let up. So, I figure next time they call, I'm going to say I'm not the person they're after, but I'll go get him, and as they do, say "Hold the line please.". Then, I'm gonna attach the phone to my speakers and play the song Hold The Line on repeat until they get annoyed and hang up. I'll continue to do it until they give up calling altogether.

The one downside to this plan is that I need to make sure Mom's boyfriend isn't upstairs so he can't hear me say this stuff. He'd ruin it by entering the room and saying something...which I don't want.

He's been a major pain in the ass recently too. When my brother got home from school, Mom's boyfriend told him to do his homework, and ended up insulting the hell out of me saying "You don't want to end up like your brothers, do you? Claiming unemployment, and sat at home all day online with no life until you retire." That describes him more than it describes me. I may not have a life in terms of offline friends, but then again, he doesn't either. I don't know of anyone who really likes the asshole. Also, I'm not claiming unemployment; he is. I'll admit I'm online a lot, but not 24/7 like he's claiming. I do go into town looking for jobs. The most I've seen him go out is into the garden for a smoke...shopping with Mom, or getting a ride down to the shops down the road, which is only a 2 minute walk. Why call me lazy when you can't even walk a 2 minute journey? He's not crippled or anything. No reason he can't walk, other than laziness.

Yesterday also proved his laziness, when Mom asked him for some help, he told her "I am helping, by staying out of the way." His next excuse was to say he was too sick, and the only suffering women do is when they give birth. That made me wonder...what the fuck does Mom see in him? He's a major fucking jerk...not only to her kids and all, but also to her. Why does she like him? It's so confusing!

Is 2012 the end?

Earthquakes, big freezes, killer flus; is 2012 truly going to be the end of the world?

In the past few days, I've read in the newspaper that this week, the UK is supposed to be having a heatwave of 83° F, followed by a big freeze next week. Will it really happen? Who knows.

I also read today in another paper that a killer flu is going to be hitting the UK.

No earthquakes have hit the UK, but I do know that there have been a couple in the USA, and other parts of the world too. If you're a believer in the end of the world stuff, all of this stuff will probably lead you to the conclusion that it truly IS the end of the world coming to light. I, however, do not believe that the world is going to end. All these things, in terms of the end of the world, are just rediculous coincidences.

If I'm wrong, then everyone can yell at me next year when the world is gone. Oh, wait...if it were gone, no one would be able to. So, I guess in a way this is a win/win situation for me. If I'm right, no one can complain. If I'm wrong, no one can complain.

So, what does everyone else believe? Do you believe the world is truly going to end in 2012, or do you think it's all stupidity?

I'm so fucking confused!

I am so fucking confused about everything lately!

Earlier, I was asked by Mom's boyfriend if I'd seen the job advertisement for bar staff in the Cornish Times (a newspaper). After reading the advertisement, I called the bar only to receive no answer from anyone. 30 minutes later, I try again; still no answer. Another 30 minutes; no answer. I gave up trying for a while, then at about 15:45, I got an answer. However, it wasn't from the person it said to contact in the paper. That person doesn't get there until 18:00. So, I left my name and number.

Not too long after that, Mom's boyfriend gets home and says he's going to the Job Center some time next week (I forget what he said exactly), and asked when I was going to sign on (for unemployment). As I've mentioned before in my blog, it's not something I want to claim after the crash on the DMT "bus" that left me with epilepsy. I do not intend on claiming it due to the fact that since I haven't had a job for more than six months, I may end up being sent back to DMT immediately, and that scares me. I told him I was waiting for a call back from that job, and he proceeded to tell me that he called the bar earlier and was told that they were looking for someone with experience in bar work, as well as a licence for it.

Question is, how did he call them earlier when I was unable to get an answer? Also, why did he decide to tell me this after I told him I wasn't planning on claiming unemployment? It's leaving me so confused. If he knew that from the start, then why fucking bother telling me I should call them? Honestly, I think he just wants me to claim unemployment so he and Mom can have the money I get from it. I'm getting mixed messages from it all. They want me to get a job and get out of here, yet when they tell me about a job, and I try for it, I get told some crap as to why I can't get it and told to claim unemployment. I'd only ever claim unemployment if I knew that it wouldn't result in me being sent back to DMT, and there's nothing that says I won't be.

I could do what one friend had said, which is to claim it and refuse to go to DMT if they decide to send me, but I think that will just get the unemployment cut off, or I'll be in trouble with the police or something. So, in the end, it's worthless even trying. I'll either lose the money, or be in serious shit.

First Impressions: Tomb Raider (2012)

While I was out this morning, delivering newspapers (I wonder how much longer I have to do that), I got to thinking about the new Tomb Raider game that is meant to be released in 2012; a game I can't wait to play, and I wondered if there were any gameplay trailers of it on YouTube. It wasn't until just now that I remembered that I was going to look for videos of it. So, here are some of the videos I've found of the game...in terms of gameplay that is. I'm sure there are plenty of trailer videos since the game was announced.

Tomb Raider 2012 Gameplay - E3 2011 Presentation
Tomb Raider (2012) E3 2011 Extended Gameplay

From what I've seen of the game so far, this "new" Lara is looking to be a hell of a lot more fragile than the Lara of the previous games. She doesn't appear to be the tough chick that we've all come to know and love. Is this a bad thing? In my mind, no. I'm loving this new Lara over her previous incarnations.

This fragile, more insecure Lara actually makes me care for her a lot more than she has in the past. All the Tomb Raider games I've played in the past have been good...mostly, but this one, it's just amazing. Never before has Lara looked and sounded so scared; so terrified of her predicament. Watching the gameplay footage I've seen has made me want the game even more. It's just too bad that there is a while until the game is going to be released. In the first video, they mentioned "4/2012", which I assume means that the game is not going to be released until some time in April 2012. The exact date? Who can say? If you look at the entry for the game on Wikipedia, it states the release date as "TBA Q3 2012". It makes you wonder what they meant by "4/2012" in the gameplay footage they showed at E3.

After seeing this footage, I'm sure I am not the only person who is really looking forward to purchasing and playing Tomb Raider once it has been released in 2012.

How do you acknowledge that you're listening?

The one thing that really confuses me about Mom's boyfriend is when you're being told about something. To show that I'm listening to people, I'll usually just say "Ok." if there's nothing more to really say. Lately, I've had to do that a lot because I'm mainly just getting lectures from him and my Mom. However, it seems that "Ok." isn't enough to show them I'm listening. Instead, he just assumes I'm ignoring them and just saying "Ok." to get them to shut up. The question is, what do I say instead? I mean, I could say "Yes.", "Yeah." or "Alright.", but that's not too much different to saying "Ok.". It makes me wonder if I should just say nothing at all. But honestly, I think he and Mom will still get angry with me because they'll assume that no answer means I'm not listening anyway.

I believe that there is no way to please them both. I know what they'd like, and that is for me to be out of this house and living in my own place. I would actually like that a hell of a lot myself because I'm tired of the fucking bullshit I get from Mom and him. For someone who claims to have nothing to do with us at all, and is "just the guy dating your mother", he sure likes to take control of everything.

I also ended up getting lectured about how I ignored Mom's boyfriend when he was calling to me yesterday morning. According to Mom, he'd called me a few times yesterday morning trying to ask me to come down and help him paint the kitchen. Funny, because I never heard anything. I was feeling a little sleepy though, and could feel myself drifting off to sleep, so maybe I fell asleep for a little while and wasn't aware of it. If I didn't, then I definitely did not here him asking me to go and help him. Even if I did though, would I have really gone and helped him out? Probably not. He doesn't deserve any help with anything.

Why Do Smokers Smoke?

I signed up for Triond today as I figured it might be a better place to get some of my opinions out.

Anyhow, I decided to check out some of the other users on the website. One user, Eliza Worner wrote an article that I can completely agree on. The article is titled Why Do Smokers Smoke?.

It's a good question, and she has some nice points in it, especially when it comes to people quitting. On the topic of quitting, she said...

Given what we know about the dangers of smoking to ourselves, our children and everyone around us, there is really no excuse to ever start smoking in the first place, and once the self-absorbed ego of teenagehood has been outgrown, there is certainly no reason to continue smoking. The reasons to quit smoking far outweigh the minor enjoyment of smoking. Anyone who claims they have tried to quit but found it too difficult clearly don't care about themselves or anyone else.

It's an extremely valid point. Why do people start smoking to begin with? I know that when you're a teenager, peer pressure may push you into starting (something that never worked on me), but once you're no longer a teen and away from the peer pressure stuff, why continue?

There's really no point to smoking. Honestly, when it comes to the effects of smoking, does it really calm you down or help you relax? Personally, I don't think so. Afterall, once my aunt quit smoking, she was a MUCH nicer person than she was when she was smoking. Smoking doesn't have ANY advantages from what I've seen. Sure, it may calm you down and help you relax for maybe an hour or two, but after that, you're going to be cranky and wanting another smoke.

I've never been able to stand the smell of cigarettes, which really makes walking out and about a pain because of smoke being blown back toward you by the wind and all. It happened just this morning. I was walking home behind a couple of nurses, and the smoke from their cigarettes was blowing back toward me. Sadly, I couldn't cross the road to get away from it or anything since there is no sidewalk on the other side of the street I live on. There was no way I'd be able to hold my breath long enough to get by them either.

I tried to comment on the article, telling her that I'm glad I'm not the only non-smoker who finds the act completely selfish and totally inconsiderate of everyone around them. I was also going to mention Mom's boyfriend, telling her about how he said he was going to quit, but gave up on quitting about five hours later, proving the line "Anyone who claims they have tried to quit but found it too difficult clearly don't care about themselves or anyone else." completely correct. It's sad that he thinks five hours without smoking is a good attempt at trying to quit. It's fucking pathetic to be honest.

Redheads to be a minority possibly?

A friend of mine, Lacey, had a status on Yahoo! telling people to check out Ryan's articles on a website called Triond. Curious, I clicked the link in her status, and then went on to check out Triond. I was surprised by one article I saw on the front page. It was titled Got Red Hair? You May be a Minority Very Soon.

I decided to check it out to see what it was about, and discovered that people don't want redheaded kids. Here's one small paragraph from it.

According to Cryos International, one of the largest sperm banks in the world, clients do not want their children to have red hair. The sperm bank is now turning away sperm donors with red hair because the demand for clients that want children with red hair simply isn’t there.

Why don't people want redheaded kids? It's kind of sad. I personally don't think there's anything wrong with redheads. Infact, a lot of redheaded chicks are actually really cute. I could understand why people may not want a redheaded son (I reckon a lot of guys wouldn't wanna be redheads), but what about females? Are redheaded females really THAT bad?

Someone really needs to explain to me why there is so much hatred toward redheads.

Opposite genders can’t be “just friends” - Part 2

Referring back to my blog entry Opposite genders can’t be “just friends” in which Vassoran claimed men and women can't be "just friends", a penpal came up with a very valid point. In her most recent letter to me, she said...

Bullshit,men and women can too be friends. I have several male friends that I wouldn't sleep with or date. What does that guy say about lesbians who are friends with guys or gay guys who have female friends? There is a flaw in his thinking.

I wonder why that thought never crossed my mind back when I wrote that entry. It's a good point. Lesbians have male friends, as well as gay guys having female friends. Homosexual people aren't going to be interested in dating or having sex with the opposite gender. Nice flaw in your thinking there, Vassoran.

Amusing chat line

Yesterday, I saw a line in the chatroom that I haven't seen for a while now. But, I really can't remember who was greatly amused by this one line. I know that one of my female friends loved the line and would quote it at times. Although, since it hasn't been quote by any friend lately, it's either been forgotten until now, or that friend no longer comes online. Here is the line.

camred007 (18/09/2011 08:28:00): hello all young girls of rounded n pointed boobs with pink nipples.

Now, someone who regularly reads my blog may remember that line and get a laugh out of it, then may end up quoting it again for fun. Possibly, other people may get a laugh out of it and start quoting it.

Is that a fish in your pants or...

It's really sad when you can't even joke about a screen name without people calling you gay. This all happened in 20's Love: 2 yesterday. Bored, and because the room was basically dead, I joined in on a conversation when this girl said that something was rude. Take a look.

trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:07:13): porn anyone? lmao
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:08:11): how rude
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:08:49): What's rude?
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:09:19): ya whats rude
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:09:49): asking ppl 4 porn
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:09:55): =))
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:10:06): nah i have my own lol
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:10:28): so is ur mouth as big as that trout
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:10:32): I don't think he was asking for porn...I think he was asking if anyone wanted some
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:11:31): still doesn't make any difference
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:11:33): Better question is, why does he have a fish in his pants?
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:11:57): loosen up ur panties agirl lol
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:11:59): Something fishy about that
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:12:45): shut up trout
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:13:24): "Is that a fish in your pants...or is your penis just wiggling all over the place?"
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:13:42): tidan stop lookin in my pants
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:13:47): this convo's making me sick
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:14:17): ur obsessed with my dick....ur making me nervous lol
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:14:46): is tidan gay or sth lol
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:14:54): think hes gay
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:15:09): I'm not gay. I was just joking around.
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:15:35): just seemed obsessed with whts in my pants
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:15:48): I know you people WISH I was gay, but I'm not...so too bad for you.
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:15:51): doesn't it give u the creeps to comment on a guy's body tidan?
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:16:34): creepin me out .....
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:16:48): keepin my back to the wall near him lmao
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:16:53): Er...no. I'm not looking at the parts...I'm just making jokes. I'd be creeped out if I was actually LOOKING at those parts, but I'm not.

Don't people have more original insults? When it comes to insulting people online, a lot of people will just end up resorting to jokes about fucking a person's mother, or calling a person gay. Why?

A ghostly voice?

I heard a clear female voice earlier saying "Yeah, I know.". I thought it was my sister, so the conversation ended up going like this.

Random female voice: Yeah, I know.
Me: You know what?
Sister: What?
Me: You said "Yeah, I know."
Sister: I did not. I said "Penny." (Penny is the name of one of the dogs)
Me: No...you said "Yeah, I know."
Sister: I didn't!
Me: You did!

I'm sure my sister now thinks that I'm completely crazy, and I'm sure some people reading this will also think that I'm crazy. I honestly did hear, in a clear female voice, "Yeah, I know.". The question is, who was it, and what do they know?

I'm thinking that it may have been a ghost because I have seen a little girl in the past stood in the doorway of my bedroom. I've no idea who the girl was, or why she was standing there. I've told a few friends about this already too. Some believe me, and I'm sure some think I'm completely crazy. But I do remember that night. I was talking to some friends online, and I needed to use the bathroom, so I got up to leave my bedroom. As I reached the doorway, I saw a young girl, who must've been about 8 or so in age. Surprised that she was there, I backed away, and bumped into my desk, at which point she disappeared. I have NO idea who she is because I've never seen anyone like that before.

I also have a photo in which a face appeared on the screen of my television. The TV was turned off at the time, so there is no reason why the face should be there. Also, I was completely alone in my bedroom when I was taking the pictures, so it's not the reflection of someone who was in the bedroom with me...at least, not the reflection of anyone LIVING.

You worthless piece of shit

Some people are so touchy on certain topics.

Yesterday, my youngest brother showed a friend of his a music video on YouTube called "Cooking by the Book" A Lil' Bigger Mix by Mastgrr. I got a lecture from my Mom about that; about how I shouldn't be showing a child of 11 years old something like that. When I did watch it, it was a few months ago and I didn't purposely show it to him. I was just watching it when he walked into my room, so he ended up seeing it.

Not too long after that lecture, I was looking at an article on the Smosh Pit called 22 Hilariously Strange Crimes. One of the images there read "A Meadowbrook Boulevard woman, 40, told police while she was stopped at a traffic signal on Hudson Drive a man beeped his horn and held up a sign that said, "I'm not wearing any pants." The woman told police she obtained the man's license plate number." As I was reading that, Mom's asshole of a boyfriend yelled at me saying that was too adult for him to hear.

This makes me wonder what isn't too adult for him. I was looking at Legend of Zelda motivators not too long before that, and a few of them were referring to how Link in some of the games isn't wearing any pants. Does this make Legend of Zelda too adult for 11 year olds now? Are the Legend of Zelda games going to require a mature rating in the games where Link isn't wearing any pants?

I really do not understand the mind of Mom's boyfriend.

I'm sure some people out there are going to agree with Mom's boyfriend and tell me that a lack of pants on a news report IS too adult for an 11 year old, but honestly, it was just a sign supposedly. The guy never got out of the car to show he had a lack of pants, and there was no picture. Are the words "I have no pants on" really too adult for a kid to read?

I guess this means I'll just have to watch out for what I read in the future because it may be "too adult."

Just had another lecture from Mom's asshole of a boyfriend. Mom came in here, telling me I should not leave porn up on my computer screen, and shouldn't even be looking at porn at all. Funny. I don't recall looking at any for a while now. I won't deny that I have looked at porn before, but how many people online haven't done that at some time? I know for a fact though that I have not looked at any lately, so I've no idea how any porn could've been on my computer screen. What I'm thinking though if that Sean had some up on HIS computer screen, and was caught, so in an attempt to get out of it, he pinned the act on me, saying that the porn popped up on his monitor because I was accessing it at the time. Complete bullshit.

Amusingly, his computer has totally died now. I can see this also getting blamed on me as soon as Mom gets home. I'll be told I was looking at something I shouldn't have been looking at, and whatever it was caused a virus that killed his computer. Another complete bunch of bullshit.

I'm sure that at some point, he's going to ask me to repair it, but with the mood I'm in at the moment, this is NOT going to happen. Afterall, after all the porn shit, he called me worthless, pathetic, told me that I can't do anything. Yet again, it came back to jobs, and telling me that I'm not even trying to get a job. It's really sad because I am trying. I've been going into town about twice a week looking around (and more if I just want to get away from Sean), yet no-one notices that I've left the house. They just assume that I'm in here messing around on the computer. So, if I'm so useless and can't do anything at all, then clearly, I will be incapable of fixing his PC. Too bad for him!

The lecture went onto him telling me that if I claim unemployment, it'll help me get a job easily. As I've said before, the only reason he and Mom really want me to claim it is so THEY can have the money. It's not to help me at all. Also, if it's supposed to greatly help you get a job, then why doesn't HE have a job now? Why don't others claiming it have a job RIGHT NOW!? It doesn't help you get a job any faster. All it does is gives you a little bit of money...which will be of no use to me because they don't want me claiming it for me.

I'd have a MUCH easier time finding a job if I could actually drive, but since I can't due to DMT, finding a job isn't going to be easy. The limit last time I was on unemployment was six months before being sent to DMT. Since I've already been unemployed for over six months, I'm more than sure that claiming unemployment won't help me find a job, and will most likely send me immediately back to that place. That'll only lead to more stress for me and most likely even more seizures, which I do NOT need.

Sadly true...

I was looking through my Facebook page when I came across this status from a friend.

SO LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT ... If you cross the North Korean border illegally, you get 12 yrs. hard labor. If you cross the Afghanistan border illegally, you get shot. Two Americans just got eight years for crossing the Iranian border. If you cross the UK border illegally you get a job, a drivers license, food stamps 4 tesco, a place to live, health care, housing & child benefits, education, & a tax free business for 7 yrs ...No wonder we are a country in debt. Re-post if you agree ???

It's sad that it's actually true as far as I know. I've been having problems trying to obtain a job, and oddly enough, people who don't live in the UK have a very easy time getting a job. I was thinking about posting that status on my Facebook, but they thought that it would just be considered spam by a lot of friends. So, I'm sharing it here instead.

Now, if you live in the UK, let me know if you've been having the same problems as I am with getting a job.

I can kind of understand why some companies WOULD hire people who aren't UK citizens. They'll work for less money than UK citizens, but still, they don't seem to realize how much of a pain it is for us. It makes me wonder if some company bosses put themselves in the shoes of unemployed citizens. How would they feel about being turned down for countless jobs just because the boss can hire someone who will work for a lot cheaper? It's not a very nice feeling at all.

What is she hiding?

Sometimes, you just have to wonder how many of your friends are actually true friends. I know I have a few, such as Holly, but others like Vicky, I'm not so sure about. I've been friends with Vicky for a few years now, and I've never once seen a picture of her. Even on her Facebook page, there isn't a single picture of her. Instead, it's just pictures of her...nephew I think. I can't recall her relationship to the kid.

I've asked her on several occasions to take a picture of herself for me, and there's always some excuse as to why she can't. No camera; looks like crap; is a failure. She never gives me a straight "Ok!".

I've asked her politely for pictures, and even resorted to being commanding and ordering her to take a picture, but in the end, it all boils down to the same result. Nothing. It's makes you wonder what she's avoiding. Is she afraid of losing a friend? Is she actually a guy? There's no reason that a friend should hide who they are from someone they consider a friend.

I can't even ask one of her friends (the ones that I know) for a picture because it seems they're never seen a picture of her either.

It seriously makes me wonder if the reason behind it all is because she's one of those guys who fakes being a female, and all these excuses are just a way to avoid showing any pictures.

Recently, I was linked by a friend to a Yahoo! entry about Ali Lohan, which you can see here.

Stuff like that honestly makes me wonder what the hell is going through people's minds. They start off looking pretty, and then end up looking like a fucking zombie. What's the point? Why do pretty young ladies think they're fucking ugly? It's so retarded that they go from beautiful to looking like they should be starring in a zombie movie. There's no need for them to mess up there looks. Not much anyone can really do about it though.

Take a look at that entry, and let me know if she honestly looks like she should be starring as a zombie in some sort of zombie movie. That's really how it appears to me.

Disgusting...

While checking my e-mail today, I came across an e-mail from the Facebook page/group called "Don't Allow Registered Sex Offenders on Facebook!!!". I'm not 100% sure on the link to the page/group, so I cannot link people interested in joining it.

Anyway, the e-mail was titled "Pedophile admitted raping 14-month-old baby girl and filming the abuse at his home". I decided to read the entry (I don't always read entries), and damn is it disgusting. For anyone interested, here is what the news entry said.

David Morrison, 45, of Grangemouth, also admitted being in possession of a library of child abuse images at the High Court in Glasgow on Friday.

Morrison admitted that he raped the child after evidence of the sexual abuse was built up by police through combining online chat logs, photographs and expert analysis of veins in Morrison's hands.

He also admitted taking, possessing and distributing images through the internet.

The investigation found he stated online that he intended to carry out the act. Detectives who seized his computers then discovered he had taken a video clip of the rape, sent the image to a pedophile in the USA and then spoke about it online afterwards.

Detective Inspector Barry Blair, of the Public Protection Unit, which led Operation Malta, said: "This man is undoubtedly one of the most dangerous sexual predators we have ever investigated. We know that children in the Forth Valley area and beyond are considerably safer now he has been convicted at court of these despicable offences.

"A comprehensive and unique evidential jigsaw helped us to charge Morrison with rape, to which has now pleaded guilty. We were able to piece together his offending by examining his chat logs to other offenders immediately before the offence took place, detailed examination of the images he had taken of the abuse actually taking place and looking at chat logs immediately after the offence had taken place.

"Experts were able to tell us, that by examining the patterns of veins on the back of a hand in one of the images and comparing that with photos we took of Morrison's hands, the person in the photo was him. They were also able to tell us by closely scrutinizing the backgrounds of the images that the photos were taken in his home."

Expert analysts were able to identify the location in the image as his home and that a hand which featured in the photograph was that of Morrison.

The pattern of veins on the back of his hand was compared to Morrison’s, confirming that he had committed the act.

Forensic examination of five hard-drives taken from his home revealed Morrison had been in contact with pedophiles in 25 countries. In the UK alone, 15 people have been arrested as a result of the inquiry. Three children were removed from harm after being identified as at risk.

In total Morrison was found with more than 13,000 downloaded and uploaded images, including photographs and videos.

A number of the child abuse images found in the investigation that began in December 2010 were of the most severe kind.

More than 30 police officers and staff worked on the investigation, alongside representatives of other agencies.

Detective Sergeant Douglas Howie, of the Specialist Investigations Unit, which investigates online crime and sexual abuse, said: "The possession and distribution of child abuse images is in no way a victimless crime. Morrison was in contact with more than 200 people around the world through the internet, who were all like-minded individuals who were interested in the sexual abuse of young children. In the UK alone, three children were effectively rescued from being at risk.

"Morrison was carrying out sex abuse on a small child and posting those images around the world for the gratification of others. I cannot think of a more abhorrent offence."

Anne Donaldson, Central Scotland Procurator Fiscal, added: "David Morrison has today pled guilty to offences that any civilized person will find it impossible to comprehend.

"He sexually abused a child and transmitted images of this abuse via a webcam. He made and downloaded indecent images of children and shared these photographs on the internet. "Working closely with police specialists, who utilized the latest technology to uncover the extent of his offending, the expert prosecutors in our National Sexual Crimes Unit have today brought Morrison to justice for these most despicable of crimes.

"I want to reassure the public that the prosecution service will work tirelessly to ensure that there is no place to hide for those intent on committing child abuse. They will be found, and they will be brought to justice."

What a mess...

While I was out on Thursday morning, I noticed a leaflet on the sidewalk for a British book company called B.J. Books. Now, if you have a perverted mind (come on now...everyone on the Internet has a perverted mind. The Internet perverts everyone's minds.), then you'll know how the name of this company can be taken in a complete perverted way. I wonder if the people who gave the company knew that the name could be taken in a really perverted way? Hmmm...maybe they did, and that dirty name would get them some recognition.

Thursday didn't go all too well for me later in the day.

I overheard Mom's boyfriend telling her that she should tell my siblings and I to move the fuck out of the house and stop being a pain in the ass and a burden on her. Annoyed, and not wanting to listen to a lecture, I threw all the Betterware stuff I could into my bag and went out to deliver as much of it as possible. After that, I came home to drop my bag in my room, went to the bathroom, and went out once again.

This is when everything went to shit for me.

I walked other to the SPAR store that's just down the road from me, and I purchased two small bottles of Cherry Cola, and some Matchmaker chocolates. After coming out of the store, I proceeded down to the road behind the store and looked around for someplace to sit down for a while to try to calm my nerves. Sadly, I failed at that.

The next thing I remember is becoming aware of a bunch of people talking to me, and some old ladies voice trying to calm me down. I couldn't really see any of the people who were around me though. I was also trying to get away from these people telling them I just wanted to go home. But none of them were going to allow that. They just wanted me to lay down and remain calm until the ambulance got there.

I never fully came around until I was inside the ambulance, at which point, I felt really bad. I started talking to the nurse in the back of the ambulance about some things, and I apologized to both her and the driver about being rude, if I was rude to them. I honestly have no idea if I was, but apparently, I wasn't too rude to them. I can't help feeling bad though.

I was stuck in hospital for a few hours, not because I was seriously injured, but because several people had to be seen to before me. One bad thing I noticed about that was that one kid came in after me, however he was seen to before me. I honestly down understand how their system in their works. Either way, I went up there about 20:00 - 21:00 Thursday, and didn't get to leave until 0:00 on Friday.

I guess it was lucky for my youngest brother that he was staying over at a friend's house that day because if he hadn't, he wouldn't have been able to get to bed since I'd locked the room. He wouldn't have had access to the room until at least 1:00am on Friday morning.

Because of the seizure, I'm now looking like a complete mess. I've got scratched on my forehead, nose and top lip; my top lip is also swollen. I have scratches on my knuckles, knees and elbows. I'm guessing the ones on my elbows probably came from trying to get up off the floor, but being told to remain laid down on my back. So, battling against that when I wasn't fully aware of what I was doing, I probably scratched my elbows quite a bit. Both of my shoulders are bruised up a bunch too. I also have a cut right on the back of my head that had to be fixed in hospital. So, I look like a complete mess right now. Probably looks like I've been fighting with a brick wall because of the scratched on my knuckles and all, even though that isn't what happened at all.

I really hope I can heal up from this all quickly because in a way, I'm scared to really go outside and risk bumping into anyone. I've no idea what people are going to think. I'll either be asked about it, or people are most likely going to come to the assumption that I've been in a fight. I'd never get into a fight if I can help it, but it is possible for people to see it that way if they don't know the store about why I'm so scratched up, cut, and bruised.