Happier Friends?: Day 2

I've spent just about the entire day watching Rob Dyke videos.

One video I saw today was titled YOU'RE a Hypocrite! And Here's Why! | SOCIAL AUTOPSY #3, which was a fascinating look at our lives. It talks about how we're all hypocrites in our own ways. For example, when one group of 40 people were asked whether they wanted to do an entertaining and easy task or a boring and more difficult task, 85% went for the easy and entertaining task. However, when another 40 were asked the same thing, those in the 85% who chose the entertaining and easy task in the group of the first 40 looked down on those who chose the easy task in the second group of 40. Irony. But amusingly enough, what was said in the video is pretty true. We're all judgemental of others. There are some things you do that you look down on others for, but as Rob points out, many of us will think that we're the special exception to whatever. None of us are a special exception, though.

Now the question is: what do you do that you judge others for? I've been wondering this myself. However, I can't think of what it is right now. I'm not saying I'm a special exception in any case. I do judge people on things, such as racists on my Twitch stream. But I can't think of that one thing I do that I judge others for.

I hope my friends are enjoying their second day without me around to depress them. :D

Happier Friends?: Day 1

I realised last night that I constantly upset people. I started talking to a newish friend, Amy, a lot. My other friends began to feel left out. So, I started streaming daily again to make these other friends happy. The problem with doing that is that Amy no longer feels wanted. When I climbed into bed last night, I thought, "What if I vanish for a few days? Will people be happier that I'm not there to upset them?". I think that these people will be better off without me.

I read on Steam that a new Jackbox game set is coming out on the 13th of October, 2015, so that should be a day when I should return. All my regular viewers could get fun out of new games rather than the same four games. Let's see if my friends feel better without me around to make them feel unwanted.

I've been playing a few offline games on Steam today. I'll see how many I can complete over the next few days since I haven't played any single-player games I bought over the past few months. It's something a couple of people I have added as friends on Steam have complained about: that I have so many games but only play the same 4-5 on my Twitch stream. One reason is that I don't think many people would want to hang around and watch me playing games where they can't get involved. Also, I can't reduce the screen size with a few of them, such as Ghosts of Maple Creek. The problem is that I can't read what anyone is saying in the Twitch stream chat. So, any messages that people may be aiming at me won't receive an answer since I can't read what was said.

One series of offline games that I badly need to complete is Life Is Strange. I haven't played them for a long while, so I have yet to see the latest episode of that game. It's about time that I play through it and see what happened to the characters after Episode 3.

Given The Run Around

I was awoken by a call from Dad. He seemed dissatisfied with how everything was going between ESA and JSA. From what he told me, it sounds like he spent two hours just running between the two places. He'd call one, then they'd tell him to call the other, then the other would tell him to call the other for whatever reason. So he spent a while just calling back and forth between JSA and ESA. You'd think that these two things would communicate in some way, but it doesn't seem like they do.

The mysterious stranger I'm living with was revealed to him on the phone. They assumed Dad and I were living together for some very idiotic reason. Why? Because all the letters go to him as my appointee and not to me. They assumed that meant we were living together. I'd love to know where that very bizarre assumption came from because at every meeting Dad and I went to, it was always stated that he wouldn't always be able to take me to the Job Centre because he lived about 3 hours away. Do they not listen to people, or do they think that Dad and I own a house/apartment that stretches over a distance of 70 miles or so? That would be one hell of a house. It makes you wonder, would it be like a 2-mile walk to the bathrooms and all? We'd have to call each other with things like "Dinner is ready!" and walk several miles to meet in some dining room. You could make a fair bit of money in a house like that. You'd have a hotel that stretches for miles, with countless rooms to house people staying in an area between where Dad lives and where I live.

A Day That Never Happened

Today hasn't been going too well for me. Firstly, the day out with Richard is scrapped due to a lack of cash on Richard's part. But just recently, I got a call from my father telling me about the JSA/ESA stuff. It turns out that recently, my JSA has been reduced by £40 per week, so I'm losing £160 a month there. The reason behind this is that I'm supposedly living with someone. The question is: who? I've never had anyone living with me for the past 2-3 years, possibly longer. Where did they get the information that I have someone living with me? Who is this non-existent person who is living with me? I'm completely lost. As far as I know, I've never said anything about someone living with me. I think someone has been lying to them. Either that, or they're once again making up any old shit to have a reason not to pay me as much. They've already claimed I can work for some bullshit reasons. It wouldn't surprise me if they made up more shit to reduce the amount of money I receive.

A Few Meetings

It was my second lunchtime out with Richard. Today, though, we went to meet two people he knew. I've met one of the two before when we were doing the Disability Awareness Day in Bodmin. Sadly, he's not very well at all. It seems he has some form of cancer, and it wasn't until after we left that Richard realised what the cancer was affecting. The guy's cancer seems to be affecting his lymph nodes. It's not a very nice thing to have been affected. As Richard was telling me on the way to meet the guy, he's so bad that it's possible he could be dead within a year.

Malcolm was the second guy we had to meet up with. Richard was working on an advertising video for this guy's website. He was advertising this homemade meal company that he runs. The video, however, looks pretty wooden and doesn't do too good of a job advertising it all. So, Richard wanted to return tomorrow and try to remake the advert. I was invited along, so I've had to track down my video camera in the hopes of helping them out by recording alongside them. I've no idea how that would go, though.

When we returned to Lostwithiel, Richard showed me the wall which I'd jumped off of back on the 27th of September, 2014; the wall that left me with a broken ankle. I'm amazed that I survived the jump. I went back to the area later in the day to take photos and a little video of the area. I'd really love to know where exactly I jumped from. The top of the wall is completely covered in bushes. There is one small area, though, which isn't, so it's probably the area I jumped from. However, I'll never truly know where I jumped at the top of the wall. Laying at the bottom of the wall, I must have still been slightly delusional because I thought I was lying in an empty field with an old rotten shed nearby. There is a storage place in the area that I could have mistaken for the shed. Still, there's no grassy area anywhere around there that I could have mistaken for a wide, empty field. It's fortunate, though, because if it were a wide, open, seemingly abandoned field like I thought, I would've been extremely lucky if someone had found me. The area I was found, though, was right next to a house, so it was clear I would be found with no problems.