Unwanted

The title explains how I've been feeling lately.

I actually wondered why I even woke up today. Mom's been angry like all day, and Sean's not making it any better. Lately, he's been picking fights with everyone in the house (except Mom), and because of that, Mom's been getting angry with us all because we're not getting along with Sean. But, how can you get along with someone who is constantly nagging at you, insulting you and all? At times, it feels like I'm getting the brunt of the anger because I'm the one trying to stay away from any fights. Seems like Mom just wants me out...telling me to get a job and move out to get my own place. It's one reason I've been feeling majorly unwanted lately.

Where am I going to find a job though? I keep trying and trying, and I'm not really getting anywhere. It was nice to know that a friend I was talking to earlier understands that it's not easy. She brought up valid points...that even the lowest jobs of all lately are looking for people with experience and such. The only real work experience I've had is as a cleaner...and working on a checkout. I have a degree in computing, but there's nothing like that going around here. Question is, if there were, would I get the job since I have no experience job-wise in computing?

Foolish

It appears that my younger brother, Bryn, has been banned from the store just down the road from us. Why? Well, I'm not sure if I reported the theft I once saw him do here, but yes, that is the reason he is banned. He was caught trying to steal something. He was only ever with me once when I saw him do it. I stopped him a few times, but eventually, my brother showed up and Bryn stuck something in his pocket and ran out to go with my brother to Spar. Seems that NONE of the warnings from Mom, myself, or my brother worked at stopping him. I really don't understand why he'd steal stuff anyway. Just stupid, I guess.

I've got to find my wallet when it gets lighter. I can't seem to locate it, and having a lack of light in my room, there's nothing much I can do about it until daylight. Hopefully I can find it since Neil is meant to be coming to collect Betterware money and orders. There's at least £20 in that wallet which I need for the payment stuff.

Seems the Yahoo! chat rooms still aren't doing so well. Every time I enter my regular room, some moron decides to boot everyone after not too long. Someone really needs to answer me...why? What is the point in booting everyone out of a chat room?

Final day

Finally. The past few days seem to have been dragging on forever. Before I got to leave hospital, I was told not to shower/wash my hair for 5 days. Today is the final day of that. I badly need to wash my hair. Isn’t it funny how when you WANT days to pass quickly, they seem to drag on and on and on. Yet, when you want them not to go by so quick, they just fly by.

This morning was a little bit of amusement. One house I delivered a Betterware catalog to…well, let’s just say, I’m NOT going to be getting that catalog back because I heard something race toward the door and then tear the catalog to shreds. I’m guessing they have a small dog. They’re clearly not going to be happy with me at all when they find shreds of paper all over the place by their front door. It’s just as well I don’t knock on many people’s doors to get the catalogs back. I tend to only do that if I know the person regularly orders something and hasn’t left the catalog outside for me to collect.

A lost friend?

I think I may have lost a friend today.

I was talking to her about family, and how I was being bitched at by parents because of anything I do being "too loud". We were talking about my life, and the seizure I'd had when she started asking about how old I am etc. I knew what she was thinking...that I'm pathetic for still living with parents at my age. I know. It's not great. But, honestly, what choice do I have currently? It's either live with parents, or live out on the streets because I don't have a job or anything. Personally, I'd rather live with family than on the streets. What would everyone else's choice be in this situation?

This ended up leading into a conversation about finding jobs and all. I was already depressed and angry, and I didn't need to hear the fucking shit I hear from a lot of family and a few friends...that I need to find a job and move out and live on my own etc. It's not like I'm not fucking trying. I AM TRYING! These people all seem to think that it's fucking simple to get a job. I'm amazed. On Wednesday at around 18:00, I went out to deliver some Betterware things, and I was talking to one old retired couple when delivering one. They asked me how business was, and I said that it wasn't so great, because it really isn't. They then asks me if I do it full time currently. I told them yes, but I am looking for another job. Told them that I'm not having much luck with it though. Amazingly, they understood, saying that it's not easy for anyone lately. I don't even know this couple, and they understand it's not easy. So, why can't family and some friends not understand that?

Anyway, I think I've lost that person as a friend now because I got really angry with her.

No more entertainment

Alright. It looks like I'm no longer allowed any entertainment at night. Then again, it sounds like I'm not allowed everything at night. I think the same is gonna go for during the day. I really wish this family would make up their minds as to what they're doing. I can understand why I should be quieter at night (although, that's a pain in the ass for me lately thanks to Penny), but it's basically the same during the day. We have to be as quiet as possible so Mom's boyfriend, Sean, can get some sleep. Just do one or the other...seriously. It's horrible having to have the volume on so low that you can't hear it over people coughing, snoring and all. Any higher than mute is "too loud".

Since the seizure, Penny has been barking and growling at me. That honestly makes it a pain to move around the house, especially at night when everyone is sleeping. I just wish there was a way to shut her up because she is definitely not making life easy for me now. Then again, nothing in my life seems to be easy AT ALL.

I'm going to have to disappoint friends now because some friends like to show me videos, and since I don't see most of my friends until it's night-time, that means I'm going to have to tell them I can't watch whatever they want to show me on YouTube or whatever, unless the videos have no sound, then I guess it'll be ok. Anything with sound...well, I won't be able to listen to it because anything above mute is "way too loud".

Damaged

Today really has NOT been a good day for me. I was feeling a little dizzy and sick, so I quickly went down into the kitchen to get a baguette from the oven which I was cooking. Not too sure what really happened next, but I came to on the couch with ambulance people around me. Turns out I had a really bad seizure, and I hurt Mom's boyfriend, Sean, as well as myself. I collapsed in the kitchen and hit my head of the kitchen counter, and cut my ear open. Sean ran out when he heard something and tried to catch me. After that, I pushed him real hard apparently, sending him flying across the kitchen.

Had to have my ear glued, so cuz of that, I've been told I'm not allowed to wash my hair for 5 days so I don't fuck up that glue. Perfect...I guess that means all I can have is baths, so I avoid it getting wet from the shower. This isn't going to be a good 5 days. I guess I'll have to avoid going out too much. Don't need people insulting me...

Hospital was so dull. Was stuck there for about 2 hours just waiting for the damn doctors/nurses.

Now I've posted this, I'm going to take off and get some sleep.

Facebook to end March 15th, 2011? Hoax.

Yesterday, I was browsing through a website which a friend had linked me, which had several humorous answer given on exams by students. While there, I noticed several links saying that Facebook was going to shut down. Although I didn't believe that (since there have been SO many articles like that in the past), I took a look. It stated that Facebook was going to shut down on March 15th, 2011. Here's the story from it's original source.

1000s of people appear to have taken the article seriously. A group has been started on Facebook with 2000+ users already joining it. I'm a little surprised that people still believe rumors like this since the Facebook shutting down rumor has been done so many times before. If it were really true, wouldn't Facebook itself sent out a message or post an article on their own website thanking users for using the site and stating that sadly they have to close? Don't take anything like this rumor seriously unless you actually see Facebook itself posting something on it's own site, ok?

Yahoo! Chat Room Deaths - Day 3

Yet again, the chat rooms are slowly being killed off, and honestly, it’s getting hard to know who’s really doing it. So far today, I’ve heard that it’s being done by someone named Lee (who I personally don’t know), and Chris. We’ve also got ATL who I’ve mentioned in the past couple of days. So, who’s really doing it? Is it Lee, Chris, or ATL? I know that ATL doesn’t code his own stuff, but that doesn’t really mean it CAN’T be him because he could’ve easily have obtained it from someone who could code something like that, am I right?

I was chatting in 20’s Love:3 with a few friends before the room was killed. The ID I saw was Chris’s ID. So, it’s possible that it’s him doing it all. Then again, maybe all 3 of these people are doing it. The question is, why? It can’t really be all that fun killing the rooms. You manage it, and stop people from chatting, but what then? What do you get out of it? Does it make you feel like some kind of Internet tough guy? Do you get sexual pleasure out of doing it?

It’s really getting old now.

Yahoo! Chat Room Deaths - Day 2

This is getting to be really fucking stupid now. Several hours after the death of 20's Love:1, the room had been restored. But now, they're dead again. Rooms 1, 2, 3 and 4 are all dead now. We've had to move to 20's Love:5 because of that. Thanks a fucking lot, ATL. What do you honestly get out of doing this? Does this really make you feel like some kind of Internet tough guy, being able to kill off chat rooms and making it hard for the regular chatters to chat to each other?

Yahoo! Chat Room Deaths

I've no idea what happened today, but it appears that someone has killed off several of the chat rooms. I'd heard from one person that it was ATL, the asshole mentioned in my last entry. If it was, I wouldn't be surprised. Got an IM from Julie as soon as I signed onto Yahoo! telling me to come to 20's Love:3 because room 1 (our regular room) is dead. I eventually found out what she meant when I went to check out 20's Love:1. It's completely devoid of life. There only appears to be 2 bots in there. However, I could be missing people who are on the mic since Anthony and his bots weren't visible to me when I didn't have voice on a couple of days ago.

Seriously, what is the point of killing chat rooms like that? What do you get out of it? I'm sure you must be VERY proud of your achievements, doing that. People can be really pathetic online at times.

I don't understand

If there is one thing that I cannot understand lately, it's the minds of people in Yahoo! chat rooms. I'm always in 20's Love:1 because that's where all my Yahoo! friends chat now. It used to be 20's Love:3, but that changed after users like Robert disappeared. What I can't understand is why people will talk to certain users which they claim to hate at times. One such user would be ATL. He's a complete and utter douche-bag. Friends will hate on him, and then the next day, they'll be all chummy with him. Why? I just can't understand. The only person who's really ignored him is me. This means that I miss out on whatever ATL is saying to people, but I don't really care. He's better off on ignore.

I'm currently not in the chat room because ATL and Anthony seem to be having a bot fight, which is fucking pathetic to be honest. What's the point? Also, what is the point in booters? Why do they always attempt to kick everyone out of a chat room? There have been a couple of times where someone has done that, and I've re-entered the room to find that no-one is there anymore except for the booter and a few bots. Are you really so much of a fucking loser that you have to have the room to yourself and a couple of bots? I'm sure those people have little to no friends doing that kinda crap to everyone.

Today has really been kind of dull. I was supposed to go into town, but I never did that in the end because the weather was so crap. It's been extremely windy and pouring down with rain. I really don't want to walk into town in that kind of weather. I'm seriously hoping it's a lot better tomorrow because now I'm out of epilepsy medication and I need to try and get a new lot.

I also need a new pair of shoes which I was going to get yesterday, but it never happened because of Mom having to take the injured buzzard on a 1.5hour journey to the vets. If I don't get a new pair soon, I'm not going to be able to do anything because these shoes are literally falling apart.

Injured buzzard

We’ve currently got an injured buzzard in the house which is being kept in a box, due to the fact that if it wasn’t, Penny would probably attack and kill it. Why do we have it here? My brother found it injured in the road. It’d most likely been hit by a car and left to die. He’s usually out cycling for exercise, and found it on the route he was going. He moved it over to the side of the road, and then came home to get his car. Went back out with a box to pick it up and bring it home.

A vet has been called, so now this bird has to be driven quite a distance to the vet. Hopefully, it’ll be alright.

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Amazing pizza stories

I read the following in a picture my friend, Erin, had posted on her Facebook. It was written by a co-worker of hers named Seth. Trust me, you do NOT want to be drinking something while reading this. I was drinking some Pepsi myself and ended up spitting some of it out while reading it.

AN AMAZING THING HAPPENED ON THE WAY TO YOUR PLACE. So I was sprinting out of the store with your flaming hot pizza in record time. I dove in my bat mobile and started heading for your home. When I turned onto Uxbridge St. there was a unicorn and it was pooping in the middle of the road. It effing ran up to me and made a farting sound and then pooped on the side of my ride. I kicked it down the street, and using the force I picked up while I was in Tatooine. I took it's manhood and bent it behind its neck. By the time this was over, 30 minutes had already passed. Luckily, "You Got 30 Minutes" isn't a guarantee, it's just an estimate, so I continued on safely to your place. I hope you enjoyed starving with your bonus time.