Not the greatest day...

I haven't been having the greatest day today at all.

I logged onto the Net at about 7:00 to check if my girl, Lacey, was online. She was, however, I never got a single word out of her. I heard from a couple of people in the room that she was talking before I'd entered, and was talking about how she hates moobs. Not too sure on how long before I entered that was, but she definitely wasn't talking after I entered, and instead left.

A couple of days ago when I was talking to her, she told me in an IM that she wasn't really in the mood to talk, and since then hasn't said a word to me, which makes me wonder if I've done something to badly upset her. If I have, I can't work out what it is, and I don't keep Yahoo! chat records on my computer, so I can't look back at my conversations with her to see if I've said anything wrong. Then again, maybe it's nothing I've said, and is instead something someone else said about me. For example, maybe some dickhead in the room that I don't get along with said I've been cheating on her with another girl or something, and she bought it.

For the past couple of days now, I've been extremely worried about her, and I'd really love to know if I've done something to upset her. The sad thing is, if I have, and if she's not going to talk to me, how am I going to find out what I did wrong? How am I going to be able to apologise for whatever it is?

I can only hope that she'll talk to me and tell me what is wrong, or hope she'll answer someone else in the room so I can get the problem revealed by them.

When I went out with Richard to help out with the TSOP Project, I was told by Richard that the two contracts he'd had with two different companies were now cancelled, meaning that I won't be taking over the computer side of stuff currently because he wouldn't be able to pay me for it. That was the other thing that made today extremely bad. He said he'd most likely still give me a job if I want to keep coming along to help, but it may not be in computing afterall, and may instead be something like a Grounds Keeper at the project. I told him it'd be ok, because it's not like I'd get anything better around the Looe area. Around here, I'd most likely either be doing either retail work, or cleaning work...if I could get anything.

It would be perfect if he could get me work in working with computers, but if he can't, Grounds Keeper wouldn't be any different to work I've already done in the past. I'm most likely going to be getting a job out of this in some form, just may not be in the form that I would ideally like.