"I'm sorry, but the job has been filled"

Perfect...that's JUST what I wanted to hear today as I went over to the SPAR to ask for a job application form.

I went there yesterday to get one, and was told that they didn't have any left, and to go back today. I do exactly that to find out that the job has now been filled. Now what do I do? I was kinda counting on getting it. I had sister telling me that after I handed in the application form the last time there was a job going (that was only about a month ago) that one of the people who worked there told her that if anything came up, they'd contact me about it. Something DID come up, but no contact from them. I love it when people tell you a pile of crap.

I'm totally lost on what to do now. If the weather isn't too bad tomorrow, I think I'll walk into town and take a look around, hope that something is going because I'm really worried and panicking at the moment.

Jobs...

I'm really at a loss with what to do now. Mom came home, then flipped out because some of the house wasn't clean. As I took my litter downstairs and out the back of the house, Mom yelled at me telling me if I don't find a job in the New Year, then I'm out on the street because she can't afford me living here anymore. It's funny how I'M the one who she can't afford. Except for electric and water, she never pays for anything that I use. I have to buy my own food and all.

I also apparently never do anything for her. Yeah right. There are times when she's too sick to deliver these newspapers, so I help her out. Last couple of days she was sick, and I helped her out by getting her food and drink. This is all nothing? I don't get PAID anything for helping her with the papers.

Things to find

Anything in [ ] I do not own, but would like to.

Games
PlayStation
Final Fantasy Origins (I/II)
Final Fantasy Chronicles (IV/Chrono Trigger)
Final Fantasy Anthology (V/VI)
Final Fantasy VII
Final Fantasy VIII
Final Fantasy IX
Koudelka
[Parasite Eve]
Parasite Eve II
Silent Hill
Vagrant Story

PlayStation 2
Devil May Cry
Devil May Cry 2
Devil May Cry 3:Dante's Awakening
Final Fantasy X
Final Fantasy XII
Metal Gear Solid 3:Snake Eater
Persona 3:FES
Prince of Persia:The Sands of Time
Prince of Persia:Warrior Within
Prince of Persia:The Two Thrones
Resident Evil Outbreak
Resident Evil Outbreak:File #2
Shadow Hearts
Shadow Hearts:Covenant
Shadow of Destiny
Silent Hill 2
Silent Hill 3
Tomb Raider:Anniversary
Tomb Raider:Legend
Unlimited Saga
Valkyrie Profile 2:Silmeria

PSP
Astonishia Story
Final Fantasy Tactics:The War of the Lions
Final Fantasy VII:Crisis Core
Valkyrie Profile:Lenneth
Star Ocean:First Departure
[Star Ocean:Second Evolution]

Nintendo DS
Harvest Moon:Island of Happiness

GameCube
Baten Kaitos
Legend of Zelda:Collector's Edition
Legend of Zelda:Twilight Princess
Metal Gear Solid:The Twin Snakes
Resident Evil Zero
Resident Evil Remake
Resident Evil 2
Resident Evil 3:Nemesis
Resident Evil 4

DVDs
Ace Ventura:Pet Detective
Ace Ventura:When Nature Calls
Airplane
Airplane II:The Sequel
Back to the Future
Back to the Future II
Back to the Future III
Bad Boys
Bad Boys II
Beverly Hills Cop
Beverly Hills Cop II
Beverly Hills Cop III
Chrono Crusade
Domino
Final Fantasy
Final Fantasy VII:Advent Children
GhostBusters
GhostBusters II
Hot Shots!
Hot Shots! Part Deux
Indiana Jones:Raiders of the Lost Ark
Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull
Pirates of the Caribbean:Curse of the Black Pearl
Pirates of the Caribbean:Dead Man's Chest
Pirates of the Caribbean:At World's End
Sky Blue
The Fifth Element
Underworld
Underworld:Evolution
Van Helsing
Van Wilder:Party Liaison

Text to translate from MegaTokyo

MegaTokyo - I cannot heal if I cannot get away.
Shitsureishimashita~!
Nigenaide kudasai, Largo-san!!
Ochitsuite kudasai yo~!
Tsukamaeta!

MegaTokyo - Safe.
Dame!! Onegai dakara, nigenaide kudasai!
Erika wa Largo-san wo kizutsukeru tsumori janakatta desu yo!
Tsumetai ningen ni mieru kamo shirenai kedo, hontou wa kokoro no yasashii ko desu yo!
Erika wa ne, nandomo kizutsuite mou nido to hito no kokoro wo hirakanai to omotteru dake desu.
Demo sore wa tada no tsuyodari desu. Hontou wa onaji koto ga kirikaesareru no wo totemo kowagatterun desu yo, Largo-san!
Demo, Erika wa ne, Kitto Largo-san no akiramete hoshikunai to omoimasu yo. Sore shinjitemasu!
Dakara, moshi Erika no koto ga sukoshi demo suki dattara akiramenaide kudasai.
Akiramemasen yo ne, Largo-san. Yakusoku shite kuremasu?
Yakusoku? - Promise?

Crisis

There isn't going to be much to this entry. I just wanted to bring a blog entry that a friend wrote to peoples' attentions since she'd like it to be noticed.

Yesterday, she showed me this rather disturbing article on a plan Obama has supposedly had a vote on to save an endangered fish. But, I don't think anyone had thought this through. My friend wrote an entry about it with the crisis that may happen if this happens, and a more logical solution to saving this fish.

Please, if you can, check out this entry and maybe leave a comment on the blog sharing what you think about it. I'd be very grateful, as well my friend for any recognition of her entry. If you do agree with what she's written, could you please help out and spread word of her entry. Hopefully then, someone will consider the more logical solution she has suggested. Thanks for any help!

Back to the Future 4 - Not gonna happen

I've got to say I'm amazed. Because of the recent spree of remakes and sequels of old classics, I searched Google for Back to the Future 4. I just had to see if they were going to make a 4th. There are several pages saying there will not be a Back to the Future 4. That's not what amazed me though. One page I read, there were about 67 comments from people actually wanting a 4th movie, and maybe even a 5th, 6th, 7th and more. It made me wonder if I'm the only Back to the Future fan that doesn't, and hasn't ever wanted a 4th movie for the series. I'm more than happy with the trilogy that currently exists. It wrapped up perfectly (at least in my mind it did), and doesn't need any more sequels. Am I truly the only person who doesn't want to see anymore? Are there any other fans out there like me who would lose all faith in the movie industry if they touched this classic trilogy?

Not another Scream movie...

Ok. I didn't know about this until I just read about it, on here. I'd love to know why people can't just leave series like this alone. You expect trilogies to be left as trilogies. I'm so annoyed about this! Just like Indiana Jones. The Terminator as well. Indiana Jones should've been left alone with The Last Crusade. Terminator should've been left alone with Judgement Day. It's happening with Video Game series as well. Metal Gear Solid is one example. I've heard that they've already planned a 5th Metal Gear Solid. Raiden will be the main character. Metal Gear Solid 4 seems to be the last game in which we'll be playing Snake. It's not going to be good, especially for people who totally hated Raiden's character in Metal Gear Solid 2. I'm one of those people.

According to IGN (This is a link to the UK site since I'm from the UK. Sorry), Hideo isn't going to be at the helm of this one. The person who created the series isn't going to be leading the project. Is the series going to go the same way as alot of movies which no longer have the original director? Milked for all the cash it can be, with a poor story to accommodate it?

I might see Scream 4 when it comes out on DVD, but I'm not going to expect it to be any good.

The Final Destination is one movie I'm never going to watch though. I've already seen the existing 3, and apart from the first one, I've not liked a single one of them. I did, however, like the trilogy of Scream movies. They should be left alone as a trilogy though!

Plentyoffish profile lies

A lot of profiles on this site contain total lies. Several members have posted "I will reply to all messages" in their profiles, however, they do not reply. I'm amazed by it really. I've messaged a few members who have posted that line, or something similar on their profiles, yet I've not had a single reply. Some of them haven't even read the messages. In the "sent messages" window, it will tell you if the messages have been read or not, and it will also tell you if the message has been deleted. I've had a few with "Unread Deleted". Why aren't members taking the time to read the messages, especially if their profiles say they "will reply to all messages".

One member I messaged had the headline "Not like other girls.". That turned out to be very misleading because she didn't reply either. That would technically make her like all the other ladies I've messaged on that site. There's no difference between her and every other member I've messaged so far. I know I'm not like the most interesting guy on that site because to be honest, I have no friends offline, I don't go out drinking because I hate the taste of alcohol, and I have no real social life due to that. So, my topics of conversation are really limited to things I can do daily, which is basically restricted to taking random walks, playing video games, watching movies and talking to friends online. Instead, I try to talk about anything I can think of. Things that could be of some interest to others. Childhood memories, pets, music, movies.

One thing I have mentioned to every member I've messaged so far is a childhood memory of my dog. She was a female golden labrador named Tammy who turned out to be a great source of humor to people in primary school, due to the fact I'd misheard her name. I originally thought it was "Tummy". It's amusing to look back at now, but at the time I had no idea why everyone was constantly coming up to me and asking what her name was, then bursting out laughing when I said it. I wonder why I didn't realise sooner how stupid a dog named "Tummy" would be.

I have alot of weird and horrible childhood memories though. When I was about 7, a friend, my brother, and I were all playing in the football field just across the road from where I live. I can't remember what we were playing exactly. I can only remember the horrible accident I had on the way back home. I was walking a little way behind my brother and my friend. They'd gotten across the road safely. I, however, wasn't so lucky. I was run down by a white car. It was a fairly foggy day, and this car didn't have it's headlights on, so when I did see it, it was too late really. That's not really the worse part of it. The worse part of it was when I got back to school after that. You would expect a teacher to be caring, asking if I was alright. However, this teacher blamed me for the entire thing! She said it was all my fault for running into the car. I wouldn't purposely run into a car trying to kill myself. Hell, if I were that suicidal, I don't think I would've bothered trying to save myself when I almost drowned in a public pool. That's not a nice story either.

What happened on that occasion was weird to say the least. I can't remember exactly how I ended up in a situation where I went underwater and had problems trying to resurface again. But, I found out how uncaring people can be. I was clearly struggling for my life, yet the people around me, and even the pool guard just appeared to be watching. Nobody even tried to help. This is one reason why I am terrified to go swimming anymore.

Plentyoffish and other dating sites

I have got to say that dating websites such as Plentyoffish aren't as great as people may think! I've been a member of Plentyoffish for a little while now, and I've messaged a few of it's members. It's amazing how utterly unresponsive people are. Members' profiles will be complaining that there are no nice guys to talk to. However, no matter how nice a guy you may be, they have no interest! They're not even polite enough to reply to simple questions. I know that I'm not the best looking guy around, but surely members really aren't so shallow that they cannot reply and answer questions along with "I'm sorry, but I'm not interested.".

Of all the messages that I've sent, I've only had replies from two members. Two! One of those members has told me that she was not interested in me, and I can understand that, and I appreciate her honestly. But, what about everyone else? Surely not everyone I've messaged gets so many messages that they cannot reply to me. Can they?

Am I the only person who is having this problem? For some reason, I'm sure women will get messages from a lot of people, even if they're not the most attractive woman around (no offense to those ladies). However, if you're a not-so-attractive guy, there are hardly any members will want to talk to you. Why is that? I wish somebody would tell me what is wrong with my profile on that site. It would be nice to know why members are against replying to my messages. Especially those women who say something like "Ask me anything. I will reply, as long as the questions aren't too dirty." on their profiles, yet no matter how clean your questions may be, they will not reply. Why?

Metal Gear Confusion 4 (MGS4 Spoilers...maybe)

Ok, I'm confused by one event I saw of MGS4 on YouTube. I was looking for sad moments from the Metal Gear Solid series when I came across one video of MGS4. Snake finds himself in a graveyard, talking to Big Boss who is dying. Now, I've never played the old Metal Gear games (the ones BEFORE Metal Gear Solid started), but I thought that Snake had to kill Big Boss in one of those games. So, how is he still alive? Did I mishear about Big Boss being killed in one of the old games, or are they totally ignoring the old games? Can anyone clear this up for me?

Blue Reef Aquarium - Newquay

I've only just returned home from the Blue Reef Aquarium in Newquay. It wasn't as great as I was expecting to be honest. In fact, it was small. It was a lot smaller than the aquarium in Plymouth. I was a little disappointed by that because I was expecting something a lot bigger than the one in Plymouth. What a let down. I was in a bit of a rush when we were leaving to go there, so I didn't get to take any pictures of any of the creatures.

Disgaea: Hour of Darkness

I actually got to go to Plymouth today, and was trying to find a copy of Disgaea:Hour of Darkness for the PS2 (or Disgaea:Afternoon of Darkness for the PSP). But, I couldn't find a copy of it anywhere. I guess my only hope of getting the game now would be to buy it off of Amazon.

Never ask

I think I should just never ask for anything when it comes to doing what I want to do. Why? Because it just never seems to happen. I asked Mom earlier today (about 5:30am) if we could go to Plymouth, and she said we could if I helped her out with one of the paper rounds she has to do. So, I did that, but in the end, it was pointless because she's now refusing to go.

I have no idea why, but she's really pissed off. I'm wondering why it only happens to me. I mean, if someone else had asked her, they'd go and do it and there would be no argument about it. I'd get asked if I want to go too, and usually I'll say no because I'm too tired or I have no reason to go. Yet, when I want to go, it always ends the same way. Mom will get pissed off about something and we're not going anymore.

I'm sure tomorrow, Mom will refuse to take me out to the mini-golf place to ask about whether I can work there on the weekends. If that ends up being a yes, then I'll never be able to go to Plymouth again because Mom will usually only go there on the weekends and I'd be working then. Fuck. I'm just going to have to go to the bank tomorrow too and see if I can get myself a new bank card, and then order the game I'm looking for (Disgaea: Hour of Darkness) off of Amazon.

Job?

I still have no idea whether I'll be able to work out at this mini-golf place on the weekends yet. I never got out there in time to ask today. I did manage to deliver all of the Betterware orders today though. I had a little bit of a laugh when delivering the one to my grandfather. He was asleep. I'd rang his door bell twice and didn't get any answer, so I went around to the back door and let myself him. I found him sleeping in the lounge. Gran started laughing when she saw me enter, and I tapped grandfather on the leg to wake him up.

Nothing interesting really happened today though. I just did that, came home, and started playing Zelda while waiting for my friends to come online.

I'll have to try the mini-golf place again on Monday since no-one is working there on the weekends anymore, which is why I wanted to see if it were possible for me to run the place on the weekend.

Stolen business

I was told on Saturday by some old lady that there was another guy, an older man, delivering Betterware catalogs around her area. I guess that would explain why I'm getting less items ordered from people than I use to. But, who is it? Surely Neil isn't taking my areas. I'm going to have to talk to him on Tuesday about it. I'm sure I'll get an answer like "I have no idea.", in which case, I'll have to assume it's him because he must know who is delivering and where. The lady who told me about it said that she didn't want the catalogs delivered there anymore. I get that from a lot of people. But there are some people who order things every time, but lately haven't. Is it because of this other guy?

No Internet

I still have no Internet connection. Why won't it just let me connect to the Internet? I delivered Betterware catalogs today because I couldn't do them yesterday. At about 13:30, we all went into Plymouth to the Vue Cinema to see Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. That was a GREAT movie! Everyone should see it. So far, it's the funniest one. There are only 2 more HP movies after this one. The next book is supposedly divided into 2 movies. That's going to suck really because you're going to see one, then have to wait for a year or so to see the end of the movie. How sad.

We got home at about 18:30 and I had nothing else to do for the rest of the day. I mostly just played Solitaire on the old PC, and watched the Naked Gun movies until 22:30, then went to bed. There was nothing better to do anyway. This old PC of mine is shit. I can't seem to play ANY of my PC games on it. I'm hoping that buying a new cable for my laptop will make it work again. If it doesn't, I'm totally fucked. I won't ever be able to get on the Net again, not until I can get enough money for a new PC, and that'll take months with the Betterware commission shit. *sighs*

Couldn't deliver Betterware catalogs this morning because I had to deliver papers for Mom today. Just perfect...I don't know why I do it really. I'm not really getting paid anything for doing it. Sometimes, I hate being me. Why? Because I feel bad if I don't deliver the papers. It's not because of Mom...it's because of the people who want the papers. I'd feel horrible if they didn't get their papers. People are probably thinking "Why don't you be mean and not do it until you get paid?". Anyway, I think I managed to talk Mom into paying me for doing it now. So, no complaints there now...for the moment anyway. But, what am I gonna do for now? I still can't get online. I'd love to know why my old PC won't let me connect to the Net. I miss my laptop badly now. And most of all, I miss my friends. I have no way to get into contact with them. Holly did give me her number, but stupidly, I never wrote it down on paper. Now, her number is on my laptop and I can't get ahold of it. Haha...how stupid of me.

Went to bed early because there was nothing else to do.

Losing friends?

I...dunno how I should feel anymore. Lately, it seems that less and less people want to talk to me. Why? I have no clue. I'll IM someone, and either get no reply, or "I'm too tired to talk", or some other reply about not wanting to talk. What I would really like to know is have I done something to upset ALL of my friends. I think there are only 2 friends anymore that care to talk to me. Sharlet and Tammy. Why does no-one else wanna talk to me. Well, actually, Holly also talks to me when she's at the computer, but lately she's been having some troubles, so I won't include her in this. All of this has just been making me feel really...REALLY lonely. Life really sucks. All the friends I had in school moved away (although, that's part of getting older), and now almost all of my Internet friends are drifting away from me...making me feel lonelier and lonelier as time goes by. It's majorly depressing.

What's Your Animal Personality

You're independent, strong-willed, and often misunderstood. You find it hard to trust people and thus have only a few close friends, but these close friends you trust with your life and are loyal to until the very end. If someone should insult your friends, beware, because you will not stand by and let someone bad mouth the people you love. Because so few people understand you, you find yourself the loner in a crowd but you will eagerly seek out the comfort of your packmates whenever you can.

Which Fantasy Creature are you?

For as long as any mortal can remember, vampires have walked the night, driven by their overwhelming thirst for blood. Some foolish humans believe that a mere cross will protect them, and it is true that they perish in sunlight, but once the sun has set, vampires are lethal predators. They may seem cold hearted and even evil, but not all kill their prey, and many wait for centuries for their soul mate. If your result was vampire, then you may come across as arrogant and perhaps strange, but inside you are a lonely soul, and long to find another like yourself. You love the dark and mystery, and have an open mind about the supernatural.

What's your animal personality?

You're independent, strong-willed, and often misunderstood. You find it hard to trust people and thus have only a few close friends, but these close friends you trust with your life and are loyal to until the very end. If someone should insult your friends, beware, because you will not stand by and let someone bad mouth the people you love. Because so few people understand you, you find yourself the loner in a crowd but you will eagerly seek out the comfort of your packmates whenever you can.

Nice guys finish last.

To every guy that regrets hurting or losing her.

To every guy who knows which girl he wants.

To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."

To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state)(or across the country) to see her.

To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.

To every guy who has given her flowers just because.

To every guy that said he would die for her.

To every guy that really would.

To every guy that did what she wanted to do.

To every guy that cried in front of her.

To every guy that she cried in front of.

To every guy that holds hands with her.

To every guy that kisses her with meaning.

To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

To every guy that would sit and wait hours to see her, even if they could only spend a few minutes together.

To every guy that would give his seat up.

To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what. And honestly believed what he said.

To every guy who told his secrets to her.

To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.

To every guy that thought "maybe this could be the one".

To every guy that believed in her dreams.

To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.

To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

To every guy that walked her to her car.

To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.

To every guy that gave his heart and still has a piece missing.

To every guy who prays that she is happy even if he is not the one that makes her that way.

To every guy who doesn't care how far away she lives, and will still date her because it's her.

To every guy who cares the most about how she feels, even when she breaks your heart.


This is one bulletin for you...

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore... And because of this, there are not many left out there...

What a pain

I can't get into my Facebook account currently, which sucks. I'm so bored and have nothing to do! I think I'll just have to wash up and then climb into bed to get some sleep. There's nothing better to do really. No-one to talk to. Can't connect Shar to talk to her. I'm just going to finish watching this movie (Mission:Impossible 2) and then get some sleep.

Mom's supposed to be going shopping today. I asked her if she could buy me a belt for my jeans. Why? Well, these jeans I have currently are loose around the waist, so I badly need one to stop the feeling of them possibly falling down. Haha.

Worried

I'm truely worried about Sharlet at the moment. On Monday, her brother's wife, Alisha, kicked her out of the house, making her homeless. I'm not 100% sure on the reason behind it. All I know currently is she told Alisha that her cats, Noah and Gracie, would get sick in the basement. There's more than that to it, but I don't know what. All I know currently is she's homeless and staying with her friend, Jen. Thanks Jen for being so kind.

I have no way to contact Sharlet now though. For the past couple of months, the only way I've been able to keep in touch with her is via texts. But, now her phone is dead and I have no way to contact her. I'm so worried. I'm sure she's ok, but that doesn't make me worry any less. I just hope that she can stay with Jen until she can sort something else out. I'm going to worry ALOT more if she ends up having to live on the street. She doesn't deserve that. I really wish there was someway that I could help her. But, I'm broke and have no money to do anything. I badly need a job. In a way, this screws things up a little because I was meant to be getting money and then move to the USA to live with Sharlet. However, if she has no-where to live herself, I'd have no-where to live either.

Karma

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