Very little doubt left

Although there is still a little doubt about this, I am pretty sure now that mom and that major asshole are still dating.

Yesterday, mom was apparently talking to my brother about it all, and he told her something like he was annoyed and that they're probably still dating, and she apparently replied to him "So what if I am?". That kind of thing makes you assume that they really are still dating.

Later on in the day, the asshole told mom "I love you!" rather loudly, and mom replied "I love you too, darling". Even more material to make you assume they're still partners.

At one point yesterday, the asshole told my sister that she should grow up and some other crap, and sister packed up her things saying she was going home. The asshole apparently stormed out of the house at this point, and mom was angry with my sister and was telling her to get back in the house, but she didn't listen. I never witnessed the asshole leaving, or the growing up speech as I was sleeping, but was soon woken by mom's yelling and shaking the hell out of my bedroom door. She then wanted me to go and talk my sister into coming back.

I really had no idea if I could catch up with my sister as I had no idea which direction she'd gone. From where I am, there are several different paths to take to get into town, so had to just go with an assumption of direction and hope I was going the right way. Luckily, the assumption was correct. She was stood about a quarter of the way down the line, really upset. Spoke to her for about 20 minutes just asking her what the hell happened, and insulting the asshole because he really doesn't deserve to be with anyone.

After getting her back into the house, mom was talking to us for about 30 minutes, then she went to sleep, and my sister, my youngest brother and I proceeded to walk down to my grandfather's place. Explained to him that we all wanted to get out of the house due to the asshole being around. Although he wasn't around at the time, it was inevitable that he'd end up returning. He seems to turn up daily now, which is a major fucking pain in the ass. None of us want him here, and mom constantly ends up crying and accusing us of not wanting her to be happy. Clearly, as long as he's around, she's never going to be happy anyway. All it will take is for one of us to die or something, and if mom remotely cares about us, she'll be upset, mourning us, and the asshole, just as he did with an old school friend's mother, will walk out on mom because he's not getting all of the attention.

How can anyone be happy with a person like that.

Anyway, as my brother has told me, it's fine. If she wants to see him, that's her stupid ass choice, but none of us want to see him around. It's basically true really. If she wants to be retarded and date a complete and utter asshole who isn't happy unless all the attention is focused on him, fine. Just don't make us have to deal with the fucking asshole.

Akira remake cancelled!

I was watching Ghost In The Shell videos on YouTube earlier when I noticed in the related videos a video of the bike scene from Akira; another amazing anime movie.

Noticing the top comment that read "As of January 5th, the project's been cancelled. And let us all hope it stays that way.". I noticed that it was a reply to another comment, I decided to click "Show the comment". This comment read "Bad news fans Hollywood is making a live action version and Bella from twilight and the guy from tron is going to be in it. Sucks right".

How does this suck? I think it's great news that the live-action version of the movie was cancelled. I didn't realize they were going to make a live-action version of it, but I know that it wouldn't have been any good at all.

I've never seen a live-action movie of a video game/cartoon/anime that is actually good. The reason for that is mostly because there's no way you can make the monsters and all of that convincing. The 2 video game movies that I've seen that I actually enjoy aren't live-action. The first is Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. The second is Resident Evil: Degeneration. They're both computer animated, which is how any video game movie should be.

Personally, if Akira were ever to be remade, it should either be hand-drawn again, or animated with computers. But honestly, it doesn't need remaking. It's perfect just the way it is. I've no idea why anyone would want to remake classic movies like that because there's nothing you can really improve. Sure, you could say the animation is out of date, as I've noticed some people have been saying in the comments on some Ghost In The Shell videos, but who gives a fuck? It's meant to be like that. There's no need to improve it.

A question to people out there is "Are there any movies you enjoy that you would hate to see remade (preferably classic movies that have no remake yet)?"

EDIT: Ok. It was bought to my attention in the comments that the comment about Bella and the Tron guy starring in the live-action remake of Akira "Sucks right" wasn't about the live-action movie being cancelled, but rather about them remaking it. That actually makes a lot more sense in terms of the comment. I've no idea why I didn't actually pick up on that before, because the cancelled comment had the reply, not the other way around. What was I thinking at the time, I wonder.

"None of you want me to be happy"

"None of you want me to be happy, do you!?" - Yeah...when this kind of thing comes from mom, it just tells me "I'm still dating Sean, and you all hate him, meaning I can't be happy!" It's no wonder why she's constantly asking/demanding us to move out. Wants us out of the way so Sean can move back in and she can be "happy". Delusional comes to mind. "Happy" and Sean don't belong together in a sentence. She's delusional...completely.

Hopefully on Tuesday, Richard and I will be trying to sort me out somewhere to live in Lostwithiel. That way, I can be happy. I won't have to deal with this shit anymore! No more train travel to get to The Street Outreach Project, and no more Sean!

The past couple of days haven't been all that great because of the heat. I ended up with a bit of sunburn working out in the sun. I tried to stick to the shade as much as possible, but that sadly didn't work out like I was hoping.

On Thurday, 24th May, I ended up missing my usual train home (15:58), and ended up having to take the next train home (17:14). I had a bit of a wait in Liskeard for the train back to Looe. The train arrived in Liskeard at about 17:30, and the next train to Looe wasn't until 18:01. Had to sit around waiting for about 30 minutes for it.

After getting into Looe, I bumped into my brother who was running into town. He warned me to be careful when going home because Sean was there. At that moment, I thought "Oh great...now what the fuck am I going to do?" I honestly didn't want to return home after I found that out. I hate being anywhere NEAR Sean. So instead, I walked out toward the beach to see if Ash (a border collie) was outside. He was. There was a sign by the door that read something like "I like to play catch, but I hate to be stroked." I went to stroke him. He really doesn't care. I've stroked him a whole bunch of times and have never been bitten.

I'll let you know how much he hates being stroked. After one guy walked by, he pointed out the sign and said "That sign says he doesn't like being stroked." Not too long after that, another guy came across, picked up Ash's tennis ball, and threw it to Ash. He jumped off of the wall, looked at the ball, then jumped back onto the wall to be stroked some more. Shows how much he hates it, doesn't it?

I told a friend that next time, I'll take pictures of the sign, Ash, and me petting Ash.

Room for Improvement

It's been a rather interesting day today. Never actually got any work done out at the Wild Woods today. Main reason for that - we were busy with other things. Actually, I should say that Richard was busy with other things. I wasn't really busy with anything. Haha.

I got a call from Richard at about 10:10 saying he was going to be about another 30 minutes due to the youths being late for their ride to...where-ever they're currently going with the course they do on Wednesdays. I decided to walk around town for about 10 minutes before heading out to the Wild Woods. While there, I took a few pictures of the place, and then I basically just sat around for...I've no idea how long...until Richard showed up.

That's when I was talked to about the funding they're going to try to get for me. To put in the bid, they've got to list what I want to achieve from all of this, and what the final outcomes will be (hopefully). One goal is definitely something I need to have worked on, and that is my social skills. I think that anyone who I know locally (and even via the internet) knows that I am awful at social interaction. I can never do anything well when it comes to interacting with people in person.

It's odd because online, on chat programs, I can interact with people really well, but in person - I'm a failure. I just can't do it. It's something I know to improve for certain if I want to get anywhere, but I dunno...I'm not sure what stops me from interacting with people. Actually, I'm sure I can sum it up well. All it takes is one word - fear. I'm afraid I'm going to make a complete arse of myself; get laughed at; ridiculed. But, how do I get over that? Will I ever get over it? I guess we'll find out.

Soon to be homeless?

I've not been having too much of a good time lately.

On Thursday, mom had her "ex"-boyfriend back over here in the house, even though she'd promised her brother/my uncle that she'd never let him back into the house again. He started trying to argue with us all again, and was claiming that mom apparently told us a while ago that she was planning on selling the house and get a two bedroom place, but all we did was laugh.

Odd. I don't recall her ever saying she was going to sell the house, and if she did, I certainly would not laugh at the possibility of ending up homeless if I can't find somewhere to live.

I asked mom after her "ex"-boyfriend had left if she was really serious about selling the house, and apparently she is. My brother and I apparently only have two months to find somewhere to live before she puts the house on the market.

However, this kind of changed yesterday when I was talking to mom again about it. She was saying that she may or may not sell the house. It depends. What I'm betting is the "depends" is whether or not my brother and I have moved out. I'm sure if we haven't, she'll go ahead and do it, but if we have, she probably won't.

Personally, I think Sean talked her into the whole thing.

I spoke to three people about it yesterday, saying that if she is going ahead with it, there's a possibility that all the paper deliveries will be stopped because it's my brother's business, and if he can't find a place to live in town, then it's very likely the whole thing will stop. I told these people that mom claims her and her "ex"-boyfriend are "just friends". It seems, however, that I'm not alone on not believing that. We all believe that it's bullshit and she's still with him.

It'll all become more obvious in a couple of months I'm sure. Why? I reckon once my brother and I have moved out, she's going to let Sean back in to live with her. I've no real doubt about that.

I know that if that does happen, she's going to lose a lot of family, if not all her family. My brother and I aren't going to want anything to do with her. My uncle and aunt won't for sure. I'm sure my grandfather may not want anything to do with her. Is she going to risk losing her family and some friends just for one person? Is that dickhead really fucking worth it?