It's not psychotic, it's protection!

Wow. This is funny. I was browsing the Entertainment articles on the website The Sarcasmist when I came across an article titled Bieber Fans Want Kardashian Dead

Here is what the article says -

Here is a perfect reason why fans should be called what they really are, fanatics.

After Bieber revealed that he had the hots for Kardashian, and then ended up meeting her at the White House Correspondents’ dinner, his rabid fans came after Kardashian with death threats on twitter.

On Tuesday, the reality star tweeted, “Seriously Biebs! @JustinBieber I’m getting death threats from your fans! This is unBeliebable!!!” Bieber responded with a tweet to his fans saying, “Ladies calm down. @kimkardashian is a friend. a very sexy friend but a friend. no need 4 threats. Let’s all be friends and hang out often.” (MTV)

But it’s kind of understandable that Justin Bieber’s fans would be upset about the possibility of Kim Kardashian taking his innocence away. This is not psychotic behavior at all. His fanatics are just trying to protect him.

It's not psychotic? I wish I could understand peoples' thinking with that. It seems completely psychotic to me. What are they trying to protect him from? It's more like complete jealousy; if they can't have him, then whoever can must die! Logical thinking there; not psychotic at all, right?

Interesting day

Had a rather amusing day today. I went to meet Richard, who I'd met at the fish & chip shop just down the road from me, but I wasn't too sure where to meet him at first. So, I was stood around the approximate area he said to go to, and waited, hoping I didn't miss him. Luckily, I didn't, and he was running late.

I got a lift from him to the project he is running, and was shown around and told what they were planning to do. They're planning on building a garden, farmyard stuff, a club house for people to hang out in and all. For anyone interested, here is the website for the project, which explains some of the things they are hoping to accomplish. Currently though, it's just a huge overgrown mess.

I helped out a while while I was there, doing some digging, as well as helping them hang up a gate. Not the biggest leap forward in the project, but it got it a tiny bit further.

I may be going out there with Richard again on Monday to help with some stuff again, and some computer stuff was mentioned by him while I was in the car with him, so hopefully I'll get to do a little bit of computer work.

Richard seems like an extremely nice guy, and has said that if I keep coming along, he may pay for webhosting for me, which means I'll be able to have an official website for the webcomic I'm planning. All that I need now would be to improve my art if he does that for me. I'll have the website, all that would need improving is artwork. It helps me quite a bit. Real nice of him to do that for me if he does.

I swear one of the guys who I met today, a guy Richard calls Peachy, runs on Energizer batteries or something because Richard, Darren, and myself kept taking breaks (it was hot and tiring), but Peachy just seems to be able to keep going and going and going. He'd be good in a commercial for Energizer batteries.

Darren kept wanting Richard to get girls there, and at one point, I joked with Richard that we should bring back a couple of old ladies for Darren, then see what he says.

Hold the line!

Lately, a company has been calling the house trying to push off a service in which they supposedly stop companies you don't want calling you from calling unless they give some password first. Oddly enough, they're the ones I don't want to have to listen to, yet they never let up. So, I figure next time they call, I'm going to say I'm not the person they're after, but I'll go get him, and as they do, say "Hold the line please.". Then, I'm gonna attach the phone to my speakers and play the song Hold The Line on repeat until they get annoyed and hang up. I'll continue to do it until they give up calling altogether.

The one downside to this plan is that I need to make sure Mom's boyfriend isn't upstairs so he can't hear me say this stuff. He'd ruin it by entering the room and saying something...which I don't want.

He's been a major pain in the ass recently too. When my brother got home from school, Mom's boyfriend told him to do his homework, and ended up insulting the hell out of me saying "You don't want to end up like your brothers, do you? Claiming unemployment, and sat at home all day online with no life until you retire." That describes him more than it describes me. I may not have a life in terms of offline friends, but then again, he doesn't either. I don't know of anyone who really likes the asshole. Also, I'm not claiming unemployment; he is. I'll admit I'm online a lot, but not 24/7 like he's claiming. I do go into town looking for jobs. The most I've seen him go out is into the garden for a smoke...shopping with Mom, or getting a ride down to the shops down the road, which is only a 2 minute walk. Why call me lazy when you can't even walk a 2 minute journey? He's not crippled or anything. No reason he can't walk, other than laziness.

Yesterday also proved his laziness, when Mom asked him for some help, he told her "I am helping, by staying out of the way." His next excuse was to say he was too sick, and the only suffering women do is when they give birth. That made me wonder...what the fuck does Mom see in him? He's a major fucking jerk...not only to her kids and all, but also to her. Why does she like him? It's so confusing!

Is 2012 the end?

Earthquakes, big freezes, killer flus; is 2012 truly going to be the end of the world?

In the past few days, I've read in the newspaper that this week, the UK is supposed to be having a heatwave of 83° F, followed by a big freeze next week. Will it really happen? Who knows.

I also read today in another paper that a killer flu is going to be hitting the UK.

No earthquakes have hit the UK, but I do know that there have been a couple in the USA, and other parts of the world too. If you're a believer in the end of the world stuff, all of this stuff will probably lead you to the conclusion that it truly IS the end of the world coming to light. I, however, do not believe that the world is going to end. All these things, in terms of the end of the world, are just rediculous coincidences.

If I'm wrong, then everyone can yell at me next year when the world is gone. Oh, wait...if it were gone, no one would be able to. So, I guess in a way this is a win/win situation for me. If I'm right, no one can complain. If I'm wrong, no one can complain.

So, what does everyone else believe? Do you believe the world is truly going to end in 2012, or do you think it's all stupidity?

I'm so fucking confused!

I am so fucking confused about everything lately!

Earlier, I was asked by Mom's boyfriend if I'd seen the job advertisement for bar staff in the Cornish Times (a newspaper). After reading the advertisement, I called the bar only to receive no answer from anyone. 30 minutes later, I try again; still no answer. Another 30 minutes; no answer. I gave up trying for a while, then at about 15:45, I got an answer. However, it wasn't from the person it said to contact in the paper. That person doesn't get there until 18:00. So, I left my name and number.

Not too long after that, Mom's boyfriend gets home and says he's going to the Job Center some time next week (I forget what he said exactly), and asked when I was going to sign on (for unemployment). As I've mentioned before in my blog, it's not something I want to claim after the crash on the DMT "bus" that left me with epilepsy. I do not intend on claiming it due to the fact that since I haven't had a job for more than six months, I may end up being sent back to DMT immediately, and that scares me. I told him I was waiting for a call back from that job, and he proceeded to tell me that he called the bar earlier and was told that they were looking for someone with experience in bar work, as well as a licence for it.

Question is, how did he call them earlier when I was unable to get an answer? Also, why did he decide to tell me this after I told him I wasn't planning on claiming unemployment? It's leaving me so confused. If he knew that from the start, then why fucking bother telling me I should call them? Honestly, I think he just wants me to claim unemployment so he and Mom can have the money I get from it. I'm getting mixed messages from it all. They want me to get a job and get out of here, yet when they tell me about a job, and I try for it, I get told some crap as to why I can't get it and told to claim unemployment. I'd only ever claim unemployment if I knew that it wouldn't result in me being sent back to DMT, and there's nothing that says I won't be.

I could do what one friend had said, which is to claim it and refuse to go to DMT if they decide to send me, but I think that will just get the unemployment cut off, or I'll be in trouble with the police or something. So, in the end, it's worthless even trying. I'll either lose the money, or be in serious shit.

First Impressions: Tomb Raider (2012)

While I was out this morning, delivering newspapers (I wonder how much longer I have to do that), I got to thinking about the new Tomb Raider game that is meant to be released in 2012; a game I can't wait to play, and I wondered if there were any gameplay trailers of it on YouTube. It wasn't until just now that I remembered that I was going to look for videos of it. So, here are some of the videos I've found of the game...in terms of gameplay that is. I'm sure there are plenty of trailer videos since the game was announced.

Tomb Raider 2012 Gameplay - E3 2011 Presentation
Tomb Raider (2012) E3 2011 Extended Gameplay

From what I've seen of the game so far, this "new" Lara is looking to be a hell of a lot more fragile than the Lara of the previous games. She doesn't appear to be the tough chick that we've all come to know and love. Is this a bad thing? In my mind, no. I'm loving this new Lara over her previous incarnations.

This fragile, more insecure Lara actually makes me care for her a lot more than she has in the past. All the Tomb Raider games I've played in the past have been good...mostly, but this one, it's just amazing. Never before has Lara looked and sounded so scared; so terrified of her predicament. Watching the gameplay footage I've seen has made me want the game even more. It's just too bad that there is a while until the game is going to be released. In the first video, they mentioned "4/2012", which I assume means that the game is not going to be released until some time in April 2012. The exact date? Who can say? If you look at the entry for the game on Wikipedia, it states the release date as "TBA Q3 2012". It makes you wonder what they meant by "4/2012" in the gameplay footage they showed at E3.

After seeing this footage, I'm sure I am not the only person who is really looking forward to purchasing and playing Tomb Raider once it has been released in 2012.

How do you acknowledge that you're listening?

The one thing that really confuses me about Mom's boyfriend is when you're being told about something. To show that I'm listening to people, I'll usually just say "Ok." if there's nothing more to really say. Lately, I've had to do that a lot because I'm mainly just getting lectures from him and my Mom. However, it seems that "Ok." isn't enough to show them I'm listening. Instead, he just assumes I'm ignoring them and just saying "Ok." to get them to shut up. The question is, what do I say instead? I mean, I could say "Yes.", "Yeah." or "Alright.", but that's not too much different to saying "Ok.". It makes me wonder if I should just say nothing at all. But honestly, I think he and Mom will still get angry with me because they'll assume that no answer means I'm not listening anyway.

I believe that there is no way to please them both. I know what they'd like, and that is for me to be out of this house and living in my own place. I would actually like that a hell of a lot myself because I'm tired of the fucking bullshit I get from Mom and him. For someone who claims to have nothing to do with us at all, and is "just the guy dating your mother", he sure likes to take control of everything.

I also ended up getting lectured about how I ignored Mom's boyfriend when he was calling to me yesterday morning. According to Mom, he'd called me a few times yesterday morning trying to ask me to come down and help him paint the kitchen. Funny, because I never heard anything. I was feeling a little sleepy though, and could feel myself drifting off to sleep, so maybe I fell asleep for a little while and wasn't aware of it. If I didn't, then I definitely did not here him asking me to go and help him. Even if I did though, would I have really gone and helped him out? Probably not. He doesn't deserve any help with anything.

Why Do Smokers Smoke?

I signed up for Triond today as I figured it might be a better place to get some of my opinions out.

Anyhow, I decided to check out some of the other users on the website. One user, Eliza Worner wrote an article that I can completely agree on. The article is titled Why Do Smokers Smoke?.

It's a good question, and she has some nice points in it, especially when it comes to people quitting. On the topic of quitting, she said...

Given what we know about the dangers of smoking to ourselves, our children and everyone around us, there is really no excuse to ever start smoking in the first place, and once the self-absorbed ego of teenagehood has been outgrown, there is certainly no reason to continue smoking. The reasons to quit smoking far outweigh the minor enjoyment of smoking. Anyone who claims they have tried to quit but found it too difficult clearly don't care about themselves or anyone else.

It's an extremely valid point. Why do people start smoking to begin with? I know that when you're a teenager, peer pressure may push you into starting (something that never worked on me), but once you're no longer a teen and away from the peer pressure stuff, why continue?

There's really no point to smoking. Honestly, when it comes to the effects of smoking, does it really calm you down or help you relax? Personally, I don't think so. Afterall, once my aunt quit smoking, she was a MUCH nicer person than she was when she was smoking. Smoking doesn't have ANY advantages from what I've seen. Sure, it may calm you down and help you relax for maybe an hour or two, but after that, you're going to be cranky and wanting another smoke.

I've never been able to stand the smell of cigarettes, which really makes walking out and about a pain because of smoke being blown back toward you by the wind and all. It happened just this morning. I was walking home behind a couple of nurses, and the smoke from their cigarettes was blowing back toward me. Sadly, I couldn't cross the road to get away from it or anything since there is no sidewalk on the other side of the street I live on. There was no way I'd be able to hold my breath long enough to get by them either.

I tried to comment on the article, telling her that I'm glad I'm not the only non-smoker who finds the act completely selfish and totally inconsiderate of everyone around them. I was also going to mention Mom's boyfriend, telling her about how he said he was going to quit, but gave up on quitting about five hours later, proving the line "Anyone who claims they have tried to quit but found it too difficult clearly don't care about themselves or anyone else." completely correct. It's sad that he thinks five hours without smoking is a good attempt at trying to quit. It's fucking pathetic to be honest.

Redheads to be a minority possibly?

A friend of mine, Lacey, had a status on Yahoo! telling people to check out Ryan's articles on a website called Triond. Curious, I clicked the link in her status, and then went on to check out Triond. I was surprised by one article I saw on the front page. It was titled Got Red Hair? You May be a Minority Very Soon.

I decided to check it out to see what it was about, and discovered that people don't want redheaded kids. Here's one small paragraph from it.

According to Cryos International, one of the largest sperm banks in the world, clients do not want their children to have red hair. The sperm bank is now turning away sperm donors with red hair because the demand for clients that want children with red hair simply isn’t there.

Why don't people want redheaded kids? It's kind of sad. I personally don't think there's anything wrong with redheads. Infact, a lot of redheaded chicks are actually really cute. I could understand why people may not want a redheaded son (I reckon a lot of guys wouldn't wanna be redheads), but what about females? Are redheaded females really THAT bad?

Someone really needs to explain to me why there is so much hatred toward redheads.

Opposite genders can’t be “just friends” - Part 2

Referring back to my blog entry Opposite genders can’t be “just friends” in which Vassoran claimed men and women can't be "just friends", a penpal came up with a very valid point. In her most recent letter to me, she said...

Bullshit,men and women can too be friends. I have several male friends that I wouldn't sleep with or date. What does that guy say about lesbians who are friends with guys or gay guys who have female friends? There is a flaw in his thinking.

I wonder why that thought never crossed my mind back when I wrote that entry. It's a good point. Lesbians have male friends, as well as gay guys having female friends. Homosexual people aren't going to be interested in dating or having sex with the opposite gender. Nice flaw in your thinking there, Vassoran.

Amusing chat line

Yesterday, I saw a line in the chatroom that I haven't seen for a while now. But, I really can't remember who was greatly amused by this one line. I know that one of my female friends loved the line and would quote it at times. Although, since it hasn't been quote by any friend lately, it's either been forgotten until now, or that friend no longer comes online. Here is the line.

camred007 (18/09/2011 08:28:00): hello all young girls of rounded n pointed boobs with pink nipples.

Now, someone who regularly reads my blog may remember that line and get a laugh out of it, then may end up quoting it again for fun. Possibly, other people may get a laugh out of it and start quoting it.

Is that a fish in your pants or...

It's really sad when you can't even joke about a screen name without people calling you gay. This all happened in 20's Love: 2 yesterday. Bored, and because the room was basically dead, I joined in on a conversation when this girl said that something was rude. Take a look.

trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:07:13): porn anyone? lmao
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:08:11): how rude
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:08:49): What's rude?
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:09:19): ya whats rude
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:09:49): asking ppl 4 porn
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:09:55): =))
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:10:06): nah i have my own lol
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:10:28): so is ur mouth as big as that trout
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:10:32): I don't think he was asking for porn...I think he was asking if anyone wanted some
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:11:31): still doesn't make any difference
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:11:33): Better question is, why does he have a fish in his pants?
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:11:57): loosen up ur panties agirl lol
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:11:59): Something fishy about that
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:12:45): shut up trout
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:13:24): "Is that a fish in your pants...or is your penis just wiggling all over the place?"
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:13:42): tidan stop lookin in my pants
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:13:47): this convo's making me sick
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:14:17): ur obsessed with my dick....ur making me nervous lol
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:14:46): is tidan gay or sth lol
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:14:54): think hes gay
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:15:09): I'm not gay. I was just joking around.
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:15:35): just seemed obsessed with whts in my pants
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:15:48): I know you people WISH I was gay, but I'm not...so too bad for you.
agirl_crazy_4_ebru (14/09/2011 20:15:51): doesn't it give u the creeps to comment on a guy's body tidan?
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:16:34): creepin me out .....
trouser_trout6969 (14/09/2011 20:16:48): keepin my back to the wall near him lmao
tidan_likida (14/09/2011 20:16:53): Er...no. I'm not looking at the parts...I'm just making jokes. I'd be creeped out if I was actually LOOKING at those parts, but I'm not.

Don't people have more original insults? When it comes to insulting people online, a lot of people will just end up resorting to jokes about fucking a person's mother, or calling a person gay. Why?

A ghostly voice?

I heard a clear female voice earlier saying "Yeah, I know.". I thought it was my sister, so the conversation ended up going like this.

Random female voice: Yeah, I know.
Me: You know what?
Sister: What?
Me: You said "Yeah, I know."
Sister: I did not. I said "Penny." (Penny is the name of one of the dogs)
Me: No...you said "Yeah, I know."
Sister: I didn't!
Me: You did!

I'm sure my sister now thinks that I'm completely crazy, and I'm sure some people reading this will also think that I'm crazy. I honestly did hear, in a clear female voice, "Yeah, I know.". The question is, who was it, and what do they know?

I'm thinking that it may have been a ghost because I have seen a little girl in the past stood in the doorway of my bedroom. I've no idea who the girl was, or why she was standing there. I've told a few friends about this already too. Some believe me, and I'm sure some think I'm completely crazy. But I do remember that night. I was talking to some friends online, and I needed to use the bathroom, so I got up to leave my bedroom. As I reached the doorway, I saw a young girl, who must've been about 8 or so in age. Surprised that she was there, I backed away, and bumped into my desk, at which point she disappeared. I have NO idea who she is because I've never seen anyone like that before.

I also have a photo in which a face appeared on the screen of my television. The TV was turned off at the time, so there is no reason why the face should be there. Also, I was completely alone in my bedroom when I was taking the pictures, so it's not the reflection of someone who was in the bedroom with me...at least, not the reflection of anyone LIVING.

You worthless piece of shit

Some people are so touchy on certain topics.

Yesterday, my youngest brother showed a friend of his a music video on YouTube called "Cooking by the Book" A Lil' Bigger Mix by Mastgrr. I got a lecture from my Mom about that; about how I shouldn't be showing a child of 11 years old something like that. When I did watch it, it was a few months ago and I didn't purposely show it to him. I was just watching it when he walked into my room, so he ended up seeing it.

Not too long after that lecture, I was looking at an article on the Smosh Pit called 22 Hilariously Strange Crimes. One of the images there read "A Meadowbrook Boulevard woman, 40, told police while she was stopped at a traffic signal on Hudson Drive a man beeped his horn and held up a sign that said, "I'm not wearing any pants." The woman told police she obtained the man's license plate number." As I was reading that, Mom's asshole of a boyfriend yelled at me saying that was too adult for him to hear.

This makes me wonder what isn't too adult for him. I was looking at Legend of Zelda motivators not too long before that, and a few of them were referring to how Link in some of the games isn't wearing any pants. Does this make Legend of Zelda too adult for 11 year olds now? Are the Legend of Zelda games going to require a mature rating in the games where Link isn't wearing any pants?

I really do not understand the mind of Mom's boyfriend.

I'm sure some people out there are going to agree with Mom's boyfriend and tell me that a lack of pants on a news report IS too adult for an 11 year old, but honestly, it was just a sign supposedly. The guy never got out of the car to show he had a lack of pants, and there was no picture. Are the words "I have no pants on" really too adult for a kid to read?

I guess this means I'll just have to watch out for what I read in the future because it may be "too adult."

Just had another lecture from Mom's asshole of a boyfriend. Mom came in here, telling me I should not leave porn up on my computer screen, and shouldn't even be looking at porn at all. Funny. I don't recall looking at any for a while now. I won't deny that I have looked at porn before, but how many people online haven't done that at some time? I know for a fact though that I have not looked at any lately, so I've no idea how any porn could've been on my computer screen. What I'm thinking though if that Sean had some up on HIS computer screen, and was caught, so in an attempt to get out of it, he pinned the act on me, saying that the porn popped up on his monitor because I was accessing it at the time. Complete bullshit.

Amusingly, his computer has totally died now. I can see this also getting blamed on me as soon as Mom gets home. I'll be told I was looking at something I shouldn't have been looking at, and whatever it was caused a virus that killed his computer. Another complete bunch of bullshit.

I'm sure that at some point, he's going to ask me to repair it, but with the mood I'm in at the moment, this is NOT going to happen. Afterall, after all the porn shit, he called me worthless, pathetic, told me that I can't do anything. Yet again, it came back to jobs, and telling me that I'm not even trying to get a job. It's really sad because I am trying. I've been going into town about twice a week looking around (and more if I just want to get away from Sean), yet no-one notices that I've left the house. They just assume that I'm in here messing around on the computer. So, if I'm so useless and can't do anything at all, then clearly, I will be incapable of fixing his PC. Too bad for him!

The lecture went onto him telling me that if I claim unemployment, it'll help me get a job easily. As I've said before, the only reason he and Mom really want me to claim it is so THEY can have the money. It's not to help me at all. Also, if it's supposed to greatly help you get a job, then why doesn't HE have a job now? Why don't others claiming it have a job RIGHT NOW!? It doesn't help you get a job any faster. All it does is gives you a little bit of money...which will be of no use to me because they don't want me claiming it for me.

I'd have a MUCH easier time finding a job if I could actually drive, but since I can't due to DMT, finding a job isn't going to be easy. The limit last time I was on unemployment was six months before being sent to DMT. Since I've already been unemployed for over six months, I'm more than sure that claiming unemployment won't help me find a job, and will most likely send me immediately back to that place. That'll only lead to more stress for me and most likely even more seizures, which I do NOT need.

Sadly true...

I was looking through my Facebook page when I came across this status from a friend.

SO LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT ... If you cross the North Korean border illegally, you get 12 yrs. hard labor. If you cross the Afghanistan border illegally, you get shot. Two Americans just got eight years for crossing the Iranian border. If you cross the UK border illegally you get a job, a drivers license, food stamps 4 tesco, a place to live, health care, housing & child benefits, education, & a tax free business for 7 yrs ...No wonder we are a country in debt. Re-post if you agree ???

It's sad that it's actually true as far as I know. I've been having problems trying to obtain a job, and oddly enough, people who don't live in the UK have a very easy time getting a job. I was thinking about posting that status on my Facebook, but they thought that it would just be considered spam by a lot of friends. So, I'm sharing it here instead.

Now, if you live in the UK, let me know if you've been having the same problems as I am with getting a job.

I can kind of understand why some companies WOULD hire people who aren't UK citizens. They'll work for less money than UK citizens, but still, they don't seem to realize how much of a pain it is for us. It makes me wonder if some company bosses put themselves in the shoes of unemployed citizens. How would they feel about being turned down for countless jobs just because the boss can hire someone who will work for a lot cheaper? It's not a very nice feeling at all.

What is she hiding?

Sometimes, you just have to wonder how many of your friends are actually true friends. I know I have a few, such as Holly, but others like Vicky, I'm not so sure about. I've been friends with Vicky for a few years now, and I've never once seen a picture of her. Even on her Facebook page, there isn't a single picture of her. Instead, it's just pictures of her...nephew I think. I can't recall her relationship to the kid.

I've asked her on several occasions to take a picture of herself for me, and there's always some excuse as to why she can't. No camera; looks like crap; is a failure. She never gives me a straight "Ok!".

I've asked her politely for pictures, and even resorted to being commanding and ordering her to take a picture, but in the end, it all boils down to the same result. Nothing. It's makes you wonder what she's avoiding. Is she afraid of losing a friend? Is she actually a guy? There's no reason that a friend should hide who they are from someone they consider a friend.

I can't even ask one of her friends (the ones that I know) for a picture because it seems they're never seen a picture of her either.

It seriously makes me wonder if the reason behind it all is because she's one of those guys who fakes being a female, and all these excuses are just a way to avoid showing any pictures.

Recently, I was linked by a friend to a Yahoo! entry about Ali Lohan, which you can see here.

Stuff like that honestly makes me wonder what the hell is going through people's minds. They start off looking pretty, and then end up looking like a fucking zombie. What's the point? Why do pretty young ladies think they're fucking ugly? It's so retarded that they go from beautiful to looking like they should be starring in a zombie movie. There's no need for them to mess up there looks. Not much anyone can really do about it though.

Take a look at that entry, and let me know if she honestly looks like she should be starring as a zombie in some sort of zombie movie. That's really how it appears to me.

Disgusting...

While checking my e-mail today, I came across an e-mail from the Facebook page/group called "Don't Allow Registered Sex Offenders on Facebook!!!". I'm not 100% sure on the link to the page/group, so I cannot link people interested in joining it.

Anyway, the e-mail was titled "Pedophile admitted raping 14-month-old baby girl and filming the abuse at his home". I decided to read the entry (I don't always read entries), and damn is it disgusting. For anyone interested, here is what the news entry said.

David Morrison, 45, of Grangemouth, also admitted being in possession of a library of child abuse images at the High Court in Glasgow on Friday.

Morrison admitted that he raped the child after evidence of the sexual abuse was built up by police through combining online chat logs, photographs and expert analysis of veins in Morrison's hands.

He also admitted taking, possessing and distributing images through the internet.

The investigation found he stated online that he intended to carry out the act. Detectives who seized his computers then discovered he had taken a video clip of the rape, sent the image to a pedophile in the USA and then spoke about it online afterwards.

Detective Inspector Barry Blair, of the Public Protection Unit, which led Operation Malta, said: "This man is undoubtedly one of the most dangerous sexual predators we have ever investigated. We know that children in the Forth Valley area and beyond are considerably safer now he has been convicted at court of these despicable offences.

"A comprehensive and unique evidential jigsaw helped us to charge Morrison with rape, to which has now pleaded guilty. We were able to piece together his offending by examining his chat logs to other offenders immediately before the offence took place, detailed examination of the images he had taken of the abuse actually taking place and looking at chat logs immediately after the offence had taken place.

"Experts were able to tell us, that by examining the patterns of veins on the back of a hand in one of the images and comparing that with photos we took of Morrison's hands, the person in the photo was him. They were also able to tell us by closely scrutinizing the backgrounds of the images that the photos were taken in his home."

Expert analysts were able to identify the location in the image as his home and that a hand which featured in the photograph was that of Morrison.

The pattern of veins on the back of his hand was compared to Morrison’s, confirming that he had committed the act.

Forensic examination of five hard-drives taken from his home revealed Morrison had been in contact with pedophiles in 25 countries. In the UK alone, 15 people have been arrested as a result of the inquiry. Three children were removed from harm after being identified as at risk.

In total Morrison was found with more than 13,000 downloaded and uploaded images, including photographs and videos.

A number of the child abuse images found in the investigation that began in December 2010 were of the most severe kind.

More than 30 police officers and staff worked on the investigation, alongside representatives of other agencies.

Detective Sergeant Douglas Howie, of the Specialist Investigations Unit, which investigates online crime and sexual abuse, said: "The possession and distribution of child abuse images is in no way a victimless crime. Morrison was in contact with more than 200 people around the world through the internet, who were all like-minded individuals who were interested in the sexual abuse of young children. In the UK alone, three children were effectively rescued from being at risk.

"Morrison was carrying out sex abuse on a small child and posting those images around the world for the gratification of others. I cannot think of a more abhorrent offence."

Anne Donaldson, Central Scotland Procurator Fiscal, added: "David Morrison has today pled guilty to offences that any civilized person will find it impossible to comprehend.

"He sexually abused a child and transmitted images of this abuse via a webcam. He made and downloaded indecent images of children and shared these photographs on the internet. "Working closely with police specialists, who utilized the latest technology to uncover the extent of his offending, the expert prosecutors in our National Sexual Crimes Unit have today brought Morrison to justice for these most despicable of crimes.

"I want to reassure the public that the prosecution service will work tirelessly to ensure that there is no place to hide for those intent on committing child abuse. They will be found, and they will be brought to justice."

What a mess...

While I was out on Thursday morning, I noticed a leaflet on the sidewalk for a British book company called B.J. Books. Now, if you have a perverted mind (come on now...everyone on the Internet has a perverted mind. The Internet perverts everyone's minds.), then you'll know how the name of this company can be taken in a complete perverted way. I wonder if the people who gave the company knew that the name could be taken in a really perverted way? Hmmm...maybe they did, and that dirty name would get them some recognition.

Thursday didn't go all too well for me later in the day.

I overheard Mom's boyfriend telling her that she should tell my siblings and I to move the fuck out of the house and stop being a pain in the ass and a burden on her. Annoyed, and not wanting to listen to a lecture, I threw all the Betterware stuff I could into my bag and went out to deliver as much of it as possible. After that, I came home to drop my bag in my room, went to the bathroom, and went out once again.

This is when everything went to shit for me.

I walked other to the SPAR store that's just down the road from me, and I purchased two small bottles of Cherry Cola, and some Matchmaker chocolates. After coming out of the store, I proceeded down to the road behind the store and looked around for someplace to sit down for a while to try to calm my nerves. Sadly, I failed at that.

The next thing I remember is becoming aware of a bunch of people talking to me, and some old ladies voice trying to calm me down. I couldn't really see any of the people who were around me though. I was also trying to get away from these people telling them I just wanted to go home. But none of them were going to allow that. They just wanted me to lay down and remain calm until the ambulance got there.

I never fully came around until I was inside the ambulance, at which point, I felt really bad. I started talking to the nurse in the back of the ambulance about some things, and I apologized to both her and the driver about being rude, if I was rude to them. I honestly have no idea if I was, but apparently, I wasn't too rude to them. I can't help feeling bad though.

I was stuck in hospital for a few hours, not because I was seriously injured, but because several people had to be seen to before me. One bad thing I noticed about that was that one kid came in after me, however he was seen to before me. I honestly down understand how their system in their works. Either way, I went up there about 20:00 - 21:00 Thursday, and didn't get to leave until 0:00 on Friday.

I guess it was lucky for my youngest brother that he was staying over at a friend's house that day because if he hadn't, he wouldn't have been able to get to bed since I'd locked the room. He wouldn't have had access to the room until at least 1:00am on Friday morning.

Because of the seizure, I'm now looking like a complete mess. I've got scratched on my forehead, nose and top lip; my top lip is also swollen. I have scratches on my knuckles, knees and elbows. I'm guessing the ones on my elbows probably came from trying to get up off the floor, but being told to remain laid down on my back. So, battling against that when I wasn't fully aware of what I was doing, I probably scratched my elbows quite a bit. Both of my shoulders are bruised up a bunch too. I also have a cut right on the back of my head that had to be fixed in hospital. So, I look like a complete mess right now. Probably looks like I've been fighting with a brick wall because of the scratched on my knuckles and all, even though that isn't what happened at all.

I really hope I can heal up from this all quickly because in a way, I'm scared to really go outside and risk bumping into anyone. I've no idea what people are going to think. I'll either be asked about it, or people are most likely going to come to the assumption that I've been in a fight. I'd never get into a fight if I can help it, but it is possible for people to see it that way if they don't know the store about why I'm so scratched up, cut, and bruised.