Terrified

I can't believe I did this. I've been bugged over and over by Mom and her boyfriend to claim unemployment benefits from the Job Centre, so that they can have the cash to buy food for "us all". A good friend of mine, Holly, also said today that I should do it, and that my excuse of being scared to death of this place, DMT, isn't good enough. So, I've done it. I signed up for unemployment benefits. Now what am I going to do? I have about six months now to find a job, or I end up being sent back to that dump of a place. God...PLEASE give me a job as soon as possible because I really do not want to be sent back to that place. I've already gotten epilepsy from going there. What am I going to get next? I really don't want to think about it. All I know is that I really, REALLY do not want to go back to that place.

I could always lie before six months is up, but there's the problem. They may contact the place that I use as a lie to find out if it's the truth. For that reason, there's no point in lying. I just have to go to that place if I can't find a job as soon as possible. Hopefully tomorrow, the weather is nice so I can walk into town and search around again for more jobs.

I have no idea what I'm going to do at the interview that is meant to be arranged. I'm meant to bring along two forms of ID as well as a C.V.. I don't think I have two forms of ID. I have a passport, but other than that, nothing. No drivers licence...nothing. I don't have a C.V. either. I gave my last one away when trying for a job. I hope somewhere gives me a job as soon as possible.

Chat fun

Yet another chat. This time, it was with a friend. At first, I didn't know what the hell she was talking about. But, after a bit, I realized that it was all in song titles, so I decided to be stupid and give dumb answers. Hope you enjoy it!

thepnkpanther: Now
thepnkpanther: Hi :D
tidan_likida: Hi
thepnkpanther: Tell me something good
tidan_likida: This is something good. :D
thepnkpanther: Whatcha say?
tidan_likida: I said something good. :D
tidan_likida: :))
thepnkpanther: So bad
tidan_likida: What's up?
thepnkpanther: Here for the party
tidan_likida: What party?
thepnkpanther: Party in the USA
tidan_likida: Oh?
thepnkpanther: Yeah
thepnkpanther: Let's dance
tidan_likida: \:D/
thepnkpanther: I hope you dance
tidan_likida: Oh?
thepnkpanther: Til the world ends
tidan_likida: :P
thepnkpanther: Don't drink the water
tidan_likida: Ok
thepnkpanther: Dirty river
tidan_likida: Ok then
thepnkpanther: Where are you christmas?
thepnkpanther: Come back to me
tidan_likida: Lost...
thepnkpanther: You found me
thepnkpanther: Live like we're dying
thepnkpanther: Laughed until we cried
thepnkpanther: Hello
tidan_likida: :P
tidan_likida: Continue confusing the hell outta me. :P
thepnkpanther: Marry me
thepnkpanther: Love the way you lie
thepnkpanther: If feels so good
thepnkpanther: Ha ha ha
tidan_likida: :P
thepnkpanther: Can you feel the love tonight?
tidan_likida: No. :((
thepnkpanther: Heartless
thepnkpanther: Can you keep a secret
tidan_likida: Sometimes
tidan_likida: lol
thepnkpanther: I am in love
tidan_likida: with a guy namedf Robert...I know
thepnkpanther: I kissed a girl
tidan_likida: :P
tidan_likida: :)
thepnkpanther: Don't tell a soul
tidan_likida: Alright
thepnkpanther: Hahahahaha I can't do it anymore omg =))
thepnkpanther: I'm dying over here =))
tidan_likida: Why?
thepnkpanther: I've been talking to you by only using song titles :)))
tidan_likida: I know
thepnkpanther: You should totally log that one
tidan_likida: lol
thepnkpanther: You know?
thepnkpanther: Lol what do you know
tidan_likida: It was titles of songs after a bit

Why are women so dumb?

I just have to post this short chat from the room 20's Love:2 because I found it so amusing. Personally, I do not find women stupid at all. I have no idea what this guy has against women, but he clearly has a major problem with them. I hope you enjoy this conversation. He left the room not too long after I started trying to mock him. I guess he couldn't take it.

dh00m_machale: WHY ARE WOMEN SOOO DUMB???????
dh00m_machale: can anyone answer tht
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dh00m_machale: i mean whers their brain
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dh00m_machale: whers ur brain women?
dh00m_machale: any women in here?
dh00m_machale: this is a question for u..
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tidan_likida: Why do you think they're dumb?
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dh00m_machale: cmon dude..
tidan_likida: Comeon...why?
hot_honey48 joined the room.
dh00m_machale: either they are dumb or act dumb..
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tidan_likida: How so?
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dh00m_machale: coz they act all innocent
nabin_rupa joined the room.
dh00m_machale: wen a guys hitting on em..
makbhayana joined the room.
tidan_likida: Oh?
dh00m_machale: their mind changes evry freakin 10 mints
tidan_likida: Don't give them mints then.
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Counteracting stress

I had a little bit of a laugh earlier after a new friend suggested to me that I should take up some form of martial arts to counteract the stress caused by Mom and her boyfriend Sean. Curious about it, I decided to see what kind of schools there are in this area of the UK. It turns out that Tae Kwon Do is the most popular style in my area as a lot of the schools I found teach that.

Other forms listed were:
Muay Thai,
Vale Tudo,
Mixed Martial Arts,
Karate (I knew there had to be at least one school teaching this),
Wing Chun Kung Fu,
Tang Soo Do,
Bujinkan,
Jeet Kune Do,
Kali,
Brazilian Jiu Jitsu,
Sanshou,
Lau Gar Kung Fu,
Jujutsu,
Kenjutsu,
Zen Shin Goju Karate,
and Tai Chi.

Wow. I didn't realize there were so many styles in this area. I scanned over the list, and only really checked out two of the forms to see what they were about. One of them was bujinkan. After reading about that, I decided that it was one style that I should never learn as it focuses on "the disabling (breaking) of the attackers limbs and which can also intentionally cause their death.". Now, being aware that after any seizure I have there is a brief moment when I'm completely unaware of my actions and have no control over myself. I found out about this twice. Once after pushing Sean out of the kitchen, and down the hallway with one simple push. The other time, I punched him. None of this was intentional as I would never plan on hurting anyone on purpose. I guess the inner anger I have against Sean just decides to release itself when I'm unaware of my action. For that reason, it definitely is not a good idea to learn a skill that can intentionally kill a person because what if I used it against Sean when I know the style?

Did it work?

Looks like life is going to go back to normal now that Sean's returned. As soon as he returned, I immediately had Mom telling me I should go and sign on at the Job Centre to claim unemployment. I don't know why she bothers to preach that to me because she knows I'm not going to do it. Why would I? Afterall, the only reason she wants me to is so that she can have the money to buy more food. Food for her and Sean. Sean claims that it's for "all of us", but it's actually just for them two. At the BBQ on the beach a few days back, Sean was talking about how they'd spend close to £100 on food for "us all". Why so much? Before he came here, Mom only used to spend about £40-£50 on food. Why has it now increased by a lot? Obviously, Sean's a greedy bastard. He claims unemployment...so if Mom is hard up on cash for food, then why the fuck doesn't HE give her his money? Why do I have to claim cash that won't be mine in the end so that he can buy even more food for him and Mom? It's complete crap.

I've not been having that much of a good day today. A good friend of mine, Vicky, came online to tell me "bye for good", and that she was planning on killing herself because she can't deal with life. So, this was yet another attempt at trying to talk someone out of suicide. Did I succeed? I have no idea. I really hope I did. I've only had to really attempt it one other time, and I failed at it. I was being as kind as possible on that attempt. So, I went with a more aggressive attempt this time, telling her that she's really selfish if she kills herself. In a way, it is pretty selfish killing yourself because if you think about it, you're hurting the feelings of good friends, as well as any family that may care about you. Sure, you'd be dead, but what about the people you're leaving behind? They have to live with the pain for the rest of their lives because you were selfish enough to kill yourself...showing that the only person you care about is yourself. I wonder if anyone actually bothers thinking about the damage they're doing to the lives of the people they leave behind for the selfish act?

She was telling me that only a few people would really care if she did it, but that's the point. It's nicer to have a few GREAT friends, than 100s of not so great friends. Given the choice, what would you prefer to have? A few great friends who care deeply about you, or 100s of friends that probably won't care if you kill yourself in the long run? I'd personally prefer a few great friends who care deeply about me. I have no idea what Vicky is up to now. She wouldn't talk to me afterward, and eventually just told me "I'll talk to you later", then signed offline. Will she really be back later, or is she going ahead with her selfish act? I really don't know. Makes me wish I could be with her pyshically to make sure that she won't do anything fucking stupid, but sadly, she's too far away. All I can do is hope that I got through to her. If not, then that's another good friend I've lost...and it'll show me how she really feel about me.

Constant complaints

I've got to say that I'm amazed by the amount of people who complain about a person for being "famous" or "popular" on their YouTube channel. One good example of this would be The Irate Gamer. I've been watching a few of his videos recently after viewing all of The Angry Video Game Nerd's videos. I am aware that he's just copied AVGN, and isn't anywhere near as amusing or angry as AVGN, and I've got to agree with this one comment on The Irate Gamer's video review of Kool-Aid Man Game. The comment reads: "my god guys,you guys are making him famous,you guys hate him but you guys are visiting his videos,thus adding a view,so more 200000+ dumb people that hate irate gamer,but they visit their videos rate and comment,making he famous the only way to beat the irate gamer threat is to ingnoting". It's so true too. If you hate a person like The Irate Gamer, then why watch his stuff? Why bitch and complain? Just don't watch the person's videos! It's simple enough.

I guess there's no real point in talking about things like this because people very rarely listen. There will most like hundreds of complaints on his videos even after this is posted. In fact, I'm willing to bet that some of the people who read this will end up visiting the guy's channel and comment on at least one of his videos saying that he sucks, or is copying another person such as AVGN.

I heard from my sister earlier that Sean is meant to be coming back here tomorrow. What a disappointment. I can only hope that he decides to stay where ever he is for a lot longer. Better yet, I can only hope that he decides to stay where ever he is for good! I hope he never comes back. I'd be a hell of a lot happier if he'd remain gone for good. However, that's just wishful thinking.

Asshole-free zone!

Well, it looks like I'm not going to get much sleep today at all. Why? I left to go to bed, but it didn't take too long before I had to get out of bed again to do papers because they arrived late. It usually takes me an hour or two to fall asleep, even if I'm really tired. The sad thing is, I'm meant to fully clean my room today so that we can get a new wardrobe in here. So, there's really NO point in attempting to sleep again because by the time I manage to get to sleep, it'll be about 9am, giving me only three hours to sleep before Mom gets home, at which point I'm sure she'll wake me up to clean up my room. I may as well just leave sleeping until after all this shit.

The good news is, there's no Sean here at the moment. I'm not sure how much time we have without him (please let it be forever), but it's so nice not to have him bitching about me lagging his wireless connection to his access to the Net from my router, or have him bitching that I've kicked him offline which I have no idea how to do! Another amazing thing about not having him here is that I haven't had Mom constantly bitching at me about stuff, which is awesome! I really hope he never comes back because it's so much nicer here without him. Sure, I'm sure Mom will continue to bitch about me not having a job, but at least it won't be constant bitching like I've had since Sean's been around. She appears to be 100 times worse when he's around. When he isn't around, she's not as bad.

Sense of humor? Where?

Even more shit I'm not allowed to do now. Sean got all pissy with me today for laughing at a video of a tribute to Merton, saying it was babyish and was slowing down his wireless connection to my Internet. Sounds like now I'm not even allowed to watch YouTube videos because it lags him. However, he IS allowed to watch them.

Why is my sense of humor babyish just because I was watching something funny. Not too long after that, he came to tell me a joke his friend had texted to him. Now, if anyone can understand how this is funny, well done. I sure as hell don't understand it or get why it's so hilarious. "I'm laying in bed naked. I should really get dressed because B&Q close at 9pm." Sean laughed at that. I just looked at him completely puzzled because I just don't get how it's funny. For those who don't know, B&Q is a DIY store in the UK. I've got no idea if it also exists in other countries, but that's just an FYI if you didn't know.

So, I'm currently bored and don't really have anything I can do. A lot of my friends aren't online, and those who are appear to be busy. I can't entertain myself with YouTube videos because anything I get a slightest laugh from is all of a sudden "babyish". I reckon the only reason he's lagging or whatever is because he's attempting to do too much at once...but like usual, it's all my fault because he can't deal with the fact that he's a total fucking moron. Nobody in the family fucking like him, and this is exactly the reason why! He drives you fucking crazy...to the point where you've got to fight off the urge to take a swing at him. I think that's honestly what he wants - to drive someone in the family so crazy that they hit him, then he can get rid of us by going to the police about it.

I reckon I could probably drive him crazy by turning off the router whenever I go into town. It'd be worth it. It'd drive him so crazy that he'd probably end up hitting someone and we could do the same thing he seems intent on doing - get him in trouble with the authorities.

Has anyone out there ever had to deal with a person like this in your family? Not actual family, but someone who is dating someone in your family; someone who seems to want to take control of the family? If so, how the hell do you deal with the anger and the stress of the situation bought on by these people? I'd really love to know.

UPDATE: Alright. My sister explained the joke to me earlier, but it's still not remotely funny to me. B&Q apparently sell beds, so the joke was that his friend is laying naked in a bed in the store and should get dressed cuz it's closing soon. Ha ha ha. I'm not remotely amused by the joke. Didn't even get a slight smile out of me. It's not funny at all.

Another bitch-fest

Yet another not so great day. It started out ok. I went out to try to deliver something to my grandfather, only to find out he was out, so I went to the store instead to get something to eat and a drink. I then tried to deliver the stuff again to find that he was in. I went into town after that to search for jobs, spending about 2 hours looking (I didn't stay in town for another 5 hours because I'd have gotten bored again). Only managed to find that there were 2 jobs going, one of which (a waiting staff job) required someone with experience in that field. I do not have any experience in that, so I didn't bother. The other place was looking for 3 different people. A fish fryer (Hopefully not what I'll get), a counter assistant or a dish washer/table cleaner. I'll happily do either of latter, but if I have to do the fish thing, I guess I can...it'll be a job after all.

A few hours later, Mom, Sean, my siblings and myself went out to a beach to have a BBQ. I thought that would be nice. Turns out it wasn't at all. All it turned out to be was a way to gather us all together and have another bitch-fest about us being useless and living at home etc. We had Sean telling us crap like "When I was younger, my Mom would throw me out of the house at 8am, and we wouldn't be allowed back inside until 8pm. That's really what your Mom should be doing with you all." Clearly, his Mom is a major bitch. Just because you were treated like that, it doesn't mean EVERYONE should be. Also, generations change. What shit happened to you will change.

Take kids now...a lot of kids enjoy playing video games and all. But, Sean is trying to treat my youngest brother the same way his Mom treated him...telling him to go out and play for hours and hours. Who with? His friends who live close also play video games a lot, so he'd basically just be indoors in another house playing games. Why does it matter where he is?

To escape his bitching and nagging between burgers etc, my brothers and I went and climbed around the rocks to another beach. We didn't want to deal with it all. I was a little amused when he was telling us that we barely talk to Mom and treat her like a stranger. That's because it's impossible to talk to her without getting a lecture. She'll bitch and bitch and if you try to reply or something answer with a "Yes" to acknowledge her, it'll turn into "Don't talk to me like that!" or "You don't even care!". Besides, she's made it clear several times, at least to me, that she wants us gone and wants nothing to do with us. Tell me why I wouldn't be treating her like a stranger? I don't know how to talk to her without making things 100 times worse to be honest.

I really hope I get the job I tried for because I need it.

Another lecture I got was about how I should sign on at the Job Centre to receive the unemployment cash. Not for myself though. They want me to claim it so Mom can have it all and they can spend it all on buying themselves food. He was complaining about how they'd spent £100 or more on food this week for us all. Why bother? Me and my brother always buy our own food. Why pay for stuff we're not going to have? The food they're buying is for themselves. Another reason I don't want to get the unemployment cash is because if I were to claim it, I'd risk the possibility of ending back at that dump of a place called DMT. That place already fucked up my life, and you think I want the money so you can buy tons of food and I can get sent back to that place if I don't get a job as quickly as possible? Fuck off...

Job needed - badly

I definitely need a job as soon as I can possibly get one because I honestly can not deal with Mom and Sean anymore. Yet again, Mom came into my room when I was Skyping with Holz telling me that I need to get a job/get some money coming in or go and find somewhere else that'll let me live there for free. Not too long before that, I had Sean telling me what I should be eating everyday, and that I never go out. He was asking me things like "When was the last time you went out?" - That would've been the 12th May...for 7 hours. I go out everyday actually, but I know it's never longer than 30-60 minutes. Thinking about it, he doesn't go out any longer than I do; no one cares that he doesn't go out any longer than I do. I'll have to go into town to do another 7+ hours of aimless wandering again I guess. He and Mom won't be happy if I do that though. Seems like they never are. It appears they want me gone for hours every single day. 7 hours on the 12th was bad enough since I had nothing to do after searching around for work, and they want me to do that every day?

"When was the last time you went to the pub? When was the last time you had a pint?" - For fuck sake...I don't like alcohol! Why the fuck would I want to go down the pub? Other people can drink and all, but I don't, so leave me the fuck alone about that. I know that's how most people here have a social life, but I don't wanna go to the pub. I'll just seem like a major loser if I go there alone and don't drink or nothing. Then again, I think in most peoples' minds...I am a loser. Who gives a fuck about the guy walking around alone?

I can admit that I probably need to eat better meals, but how could I do that if I'm supposed to spend hours and hours outdoors everyday? Besides, it's not nice enough to do that kind of thing everyday. Name one person who would want to go around a place for hours and hours if they've got nothing to do? Ok...I'm sure there are people who would do that, but I get bored easily. I guess the next time the weather is kind of nice, I'll walk into town and spend several hours there again...and get bored out of my mind again. I'll then get home and be told I haven't gone out at all because those two are never fucking happy. They will be when I'm gone.

It saddens me to think that quote my aunt said "Love comes and goes, but family is forever." is basically complete and utter fucking bullshit when it comes to Mom. She'll be ecstatic when I'm completely gone from her life. I don't care what people think because that is definitely how it feels to me. She can't WAIT for me to be gone.

Some great deviantART pieces - Part 2

Kiss Kiss
Loved Finland
From Finland with Love
Not so much love from Sweden
Tentacles Gone Good
From Sweden with Love
PotC: Wig Abuse
PotC: Two Norringtons
PotC: Wig Fetish
PotC: Jack's Hair
PotC: So gay
Fandom vs. Reality
Fandom vs. Reality 2
FMyLife - Barbie
FF: A Birthday Song
AtM: Fortunes
AtM: Ice
AtM: Notes
AtM: Food for Thought
AtM: What Did She Say?
AtM: Restaurants This makes me wonder what the name of the store was that would make her mother think it was a restaurant.

Note: Emily states at the bottom of these AtM comics that they're based on events that actually happened.

AtM: Conversing
AtM: Pets
AtM: Re: DinoSaurs Tutorial?
AtM: Death Note Ideas
AtM: Untitled for now
AtM: SightSeeing
AtM: Happiness Kills
AtM: JK
AtM: Illegal Pokemoning
deviantART Loves You
deviantART loves you II
deviantART loves you III

These few pictures are more by humon, but they're not from deviantART like the other images. Instead, they're from her website Scandinavia and the World.

Damn Kids
All you need is Love

Some great deviantART pieces - Part 1

Well, since Facebook hates me so much and won't allow me to upload some great images I enjoyed from deviantART, I'm going to have to post links to the images. It's odd really because a friend of mine can upload images she enjoyed from deviantART onto Facebook with no trouble at all. Ah well.

Note: I was not claiming these pictures as my own and was including the description written by the artist, as well as who it was © to.

I'll have to do this in a couple of entries I think to avoid the entries being HUGE! So, for this entry, it'll be comics that I enjoy by an artist called humon

Note: I'm aware that this entry may still be huge, but at least it's better that it's just one person's art and not several like I was going to go for. :P

Get In The Kitchen
Don't Panic
ANYTHING BUT THAT
Unfair Advantage
Who to give flowers
Clothes Confusion
Child of the Night
Who is related to whom
Brand New Equipment After reading this comic, I decided to see if there really WAS such a thing as a penis museum in Iceland. Amazingly, it's true. It surprised me. Who decided that the world really needed a museum of penises? Makes me wonder how many people go to Iceland to visit that museum. Is it a tourist attraction? Haha.
Iron Lady
It's Complicated
Product Pairing
Girl's Night
The Collection
Geography Joke
Totem Animal
Sports in Finland
Proper Greeting
Just a Number
Talk to Me 1
Talk to Me 2
Boys are such weirdos
The day the Iraq war started
Sister America
Denmark the Artist
Stop Your Meddling I wonder how many Americans aren't going to find this funny.
Too big for Denmark
How to deal with animals
Wonderful Nature Haha. The more I read about Denmark in these comics, the more awesome I think the place would be to at least visit.
Japanese Custom
Good to see you Australia
Porn for Everybody
Mythbusters LMAO! I've never honestly watched the show myself, but I do know of it because my Mom and my brother enjoy it. I saw this comic and couldn't help but laugh hard at it. I think I'm going to have to show my Mom and brother this at some time.

When is a man...a man?

I've definitely got to post this one blog entry by humon here because it's so true about men and women...and peoples' opinions on both genders depending on what they're into. I can totally agree with this entry.

Recently I’ve been getting a lot of interesting comments regarding gender, and some have accused me of being sexist, anti-masculine and wanting to emasculating men.

Let’s look at it this way: A woman can feel like a woman if she is being the passive/submissive part, she can feel like a woman if she is being the active/dominant part, she can feel like a woman if she is with a man, and she can feel like a woman if she is with a woman.

Men however are not so lucky. If they want be considered men by society they have to be the active/dominant part and with a woman. If they enjoy being submissive in any way they are seen as less manly.

And that is what I’m trying to fight.

A lot of people think that I’m emasculating Finland when I show him enjoying being submissive with Sister Sweden, and some even think he must be gay for liking it up the a** from her.

First off, gay? He is with a woman who has giant boobs, massive hips and soft curves all over, but because she slaps on a strapon all that is suddenly gay? Come on!

Secondly, it was never my intention to emasculate Finland. I actually hoped that showing the most masculine guy from SatW like that would make people rethink what it means to be a man, but apparently it backfired bigtime.

My "agenda" with characters like him and Tom from “Love and Tentacles” is not to emasculate them, but to show that just like there are many ways to be a woman, there should be many ways to be a man.

And yet, maybe I did succeed with one of my male characters: Denmark. I have shown him in almost all situations, from passive to active, flirting with both women and men and being perfectly comfortable with all of it, and yet people still seem to consider him a man. Maybe it’s just because he a silly drunk guy, but it still makes me happy that people are asking, “Is he sleeping with Norway?” instead of “Is he gay?” or calling him sissy boy, and a lot of men have told me that they can relate to him.

So maybe there’s hope.

How many people can agree with that one post? They're definitely some great words of wisdom there. Thank you for that, humon.

Also, I'd like to thank Tumblr for featuring the blog post "Sick fuck...". I logged into Tumblr on Sunday to post another entry to see that it was featured on the News tag. It was totally unexpected on my part. Thanks!

Sick fuck... - Part 2

I saw today that there was more news of the Tenerife beheading. It's even more messed up reading THIS story.

This is the devoted British gran who was decapitated in a horror attack in Tenerife.

Jennifer Mills-Westley, 60, brought “love and light” to friends and family, according to her daughter Sarah Mears.

Accountant Sarah said last night her mum had chosen to live on the sunshine island after retiring from her job working with children as a road safety officer in Norfolk.

But she remained devoted to her family – regularly visiting Norfolk and France, where her two daughters and her grandchildren lived.

Sarah, 42, said: “Mum was fully enjoying her retirement travelling between Tenerife and France, where she visited her daughter and grandchildren, and her other daughter in Norfolk.

“She was full of life, generous of heart and would do anything for anyone. We now have to find a way of living without her love and light.”

Sarah spoke as it emerged that her mum had reported being followed by Deyan Valentinov, 28, shortly before he allegedly killed her.

She went into an employment centre near the supermarket where she died to say a “weird” man was stalking her.

Minutes later, the homeless Bulgarian is said to have stabbed her 14 times in the neck, before hacking off her head and parading it through the streets.

Jennifer, originally from Norwich, moved to Tenerife more than 10 years ago.

She lived in a whitewashed apartment village called Port Royal in the Los Cristianos area after retiring early.

On Friday she made her way from her £250,000 apartment, as normal, to do some shopping in the nearby town of Arona.

But moments after arriving at a shopping centre she became aware she was being followed.

Witnesses say Jennifer begged for help at the employment centre, telling officials she was terrified. She only left the office when she believed Valentinov had gone.

But when she walked round the corner to the Shun supermarket the Bulgarian burst in. He allegedly picked up a large kitchen knife from a shelf and launched his frenzied attack.

After the murder he ran from the shop with the head in his hands, calling himself God’s prophet and shouting: “This is my treasure.”

Shocked witnesses rugby tackled Valentinov to the ground before police arrived.

He was known to the authorities and had been released from a psychiatric hospital just two months ago.

Last night a source at the National Police in Tenerife, which is investigating the brutal murder, said: “We have been told Valentinov was following his victim on Friday morning, that she went in the social security office asking for help and saying she was very scared.

“She waited in the office until he disappeared. She walked into the Chinese-owned shop ­nearby and he followed her in. He grabbed a large kitchen knife from the shelf and stabbed her at least 14 times in the neck without saying a word.

“Eventually he managed to sever her head completely, he picked it up and ran out.

“It is without doubt one of the most gruesome crimes we have seen in Tenerife. It appears he picked his victim at random.”

The source added that Valentinov had a history of violent crimes and in February was released from a psychiatric hospital after a random attack in Los Cristianos.

He was well-known in the area. Residents said he would walk around the resort shouting: “I have been sent by God to carry out his justice on earth.”

Local reports said he suffered from paranoid schizophrenia and sometimes could not afford to buy his medicine.

Valentinov had been living surrounded by rubbish and debris in a derelict house on Los Cristianos beach along with other squatters.

He was last night being held in a police station at the nearby resort of Playa de las Americas and is expected to appear before an investigating magistrate on Monday. The police source said: “We have taken CCTV footage of the shop, which has cameras pointing in every isle and recorded the attack.”

Yesterday the store had reopened – and shockingly was still selling a selection of large kitchen knives including butchers’ cleavers. Police had whitewashed over a large bloodstain outside the shop. Up the road outside the door to Jennifer’s apartment a single bouquet of white flowers, including lilies, was laid out.

Friends of Jennifer spoke of their horror at what happened. Phil Gibbs, who runs a cleaning firm close to where Jennifer lived, said: “She was a very nice lady. She kept herself to herself, was quiet and peaceful and always immaculately dressed.”

A neighbour and friend of Jennifer’s added: “Jenny was the nicest, loveliest, sunniest person you could ever wish to meet.

“She would have put her trust in the authorities and they obviously let her down.”

Her former neighbour Stella Watts, 88, who lived next door to her in Norfolk, said: “She was such a wonderful lady and a lovely neighbour.”

A spokesman for Norfolk county council, where she worked, said: “Jenny was a popular and well respected member of staff.”

The large, one-storey building where Valentinov lived reeks of urine. Yesterday the house was littered with old mattresses and empty beer cans.

There was also a novel called A Suggestion of Death, and Nick Hornby’s How to be Good.

A bar owner, whose business overlooks the building, said: “The house is disgusting. The squatters should be thrown out.”

It's amazing no one helped her if she was begging for help. Also, why did they let this guy out of the mental home he was at when it's obviously very clear that he's fucked in the head? Did they seriously think "Oh, he seems ok now. Let's let him go. No harm can come of it."?

Drunk driving at 9-years-old

I read this today after seeing a link to it on my friend's Facebook page.

Police records have shown a boy aged nine was arrested for drunk driving.

The youngster, from Cumbria, was breathalysed and taken into police custody.

But when officers discovered his age they were forced to release him without charge as he was too young to be held accountable for his actions.

Safety campaigners have since demanded action to curb juvenile car crime.

The child, who has not been named, was just one of thousands of under 18s arrested in the north of England over the past two years.

These included four 11-year-olds and a ten-year-old arrested in the Northumbria force area for car theft, and seven 12-year-olds arrested in Cleveland for the same crime.

During the same time period, Durham Police arrested one 12-year-old for aggravated vehicle taking and North Yorkshire Police arrested one ten-year-old for car theft.

These were among 2,467 juveniles arrested for crimes including car theft, aggravated vehicle taking, drunk driving and underage driving.

Kath Hartley, of the charity Brake, which campaigns for lower speed limits, demanded road safety education be taught in school.

She told The Sunday Sun in Newcastle: "It is incredibly concerning that young people are risking their own and other people's lives on the road. This must be addressed as a matter of urgency."

Seriously? A 9-year-old kid drunk driving? What the hell is wrong with the world lately? Where are these kids' parents? Doesn't anyone care about what their kids are up to anymore? Are the conversations just like "I'm going out, Mom." "Ok dear. Have fun." "I will." *hours later* "Moum...Iam hoom." "Did you enjoy yourself?" "Yeth." *passes out on the floor* "That's good, dear."

Trading places?

No way. I overheard Sean talking to Mom about my sister and the pregnancy. Supposedly, one of them came up with the idea that I should move into my sister's bedroom, and her into mine because it's bigger. This is something I'm NOT going to do. Firstly, I'd never be able to get my computer and everything in there without filling the entire room in one go, and also, that place would be dangerous for me. Even if I could get all my stuff in there, imagine how dangerous it'll be if I have a seizure? I'd cause a lot of damage to myself and all, and no one would be able to get into the room to do anything about it.

Besides, it's not MY fault she's pregnant. Why should I change everything I'm comfortable with just because she was stupid enough to get knocked up? It's not going to happen. I don't care what arguments Sean or anyone else makes. I'm getting really fucking tired of his crap. He needs to get a job and get the fuck out of this house. He's trying to take over everyones lives like he has some right to just because he's seeing Mom. News Flash, Sean...YOU'RE NOT OUR FUCKING FATHER OR NOTHING! I wouldn't care if you married Mom or anything, you still wouldn't be anything to do with us. You're just a sad fucking moron who likes to think he has some power due to seeing Mom. Pffffft.

The more time passes, the more I really hate this house. I really need to get out of here as soon as possible, even though I'm scared of living alone because of my epilepsy. It'd probably a hell of a lot safer than living with these fucking morons. Seems lately with stuff like that that they're trying to make it so that I'm at a high risk of dying. Why?

Heartless comments...

Alright. I've located the "humorous" comments people on Yahoo! were referring too, and it's not funny...not at all. I'm sure some people will probably laugh and think these comments are amusing, but they're not...not in the least.

Thank you Yahoo for the heads up!

I was about to head off to the supermarket for my groceries. I think I'll stay in now though.

every year thousands of insane white british woman travel to the canary & caribbean islands to copulate with nonwhite men...only a nationalist fascist government can stop them

his wife just said HEADandSHOULDERS

Was it Safeways Supermarket?

at least we now know bulgarians are filth,he should of paid for the knife

Nah, you'll be OK as long as you keep your head!

He must of been off his head

calm down calm down dear keep the head.

Someone told him he needs head and shoulders.

she will not suffer from an hang over in the morning lol

do you think he will hold his head up high in court ;-0

Its realy sad i thort only africans did things like that Geez...there's even racism in these "jokes". God you people are messed up. Don't you ever think before posting shit like this? Think about it. This woman could've easily have been you! Or someone in your family! Or a close friend! FUCKING THINK!

novelty bowling ball

one hat for sale!! 2 euro....new..bottle shampoo.1 euro!!!!!!!

hahaha

was it cost cutters?

You don't expect that for asking where cadbury's fingers are

May she rest in pieces

is she dead?

Just hope she didnt drop the eggs

Blimey! That's a bit drastic isn't it. Must of been a "head banger", or a bit of a "nutter", but all the same it's not nice to hear this kind of news. It's making my head swim...around..and around again.Oh dear, sorry, but what a sick world we live in. But no worse than just a sweeney todd while ago. We just hear about it more, and can get our heads around it these days! Heads or tails maties?

Sarah hopes the woman did not suffer?
Not that easy when some lunatic is cutting your head off with a knife he found in the store.
Had it been in the UK, Health and Safety would have stopped him for using a shop knife for a medical operation.

That reminds me...
I must head off back to Spain sometime.

hope he got a bl@wjob before he threw the head away

How ironic that it was the 'gentleman' that was off his head.

i wonder if she woke up this morning thinking what strange thing might happen to her on friday the 13th... ????

On the plus side,more shampoo for her family

Fgs mum - I only asked you to get me a packet of fags..... what's taking you so long?

this guy was clearly off his head

the headless women lol hahahahahaah

Why oh why must this have to happen. I'm a shopkeeper myself, and shoplifting will be the ruin of me, Let's hope the police made him pay for the knife before they carted him off.

the reporter was 'HEADING past the supermarket!!!

Alright alright, keep your heads on.

This has to be the actions of a deranged mind surely?
Whilst it's a worry that this kind of thing could happen to any one of us at any time, I think it's important to remember that this is a very rare, isolated incident, and we should stay calm and not lose our heads.

I've heard all about Brits going to the Canaries and losing their heads, but this is beyond the pale!

she must of been a bit backwards herslef, normal people tend to get leg less on holiday

She didn't expect that to happen after he asked her to give him head.

PAUL, this is the problem the world is going to much to pot it make`s poeple paraniod. ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME?

Probally her diet included meat...
Have you imagined the torture of the animals prior and during their death?
Karma.
What you do is what you will get... World war is the 'greatest' of all, a massacre in the same way the so called 'civilsed' people do to animals. I don't pity her, I don't know her, I just know that Karma is powerful, everyone is paying for their sins, in this life, in the next and in Hell. Geez. If you believe in karma, then that heartless crap you posted is DEFINITELY gonna come back and bite you in the ass! Anyone who believes in karma would know better than to say anything like that. It's just heartless. How can you not give a fuck for another innocent person?

This guy is a pain in the neck.

Maybe the homeless nutter was paid (maybe an arm and a leg) by someone who wanted her head?

Lets hope she makes a speedy recovery.

He can give me head any day

look on the bright side at least the homeless man will have somewhere warm to sleep tonight a police cell

What a sick world, I can't get my head round this news.

You have no idea any of you who this woman was. She could have been a murderer or child molester herself. The criminal is also someone's son and a troubled person. Why do you all make such assumptions she is innocent and he is so inhuman. Forgive him. He knows not what he does I say. We are all guilty because we have formed a society which feeds malice.

"Honey, I'm just heading out to the shops."

Very bad Friday 13 joke!!!

I think this guy was just trying to get ahead in life.

On the plus side though, she's gonna make an awesome ghost.

I wonder why he did that, now she cant see where she going.

Geez...so many heartless jokes. I give up on reading any more of these. They could go on for hours. I'm amazed by that karma comment. How ironic for a believer of karma to make such a terribly heartless comment like that. She's earned herself a lot of bad karma for that one comment.

Sick fuck...

I've read it now, and here's what it said.

A man has killed and beheaded a British woman in a supermarket on the Spanish island of Tenerife.

The suspect, a 28-year-old unemployed Bulgarian identified by police as Deyan Valentinov, attacked the unnamed 60-year-old woman with a knife and then fled into the street with the severed head in his hands, according to eyewitnesses.

Colin Kirby, a reporter for Tenerife Magazine, explained what he had seen as he walked past the shop, in Los Cristianos, Arona, which is situated on the southern point of the island at around 10.30 am.

He said he had spoken to an English couple who were in the shop at around 10.30am when the incident happened.

"They said this guy just walked in, pulled a big knife and started stabbing at her."

He added: "I didn't see the attack but I saw the guy. I was walking past the commercial centre and I saw a small group of people outside. There was a guy from the medical centre going down the ramp and I thought perhaps someone had fainted.

"I heard people shouting and screaming and making a commotion. A Hispanic looking guy, very scruffy, was walking behind me muttering to himself, carrying what I thought was a joke head by the hair, with blood.

"It made me think of Clash of The Titans, gorgons. I thought … it's a joke'. The man was in his late 20s … He was a bit dishevelled, unwashed, he was wearing a jumper and trousers, when everyone else is wearing shorts. Even at 10.30 in the morning, it's boiling."

Kirby said that the man ran off as security guards and others chased after him.

"Security guards rushed from the shop where he'd been, chased him across the road and by this time he was pinned to the floor. By this time he was empty-handed and was on the other side of the road."

"The security and the police had to hold people off – they were queueing up – they were trying basically to kick the hell out of the guy."

Los Cristianos has a large expat British community.

A witness told the radio broadcaster Cadena Ser that he saw the man drop the head on the pavement after coming out of the shop.

"I parked my car and saw a man running out with something bloody in his hands and a security guard chasing him. He threw it to the ground. It almost hit me.

"What he had been carrying was a woman's head."

Araceli Perez, 33, who works for Ocean Properties, said the victim was British but of Chinese ancestry. "[The killer] was running away with her head in his hands," she said. Tenerife media were saying the killer had previous convictions for violence, she added.

The Foreign Office said that not all the woman's family had been informed and they could not comment other than to confirm that she had died. "We are aware that a British national has died in Tenerife," it said.

José Alberto González, the mayor, said the attack did not appear to be premeditated and had been recorded on the supermarket's security cameras. A regional interior ministry delegate, Dominica Fernández, said the suspect was believed to have entered the shop and stolen a knife, which he then used to behead the woman. The attack appeared to be random.

Police are investigating to see if the victim and the killer knew one another.

Wow...just...wow. I can't believe it. I took a look at another report of it on Yahoo!, and it seems from a lot of comments on the page that some people have been making jokes about the story. I'm currently searching through the comments to see what the hell these sick jokers have been joking about with this report.

I do wonder the same kind of thing after reading some of these comments (not the jokes. Not located them.), what the hell were people doing while this was going on? He was using a knife...it would've taken quite a while to behead her. Where were security and all at this time? It's fucked up...couldn't anyone have helped her in the time it would've taken for all this to happen?

Breaking news!

Today must have been a real slow day for news because on the front of one newspaper I looked at today, there's a headline about porn being found at Osama Bin Laden's hideout. I thought to myself "Seriously? Is the news of porn at someone's place really such HUGE news that it requires reporting on the front page?". It's not THAT worthy of the front page because...geez...everyone has watched or looked at porn at some time in their life. It's not such a huge shock that Osama would've looked at it too. But, I guess to someone, that kind of thing is so surprising and WOW!

There was a more interesting story on the front of another paper. Some guy cut off some british woman's head while she was shopping in Tenerife, and ran off holding the head by the hair. What the fuck? What the fuck is wrong with some people? What would possess someone to do some shit like that? I didn't read anymore into the story, but that's definitely the kind of thing I usually expect to see on the front page, something extremely shocking or surprising. Thinking about it, I think I'll look up the story and see what the hell it was all about.

Aimless wandering

Never go out for hours unless you've got something to do in those hours. I walked into town today to get away from another lecture of "Get a job and move out.", and ended up spending seven hours in town. I spent about two hours searching for jobs, and only found one, which I went and asked about. I need to hand a C.V. to them. Perfect. I'm having trouble typing one out because I honestly can't remember the dates of when I did the jobs.

I ended up having to spend the remaining five hours wandering around town aimlessly with nothing at all to do. Not good. I ended up wishing I've taken the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy novel I got today into town with me so I would've sat somewhere and read that for a while, but I never took it with me sadly. Only two things happened which distracted me from my bored, aimless wandering. One was a helicopter that was randomly hovering over an area, like it was looking for someone; I'm still curious about what the hell it was doing. I sat watching it for a bit to see what was happening, but it eventually left. The second thing was a young kid who walked up to me holding a small bottle shaped plastic tub containing what looked like jelly, but she claims it was goo. She was telling me about how "We're not allowed to throw goo into the bin.". I responded "Oh, really?", and she told me "Yeah...because it makes the bin all gooey and not nice."; she was tossing the jelly/goo onto the floor in small blobs while telling me all this, then threw the empty tub onto the floor and left.

It's a shame there weren't more kids being weird like that around...would've been a lot more entertaining than the aimless wandering.

I managed to get rid of some of the Betterware items to which Neil had lost the order forms for. I still have a few items though that I really need to figure out the locations for. It's going to require some aimless walking around and knocking on doors, which I'm not up for doing now because I've done enough aimless walking and don't want to do more of it. I'll work on it tomorrow. I have a list of people who have ordered stuff in the past and all, so I'll just have to go down the list for the area the orders are for, and knock on each door and hope for a reply. There's only...eleven houses on the list that need to be tried. Shouldn't take too long, assuming people are home when I try and that they remember what the hell they ordered.

Get out while you can!

Things can never go right here it seems. This is why I tend to stay awake at night and sleep during the day. It's not healthy, I'm sure, but it's the only way I can avoid getting a lot of anger all day long.

Mom has stormed out of the house, angry. Why? Because apparently me and my siblings are keeping her boyfriend awake. I don't know exactly how that is our fault. He said for like 3 hours "I'm going to sleep now." over and over, but kept going online to talk to people. Now, when he finally tries to sleep, we're meant to be extremely silent; not make a single sound. Ok...how? It's not possible to be THAT quiet. My youngest brother ended up accidentally knocking something off of a shelf and onto the floor, which made a loud bang. Annoyed, Sean left Mom's room and went outside. Mom got major pissed, stormed out of the house, and drove off somewhere.

If he has such a problem sleeping during the day, why doesn't he be sensible and sleep at night, or during the day when it's quiet? What he does instead is sits around downstairs and watches TV till midnight. Then comes upstairs and talks to people online for hours, then claims he's gonna sleep, then talks online even more, claiming over and over he's going to sleep. When he finally tries to, we're all meant to be extremely silent. Thing is, when he decides to, everyone is usually home and awake. In the mornings, Mom and my brother are usually out working. My youngest brother is at school. My sister tends to sleep an awful lot...at night, during the day...whenever she can really. I'm sleeping during the day. But he decides to chat online or watch TV and finally decides he's going to sleep when everyone is home and awake and bound to make some sort of noise. Can't he use his brain and sleep at a time when it's silent instead of picking the worst time?

I cleaned my room up majorly today to make room for a new wardrobe because the one I currently have is falling apart and is no use for anything really. I have my clothes all around my room in piles because there's no where in the wardrobe to put them since it's busted up bad.

*sigh* Just perfect. Sean's gone downstairs now that Mom is back (she's crying), and is telling her she should gather us all in a room and bitch at the lot of us. GOD...I really can't deal with that fucking moron. I get bitched at enough everyday by Mom telling me to get a job and get the hell out of her life. Apparently, she's going to do that after she gets home from work tomorrow. Looks like I'm going to have to be out, but where to? If it's cold like today, I'm going to need some gloves. Not going to be a good day at ALL tomorrow.

A simple chat

I spoke to my grandfather today when I went around to collect the Betterware catalogs. I didn't intentionally plan on talking to him, but I couldn't see the catalog I delivered to him in the window, so I rang the bell to ask if he'd put it out or not. He said he did, so I figured that Mom must have picked it up. I then continued on to ask "Have you heard?", curious as to whether my sister had had the guts to tell him about her being pregnant? He asked me "About what?", then immediately went onto say "About your sister?". I knew then that she had told him. I wonder how mad he'd gotten with her. It just ended up being a calm-ish sort of conversation with me, although he did seem a bit annoyed, calling her stupid and all. He also knew it was one of the Giddy's who knocked her up, and didn't seem pleased about that, and was asking me if he had a job and such. I told him that I didn't know, and that he'd most likely have nothing to do with my sister now that she's pregnant...if they were still seeing each other.

He told me that Mom had told him they'd finished a while back. Now, I wonder if Shane knows about it or not? If he doesn't, he may still be friends with her, but then, how long will that friendship last when it clearly shows that she's pregnant?

I had a bit of a laugh when I woke up today to hear Mom's boyfriend saying "See. I'm intelligent as well as stupid.". Seriously? He had problems spelling simple words. Everyday I've heard him asking Mom how to spell what should be extremely easy to spell. Words like wearing, meant, as well as a few others that are simple. I can't recall how many words there have been, but they are all simple words that someone who is meant to be fluent in English should know how to spell! Where's the intelligence? He likes to think he is smart when using the Internet, and thinks he knows everything about everything online, as if ANYONE knows everything about everything online. It's always amusing to see people who think they know everything about everything, yet can't work out how to do the simplest things.

Knocked up

I really wish that jobs weren't so damn hard to find. I need one now more than ever. I can't deal with my Mom's attitude toward me anymore. I can't deal with her dickhead of a boyfriend either. I'm so glad I'm not the ONLY one in the family to think that he's a major fucking dickhead. I had posted a status up on Facebook about my sister being pregnant. This was a couple of days ago. Mom took my sister to the hospital for an appointment because she's been sick a lot lately, and it turns out that she's 15 weeks pregnant. Who by? A friend of hers named Shane. I've no idea if they were "dating", but clearly they had sex. My sister is like the third or forth female that he's knocked up. The sad thing is, usually after he's knocked someone up, he decides to not have anything to do with them. I'm sure that'll happen again with my sister being pregnant.

I'd really like to know if my grandfather knows about it yet. When I was talking to my aunt, she was saying she wouldn't like to be around when he's told. I told her that I don't think ANYONE wants to be around when he's told because he is going to flip. I remember when Mom was pregnant with my youngest brother. He got really angry with Mom getting knocked up by some guy who promptly decided he wanted nothing to do with her. I can't imagine how pissed off he's going to be when he finds out that my sister was knocked up by Shane. I definitely wouldn't want to be around when he's told though. Question is, will my sister have the guts to tell him? I hope she does because the longer she leaves it, the worse it'll get. If she doesn't tell him until she actually has it, then...yeah...let's not think about it.

I'm currently stuck on what to do with the Betterware items I have in a box downstairs that need to be delivered before tomorrow evening. The order forms were no where to be found inside the box, and I can't recall any of the addresses of people who ordered items. I called Neil to ask about it, but he claims he placed them inside the box. Clearly, he didn't because until Sunday, I never opened the box. No one else in the family has touched it either. He was saying that they may have fallen out of the box and to check outside for them. Well, since he delivered then on Tuesday, and it's been real windy and rainy since then, the order forms could be ANYWHERE by now and probably completely ruined by the rain.

What am I meant to do?

I can't just go around every house knocking on doors asking if they ordered anything, and even if I found the houses, they'd have to remember what they'd ordered since none of them wrote it down on the customer part of the forms to keep. What a pain...

Pissed

It's amazing how people seem to like taking crap out on me. I went out not too long ago to collect some cash from people for all the papers they've had delivered over the past week (something I am NOT personally responsible for), and one of the customers got completely pissed at me. She said that a week ago, she called here to say that she'd be away for a week. According to her, it was a woman. However, neither Mom or my sister got this call, so they really didn't know they weren't meant to be delivering papers to her this week. I apologized to this woman, but she didn't want to hear it. Instead, she was bitching at me and saying she wish sometimes she never bothered asking to get papers delivered, and that I'm a real pain in the ass. Fine. If it were my choice, I definitely would not deliver any more papers to her since she's a complete fucking bitch.

Haven't really had too much else happening lately. I've been trying out a few MUDs with my good friend Holly. So far, we've played Materia Magica and Aardwolf together. So far, Aardwolf seems to be the best that we've tried. We are however trying to find some other good MUDs to play. Others that I have tried are BatMUD, Discworld MUD, SlothMUD, and Atonement RPI. Holly also tried out Atonement RPI, but neither of us got past the character creation screen. That game honestly need a lot more patience than any other of the MUDs since the character creation screen goes on forever!

Anyway, if anyone knows of any other great MUDs with a lot of players, could you please let me know? I'd really like to try some other good ones. Holly has been trying to find one that isn't fantasy-based. Does anyone know of any like that? No elves, orcs etc...just something futuristic like...humans and guns etc. I'm sure if anyone recommends any that they'll be fantasy.