I've listed my last few posts as 14 weeks. However, it seems like this healing process is going to be much, MUCH longer than I was once told while I was still in the hospital. There's not a lot I can do about that, though.
One thing that's been on my mind several times since I left the hospital is the community organizer stuff, but more specifically, whether I'm even wanted there anymore. Why? I've tried contacting Richard via texts and phone calls but have never received any reply. I thought that he was possibly having problems with his phone. Since I don't have his work phone number since my old phone was ruined because I waded into the river with it while trying to drown myself, there's nothing else I can do. So, I tried to add his wife to my Facebook but have not received a reply. I then tried to message his work partner, Lin, on Facebook as well, but as you may have guessed, I never got any reply from that either. So now what? There's absolutely nothing I can do to contact him until I can walk properly again. The only other option is to walk up that steep hill and knock on his door. I don't know when I'll be at that point again.
Another thing that's been bugging me about the entire thing is that my website, which Richard was hosting, Endless Tales, has vanished off of the face of the Earth. Is that his way of literally telling me to fuck off? That I'm not worth the time anymore? I've no idea. Anyway, I guess it doesn't matter anymore. I'm lucky that I have more than one blog because if I were only updating the blog I had on that website, I would have lost everything I've ever written. It shows that it's always good to try to keep a backup of everything if you can.
A friend suggested that Richard may want to be rid of me because he's afraid that he may end up becoming a sort of carer for me, especially after the accident that left me in the state that I'm currently in. If that's the case, I can't say that I blame him for avoiding me. However, why couldn't he tell me via Facebook, text, or a phone call if that were the case? It wouldn't be as bad as simply just ignoring me completely. If you had a friend who was around when the accident happened, and they were afraid of possibly becoming a kind of carer for you, would you prefer to be avoided completely by that friend, or would you prefer that they just came out and told you? I'd like to be told. It's much nicer than being completely shrugged off like you're worthless.
