What have I done?

I think I've upset Sharlet beyond belief yesterday...well, earlier. She was asking that if she were to kill herself (which she wont), would I just move on? I got upset, and she left upset...maybe a little angry. She's not talking to me at all now it seems. Have I blown things getting upset when she asked me not to get upset? What can I do? I...I hope she's ok. I dunno what the hell I can do! FUCK! I need her...I need her more than anything. God dammit!

Plymouth Aquarium

Went to Plymouth Aquarium again today. We went last Sunday too, but I didn't have my camcorder with me. I asked Mom yesterday if we could go again today while we were at work. That was before my sister crashed Mom's car. After that crash, I thought that Mom would refuse to take us up there. Anyway, I have about 30 minutes of video from the aquarium, as well as a few photos before my camera's battery ran out of power. The pictures are on my computer. The video isn't yet because I need drivers to allow me to upload the videos from the camera.

Does anyone know where I can get an installation driver for a Samsung VP-DC163 Digital Camcorder? I'm looking currently, but so far have found nothing. It would be nice if someone knew where I could get the driver for free. I reckon I may have a disc for it somewhere, but I can't find it at the moment, and it would be faster if I could download it from somewhere. Any help would be appreciated because I'd really like to put the video up onto YouTube. Sure, it may not be the most interesting video ever, but it would be nice to let some friends see it, as well as anyone who is interested in that kind of thing.

I just remembered it's Dad's birthday today too. DAMN! I forgot to get him a card and send it off...I was going to get one yesterday, but after that crash, it slipped my mind. I guess I could send one tomorrow, but it would be late then. But, better late than never, right? I could include a note with it telling him about the crash with Mom's car. Wonder how annoyed he'd be with my sister if he found out. He didn't pay any of the money toward the car, so that kind of annoyance wouldn't be what he'd get. I did tell my cousin, Grahame about it yesterday on Facebook. Never really thought about it when I sent it. If Mom doesn't want grandfather knowing about it, I'll have to hope that Grahame doesn't mention it. But, if he does, there's not much you can really do about it other than to tell him the truth. The person who really needs to tell grandfather about it all though should be my sister because she's the one who'd done it all...

Crash...

My sister crashed Mom's car today when we were out at work. She started it up, and I told her not to do it because I knew she'd do something stupid if she did. Anyway, not long after, her friends came out from cleaning, and I got out of the car to allow them to get in. That's when she drove it...right into a wall. She claims she was hitting the brake, however, there's a huge dip where one of the tires was spinning. She obviously stepped on the wrong thing. Then she couldn't get it to reverse and was asking me for help. I don't know anything about cars really because I'm not allowed to drive due to epilepsy. Why the hell would I care?

Now Mom is pissed. Bryn and I told Mom straight after. No idea if she's going to tell grandfather or not. He did pay half of the money for the car. If he finds out, he's going to go mental. Somehow, I don't think Mom will tell him about it though. I reckon if she does, she'll get into trouble as well as my sister, saying she shouldn't have let my sister drive. Honestly though, she wasn't there. Only her friends and I were there to witness it. You'd have thought me telling her not to do it, as well as the fact that NO-ONE would get in the car if she was going to drive it is a big enough hint NOT to do it.

Just have to hope Mom gets it repaired soon. If she's not going to tell grandfather, then everytime she has to go down to see him, she'll have to drive the car right around the green to park with the non-damaged side facing his house. He's going to suspect something is wrong if she starts doing that alot though. I think at that point, I'll probably have to defend Mom because she's definately nothing to do with it. The only person involved was my sister and her stupidity.

Mom can't claim the insurance on it either because my sister isn't insured to drive her car. She doesn't even have a licence! I reckon it's going to cost her quite a bit to get it repaired. We'll have to hope it doesn't get written off like her old car. Her old car wasn't even damaged too much. About as much as this new car is now. The only difference between the old cars damage and the new cars damage is the fact that the old car had a dent above the front-left wheel.

Landslide?

I haven't seen this, but supposedly one of the hotels over West Looe was involved in a landslide, and half of the building has fallen down. I would like to see what it's like over there. But, I bet you're not even allowed to get close enough to really look. I know if I could, I'd go down and take a few pictures.

Grahame, my cousin, is single again. Stephanie, his girlfriend broke up with him with basically the same reason as his previous girlfriend, Michelle. She told him "I care for you, but I don't love you anymore". Maybe not those words exactly, but along those lines. He's coming back to Looe today. No idea how long he's staying in Looe. Maybe he'll live here again, or maybe he'll live elsewhere in Cornwall, depending on where St Austell Brewery relocates him.

Plymouth Aquarium

I went to the Plymouth Aquarium today. It was great! It's just ashame that I didn't take my digital camcorder today. It would've been great to have filmed some of the things out there. Especially these 2 kids that were there. I had one standing next to me, Adam, who at first said "Fish." to me, and I replied "Yeah.". After that, he was pointing to every fish saying "Shark." in this creepy voice. It was cute, but hilariously funny too. There were no actual sharks in that display tank. Sharks were in a different tank thing. I really wish I could've just filmed it. Another little kid, who I don't know the name of, saw the turtle swimming away, and commented with "He's got a big bum!". If we go there again, I'm going to take my camcorder with me. I was to film the things, and hopefully film some hilarious things that kids say.

Anyway, the main reason I went into Plymouth was to get some new jeans since I only had 2 pairs that fit anymore, and they were getting alot of holes in. I badly needed new pairs. Got 4 new pairs now. I missed Emma though. Mom said that Emma Baxter, an old friend from school, was up there. I turned around to look, but couldn't see her. I would've gone to have talked to her for a bit if I had seen her. Ah well. Not much I can really do about it. I'll message her on Facebook in a moment to see if she really was in Plymouth, or see if it was someone who just looked like her.

Nothing else really happened today.

...24 hours...

I'm going to have been awake for 24 hours in about an hour from now.

Anyway, yesterday, I was woken up by my sister because we were going to Plymouth. That was around 11:30. The main reason we went up there was because my brother wanted to buy a guide for Final Fantasy VII:Crisis Core. He said that you can only get some of the missions by talking to people on the game. But, he doesn't want to run around talking to all the NPCs on the game. Unfortunately for him, there was no guide for it in ANY of the video game stores. So, I had to order it for him from Amazon. He gave me the cash for it to pay into the bank. I found the game "The World Ends With You" while I was out there. I've heard it's supposed to be a great game, so I bought it. I'm currently on Chapter 1:Day 4. It's been a great game so far! I also bought "Phantasy Star Universe:Ambition of the Illuminus". I was kind of sceptical about buying it to begin with because I was thinking that it might've just been an expansion pack for the Network Mode of the original Phantasy Star Universe. Luckily, there's a Story Mode on the game too. If it was just an expansion pack, I could've just sold it on Amazon for a little more than I bought it for.

I would love to have the ability to read peoples' thoughts at will. Why? Well, while we were in Plymouth, this guy came up to me and my brother, and asked if any of us had at least 50p so he could get some food. As he was talking, I noticed he was starting to sweat...like he was nervous or scared. I just turned to my brother saying "Do you have any change, because I don't." and walked away a little. My brother looked through his pockets, and gave this guy £2. I would've loved to have stepped away, and read his mind. See what he was really wanting the money for. Was it really for food, or was he trying to scam people out of cash to buy something he really wanted? I'll never know.

I'm not going to be able to sleep today until after 18:00 really. I still have Betterware stuff to deliver to people who ordered some items. I need to get rid of them before tomorrow because Neil comes to collect the cash for the orders. After that, I'm free to get to get some sleep. I'm going to be awake for 31-33 hours today.

I'm experiencing alot of odd things really. Last time I was as tired as I am right this moment, I saw a little girl standing in my bedroom doorway. I constantly get shivers down my spine. Earlier, I heard a dog barking inside the house. But, we don't have a dog! No-one had a TV on loud enough for it to be the source of it, and I don't think there are any animal shows on at the time I heard it. There are also no dogs around outside, yet I swear I heard a bark. It makes me wonder if the spirit girl has a dog with her and that's the bark I heard. I really want to know how to contact this girl so I could find out what she wants. This all probably sounds like crap to people. I don't care really if people do think it's rediculous. I know what I've seen, and heard. If people don't believe in the paranormal, it's their choice. I'm not telling people to believe in it all.

Carnival 2008

This year, the Carnival in town was really disappointing. I was really hoping to see Bodmin's Beast Burning entry. But, they weren't there. I wonder if they're having a rest from that thing this year, or if they've given up on it all because of Sheila's School of Dancing. I think I took like...4 pictures. One of them was of the statue of Nelson. I'll have to upload them later.

I got my feet wet on the way to Nelson's statue. I took the stupid route. There was a dip in the path, and the tide was in, so that dip had water in and out. I tried to run across, but got soaked. After, I noticed the railings running over the dip and thought "Fuck. I could've climbed across that dip using the railing." Now I have to dry my shoes.

I really wanted this Carnival to be great because it'll be the last one I'll really see. I'll be in the US soon. What a disappointment...

Kilminorth Farm for sale...

Mike was right afterall. I guess Mom asked about where Mike saw it, and got the name of the company he listed it with for sale. Gary, when he bought it, only paid £2 million for it. At that time, it was worth it. The main house wasn't ruined with carpets it would've been better without. Now, he's trying to sell it for £3.5 million (or nearest offer). Hopefully, no-one is going to pay that much for it because it's sort of been ruined. I bet he's mainly trying to sell it because he's gotten himself into debt, and wants out of it fast by unloading it onto someone else...I feel sorry for anyone who pays that much for it because you might have alot more to pay off in debts and stuff to do with the place.