A Police Warning (Why am I not surprised?)

I discovered something shocking about Mom's boyfriend today.

After getting a call from Mom this morning, and after my brother and Mom's boyfriend had left to go to the scene (more on that later), I wandered into town. The main reason behind that was to go and collect my epilepsy medication from the pharmacy. However, there was quite a large queue when I arrived, so instead I went to buy myself some food and drink, then walked over to the other side of town to my sister's house.

I asked if she'd heard about the accident yet, and she told me she had since Mom's boyfriend called her about ten minutes before I arrived there; from home apparently. So, I guess Mom, Mom's boyfriend and my brother got home about ten-fifteen minutes after I'd left the house and walked into town. Sure didn't take long.

Anyway, I left my sister's place in order to head home, along with my sister. Although, first I had to go and collect my medication. Luckily, there was no queue at all this time. I just picked it up and left.

On the way up the hill to get home, my sister told me that Mom's boyfriend apparently accused her of eating a dozen eggs on a day when she wasn't even up here. I went on to tell her about what he'd told Mom yesterday. He told Mom that my sister apparently ate these four burgers that were in the kitchen all in one go, saying something like "That would have lasted us two meals, however your daughter ate them all in one go. It was like breakfast to her." He's constantly full of crap.

My sister was telling me that the police had come to her place to talk about Mom's boyfriend. They told her that on his 40th birthday, a young girl showed him a fake ID that said she was 18, then she was actually younger. Not only did he serve an underage kid alcohol, but he also kissed her too. Apparently he was drunk when this happened, so technically it can't be "his fault" since he wouldn't have known she was underage really. But, drunk or not, you're still responsible for your actions. If that kind of shit happens to you, it should tell you that you shouldn't drink at all. He still does though.

The police told my sister that her child should never be left alone with Mom's boyfriend; they also said that my youngest brother shouldn't really be left alone with him either. It's nice to see that the police know he's a complete and utter prick who is a hazard to people, especially kids by the sounds of the police warning to my sister.

Anyway, about Mom's call; she called the house, in tears by the sounds of it. She'd told me that she'd been in a car accident. What had apparently happened was that she'd lost control of her car, hit a hedge, and flipped the car. She wasn't hurt badly or anything, but was really shaken by the whole event. She'd told me to go and tell her boyfriend about it, which I did. My youngest brother came upstairs with me to tell him. Mom's boyfriend called her to see if she was alright, and yelled down the stairs to me that she was ok and only had a cut on her finger. He then accused my youngest brother of lying because he'd apparently told Mom's boyfriend that Mom was in an accident and was hurt really bad. I was with him at the time, and he never said anything like that.

I swear Mom's boyfriend hears what he wants to hear because the amount of crap he accuses us of saying is fucking retarded.

Locals have agreed?

After reading a couple of comments posted in an entry titled Tesco announces its sight is set on Looe, I'm going to assume that locals were asked for their opinions about a Tesco being built in Looe; and that a lot of them, like Mom's boyfriend, thought it was a good idea.

I guess in the end, a lot of people are fine with it and don't mind the entire thing. However, I still think that it's not going to be any good for the schools. With those 100+ houses being built as well as the Tesco, the schools are more than likely going to have to close down in order to be enlarged for the likely increase in students. If that happens, are people really going to be completely fine with the Tesco? Are they really going to want to take their kids to schools in Plymouth, or where-ever else they're going to have to take them?

Sure, it's not a definite that the schools will close, but I'm thinking that it's very likely due to the 100+ houses.

The new road it probably going to make driving around this area hellish too. Not a definite, but likely.

I guess, if it's passed, that we'll just have to wait and see what happens. Nothing else you can really do about it if some people think it's a great idea.

The end of local businesses and schools?

Not too long ago, I heard Mom's boyfriend talking to her about how there's supposedly a Tesco store built in Looe. In fact, this store is going to be built straight across the road from the Community School.

Now, I'm not sure what a lot of the local citizens as well as the local stores think about this, assuming they even know yet, but I sure as hell hope that like Mom they're completely against the building of it all. I'm against it because I can't see that anything good is going to come out of it. If it's built here, I can just see a lot of local businesses going out of business.

I currently know of one person who is completely for the Tesco being built because I heard him arguing with Mom about it. It's really sad that someone who lives around here is completely FOR something like that. Clearly, he doesn't give a flying fuck about the town.

100+ houses are going to be built too due to this Tesco being built, which will make getting around the streets here harder. Also, due to that, it'll mean the two schools here won't be large enough for people. Why? Well, if 100+ families moved here, all with kids etc, then the schools aren't going to be able to cope with the increase of students. That means that the two schools will most likely have to be closed/knocked down (I heard Mom's boyfriend arguing with Mom about that too), in order to be made larger than before.

The question is, if that happens, where are the studen.ts currently going to school at Looe Primary School and Looe Community School going to go to school to? They won't be able to attend those schools for a couple of years while they're being made larger, if that's all going to happen. This is something I hope will get everyone in town turning completely against this proposed plan. Are parents really going to want to drive their kids all over Devon and Cornwall to attend other schools? If not drive, then pay for buses, taxis and/or train fare for their kids to be able to get to those schools?

This whole fucking plan is insane.

According to whatever Mom's boyfriend was reading (I've no idea what site it was reported on), the whole thing has already been "passed". If that's true, were any locals asked for their thoughts on it? If any were, did they seriously agree to have it built? Were they excited about it? I seriously hope it's a fucking joke, or that the locals are going to have a say in it, if they haven't already, and tell them "FUCK OFF!".

It shouldn't really be any surprise that Mom's boyfriend is excited about it all. He seems overjoyed that the schools may be knocked down to be made larger; that they're going to make St. Martins/Sunrising/Barbican a total nightmare to travel on; that this may end up putting 100s of local businesses out of business. The last thing Looe needs is a huge fucking supermarket and 100s more houses. With the location it's being build at, a few warehouses for local businesses may end up being destroyed. The sports field where some people play local football matches or walk their dogs - that'll either be reduced in size, MAJORLY, or completely gone for good to make room for the "new road" and car park for Tesco.

If anyone gives a fuck about the local beauty of the area (even if there isn't too much to do), then you'll attempt to protest against this if it's actually being proposed. Don't let the local schools and more than likely several local businesses be completely destroyed for a fucking Tesco.

Additional: Mom came up with a valid point about this whole Tesco thing earlier. If you want a real good example of how Looe may end up, take a look at Liskeard. Last time I visited, several businesses were closed down. It kind of went from being sort of busy-like on this one street, to becoming a total ghost town.

I can actually picture that happening to Looe. I've already seen Looe look like a ghost town, only that wasn't due to a lot of businesses being closed. What had happened at that time was the death of Princess Diana. I went into town the day after it had happened with my brother, and the town basically looked completely abandoned. It was creepy; extremely silent.

Would locals really like to see that happen?

I'm sure some locals will argue that 100+ more houses will mean more accomodation for us, but what are the chances you'd be able to afford those places? Some may argue that it'll bring in more jobs too, but think about that. If it were to open, loads of local businesses may close, meaning there wouldn't be able MORE jobs, there would be even less jobs.

Major hypocrite

I'm unbelievably depressed right now. I just can't seem to stop myself from crying. I'm sure a lot of people who regularly read this blog will know exactly the reason why. Sean. Mom's major asshole of a boyfriend. One hell of a hypocrite too.

I got an entire lecture from him about how I'm always extremely rude to my Mom, and that I act like a spoiled little kid; it's like...look who's fucking talking! Yesterday, he threw one hell of a fit just because of Mom telling him not to boss my youngest brother around, and then asking him for help with something else. I'm the one acting like a spoiled kid? Fucking grow up yourself...asshole. The bummer is that I just can't bring myself to tell him what a major fucking hypocrite he is about the whole thing. I'm too nice to do that really.

I found out from Richard today that Sean seems to completely contradict himself too. After my seizure last Wednesday, Richard bought me home. I immediately ran upstairs to my room because I didn't want to hear anything from Sean. Richard ended up talking to Sean. Sean ended up calling me a child then too. He was also telling Richard that I shouldn't be allowed to go to the project anymore due to having two seizures there now. He followed that with something like "He needs to stop acting like a child and start making his own decisions."

Erm...hello? What the fuck do you think I've always been doing. I decided not to claim unemployment due to the accident that gave me epilepsy in the first place, yet he keeps trying to get me to claim it, so I have no decision in that if I bothered to fucking listen to him. I decide to go to the project, yet he's trying to decide for me that I shouldn't fucking attend the project. Why say I should make my own decisions if he's constantly trying to make the decisions for me? I don't listen, so his decisions will never happen, but damn.

I'm amazed that he can say Mom has mental problems. He seems to be the one with mental problems. HUGE mental problems. Now it's understandable why no one around here seems to like the bastard. He's got his fat fucking head so far up his fucking ass that he can't seem to see he's the problem with everything! He seems to think he can do no wrong; that he's always right in everything he says. I'm so fucking tired of it all.

I don't even know why I'm letting it affect me so much. I should just be completely ignoring it, and not crying majorly about it. I guess that's just the really sensitive part of me coming out. I'm way too emotionally sensitive...

Let's twist again...like the last fight.

God...it's so annoying and stressful to hear Mom and her asshole of a boyfriend always arguing.

How do the arguments come about?

It's usually because of him. Mom will say something to him like "Just leave him (my youngest brother) alone.", and he'll claim he was just "trying to help" Mom with it all. Then Mom will ask him for help with something and he'll say "But you just told me not to help you! Make up your fucking mind."

Due to this, I just had to listen to one hell of a huge fight, all revolving around Mom's boyfriend twisting everything she was saying, and telling her that she's "losing the plot" or "losing her mind". At one point, he was telling her he should just move out if he's so useless to her. At that point I was thinking "Please do! Do everyone a fucking favor!". Mom would be a hell of a lot better off without him around. All he ever seems to do now is make everyone else look like the bad guys; like he can do nothing wrong, ever.

Lately, Mom's boyfriend has been blaming my computer use for my increase in epileptic seizures; however, it's nothing to do with that. I think the main cause of my seizures is a lot of stress, and he sure does know how to stress the fuck out of people. He's told me a few times now that the doctor I had last time I was in hospital said that I shouldn't be on the computer for more than "15 minutes a day". What a complete load of crap. People who have seizures because of computers have never been told that as far as I can tell. Mostly it's something like "take a 15 minute break every hour", or something similar; not "15 minutes a day". Seriously, what could you achieve on a computer in 15 minutes?

My computer is fairly old, and it takes about 5-10 minutes just to start up properly. That would give me like 5 minutes to do whatever I needed because I had to turn it off again. Someone needs to tell me, has anyone with epilepsy ever been told then can only use a computer for 15 minutes per day?

Christianity under threat in UK

It seems like the worshipping of Christianity in the UK is under threat.

This morning, I was reading through an article on the front of one of the newspapers, and Christianity is under the threat due to two reasons, which I'll list in the actual article I'll post below.

Here is the article (Taken from The Daily Mail).

THE right to practice the Christian faith is under attack after two controversial legal rulings against worshippers.

Yesterday a High Court judge in London banned the custom of saying prayers at council meetings, which has taken place since the era of Queen Elizabeth I.

The decision was described as 'illiberal' by Cabinet Minister Eric Pickles.

In the second case, the Appeal Court ruled that two Christian B&B owners broke the law by refusing to allow a gay couple to stay in a double room.

Today a former Archbishop of Canterbury warns of the increasing marginalisation of Christianity in Britain

In an article for the Daily Mail, Lord Carey says those who practise the faith are being pushed into the background by the country's secular establishment.

Christians are suffering mounting intolerance as the country becomes 'enslaved to multiculturalism, political correctness and so-called equal rights', he said.

Lord Carey urged Prime Minister David Cameron to act to safeguard Britain's 'founding Christian traditions'.

This marks the end of the story on the front page of The Daily Mail. However, it is continued on page 4 of the paper. See below.

A LANDMARK legal ruling banning the tradition of saying prayers at council meetings was denounced last night as an 'assault on Britain's Christian heritage'.

The High Court controversially backed an anti-religious campaign to abolish official acts of worship.

Christians and politicians reacted with dismay after a judge overturned centuries of custom by outlawing a town hall in Devon from putting prayers on the formal agenda.

It prompted concern that it would pave the way for Parliament to abandon prayers before Commons and Lords business, mark the end of hospital and Forces chaplains, and could even lead to the abolition of the Coronation Oath, pledged by Kings and Queens taking the throne.

The ruling means prayers will not be allowed at the start of council meetings across England and Wales, though they may still be said before the official start.

Atheist former councillor Clive Bone started the case against Bideford town council in July 2010, claiming he had been 'disadvantaged and embarrassed' when religious prayers were recited at formal meetings.

Backed by the National Secular Society, he insisted that the 'inappropriate' practice breached the human right to freedom of conscience and discriminated against non-believers, making them feel 'uncomfortable'.

The society claimed council meetings should be 'equally welcoming to everyone in the local community' and should therefore be 'religiously-neutral'.

Mr Justice Ouseley, sitting in London, rejected the human rights and equality challenges. But he ruled that formal prayers at council meetings were unlawful because of a technicality in the Local Government Act 1972.

He said local authorities had no power to 'say prayers or to have any period of quiet reflection as part of the business of the council'. Acknowledging the widespread importance of the case, Mr Justice Ouseley gave Bideford council permission to appeal.

Communities Secretary Eric Pickles described the ruling as 'very illiberal'.

He said: 'The ruling is surprising and disappointing. Christianity plays an important part of the culture, heritage and fabric of our nation.'

He vowed to override the High Court ruling by bringing in the Government's Localism Act, which would give councils the power to hold prayers at the start of meetings, as early as next Friday.

Simon Calvert, of the Christian Institute, said: 'Prayers have been a part of council meetings for centuries, and mary people, either for religious reasons or cultural reasons, see them as a positive part of our national life.

'It's a shame the courts have taken sides with those whose goal is to undermine our Christian heritage. It is high time Parliament put a stop to this assault upon our national heritage.'

Harry Greenway, a former Tory MP and ex-chairman of the National Prayer Breakfast, said: 'If people do not want to attend prayers of this nature, they can stay away instead of meddling and busybodying with other people's beliefs.

'Non-believers are not harrassed in this way by believers. Why cannot the non-believers show the same kind of tolerance?' Mr Bone, who left Bideford council because of its 'refusal to adjust' its prayers policy, said: 'I'm delighted. I'm not surprised, I expected to win.

'This has got nothing to do with intolerance towards religion. Religious freedom is an absolute right and so is freedom from religion an absolute right, in my view.'

Keith Porteous Wood of the National Secular Society said: 'We're very pleased with the judgement.'

Officials at Parliament said the 1689 Bill of Rights meant the Commons and Lords decided their own business, so a legal challenge would fail.

So, is this the end of Christianity in Britain? Who knows. I'm not a religious person myself, so it wouldn't affect me in any way, but it is bad for those people who do practice Christianity. Choosing sides in the matter would be difficult. Me? I'm neutral about the whole thing.

I'm not gonna side with the Christians, or those who ruled against Christianity. They can both argue and have valid points for one thing or the other. Shouldn't it be down to personal choice though, and not an outright ban?

Smart Arse Fails Exam

I got quite a laugh out of this one article in the UK paper "Sunday Sport". My brother came upstairs with the paper and handed me the paper. He told me I should read the article titled "Smart Arse Gets 0% In Exam Paper". The answers were actually really clever, and correct too really, in a smart arse way that is.

Here are the questions and answers.

In which battle did Napoleon die?
His last battle.
Where was the Declaration of Independence signed?
Bottom of the page.
River Ravi flows in which State?
Liquid.
What is the main reason for divorce?
Marriage.
What is the main reason for failure?
Exams.
What can you never eat for breakfast?
Lunch and dinner.
What looks like half an apple?
The other half.
If you throw a red stone into the blue sea, what occurs?
It gets wet.
How can a man go eight days without sleep?
He sleeps at night.
How can you lift an elephant with one hand?
You will never find an elephant that has only one hand.
If you had three apples and four oranges in one hand and three oranges and four apples in the other hand, what would you have?
Very large hands.
If it took eight men 10 hours to build a wall, how long would it take four men to build it?
No time at all, the wall is already built.
How can you drop a raw egg onto a concrete floor without cracking it?
Concrete floors are very hard to crack.

I fucked up...

I'm made to feel more and more worthless everyday.

Currently, I'm feeling real bad for fucking up badly at the project on Monday. The bad thing is, I can't recall a lot of it. However, I did get an e-mail from Richard giving me feedback on what happened. How much of it can I recall? Let's see.

Hi Andrew

Hope you're well.

I need to feedback some thoughts on yesterday. If you're going to work with us you will need to be more proactive. Yesterday feels like a total waste of time and worse has left me with additional jobs to do. I know Jason was involved but he's the young person here. And so:
1. I can tell you exactly what you had for lunch and where you ate it! You have made no attempt to tidy it away! Perhaps taking it to the bin in the tool shed would have been good but if not could you not have found a bag to put it in?
2. I specifically asked you to undertake 2 jobs in a certain way. The steps and the clippings. Neither was completed and I am in fact left with wheelbarrows in the way. But now I will also have to sort out the pallets and build the steps myself. Very frustrating. By the way the spades were left out along with the pick.
3. You should by now have an idea of some of the jobs that are outstanding. One of the big ones is to move the hedging. If you had moved one plant that would have shown me that you're getting it. Looking around and seeing what needs done is key.
4. In terms of looking around, I did a sort out of the shed and I come back to it being a mess! Now I have to sort again.

This is not meant as a put down more as a this is what an employer might be looking for.

See you soon.

Kind regards

It's at times like this when it feels like maybe Sean is right. Maybe I am a worthless, useless piece of shit.

I do recall leaving some rubbish there, but I think it was only two items. Sadly, I'm not too sure on that. I think what I left was an empty packet of Smoky Bacon potato chips, and an empty packet of Chicken Meat. However, I'm not 100% sure on that. There could be a lot more.

I know I fucked up bad with the pallet steps, and I wish I could fix that, however it sounds like I'm not going to get the chance to do that as Richard seems to be saying that he's fixed it. I did get some of the wood chippings moved from the entrance to the enclosure where the chickens and ducks are kept, but I'll admit it wasn't a whole lot. I probably should've worked out in the rain a lot more instead of taking shelter.

The shed being a mess...that's something I really can't recall at all. I have no idea what he's talking about with that part of the e-mail.

I would e-mail him back apologising and letting him know that I was feeling dizzy quite a bit on Monday, but the problem with that is that any way I word it, it just sounds like I'm making excuses. Even saying it in this blog entry is making it feel like I'm making excuses.

Sadly though, I've not been getting a lot of sleep lately. I didn't get much sleep at all Sunday night, which I think is probably the reason why I kept having moments where I was feeling dizzy. Forced me to have to stop working a bunch of times because I didn't want to collapse and end up having another seizure.

Sean's constant rants about me are really eating away at me, making it hard to sleep. I just constantly want to scream; constantly want to tell him to fuck off; constantly just want to fucking punch him HARD!

All I can really do about the project is work harder the next time I return to it, regardless of how I'm feeling. I don't like being made to feel like I'm a worthless piece of shit.

What can I say to Richard? I can only really say that I'm truly sorry for everything. Sorry I messed up bad. Hopefully, you can forgive me. If not, well...I'll understand.