Ned is dead, or is he?

I got into Lostwithiel and had to meet Richard and the others outside the Co-Op. After climbing into the van, we headed to the old field. Hanna was reading some pretty awful poetry from a book along the way. At least, I think she was reading it from a book.

Not too long after, jokes were being made about a chicken which had been named Ned by Hanna and her friend. So, Richard was constantly joking about how we would kill it, making up jokes and poems. I can't recall any of the poems now, but it was pretty funny at the time. The girls weren't too happy about hearing how Ned would die. But since the chicken was only named Ned about an hour before I showed up, I do not know why they were panicking so much about it. Besides, none of us would kill any of the animals. Someone else might, but none of us would do it.

Anyway, we got to the old field and immediately had to load up the van with a lot of plywood and other bits. The back of the van eventually ended up crowded with things, so we had to stop loading more things into the van. Why? Because Jack and I had to sit in the back as well. If anything else was loaded, we wouldn't be able to climb into the van and would be stuck out at the old field.

We got back to the woodlands with all the wood, and that's when I saw a flooring frame all laid out in the area where the chickens used to be kept. When was that started? I'd only attended the project twice last week: Monday and Wednesday. Tuesday, I'd missed the train. I'd gotten on the train and bought a return ticket to Lostwithiel on Friday. But, after getting to Liskeard, I turned around and headed back home to see the doctor. I do not know what happened, but my eye hurt greatly. So, between last Monday and today, they'd worked on building a floor frame for a new shed.

The wood that Richard had ordered eventually arrived at the woodlands, and we had to unload it all. This turned out to be quite a laugh. We had three girls helping us out, and the whole time, when they were carrying the wood, they were swinging it around crazily, almost taking each other's heads off with the wood. Jack and I decided to remain clear of the girls when they were carrying wood because it's pretty dangerous to get close to them. I ended up being called a showoff by Hanna for carrying bits of wood on my shoulder and only holding it in one hand. I wasn't trying to show off, though. It's just how I ended up carrying the wood.

When Richard talked about the new shed, he told us it must be completed by the end of August for the youths. Can we make it? Hopefully, we can. We have close to a month to sort it, but it does mean we have to work hard with no real fooling around.

My day ended with walking into town to watch the Floral Dance (part of Looe's Carnival Week), which got really boring. We must've been standing outside for a good hour and 45 minutes just waiting for it to start. Usually, it starts at around 19:00. Today, though, it didn't start until around 19:40. At one point, I was so bored that I yelled, "WHEN ARE YOU STARTING!?" I didn't get a reply to that. It ended up being a complete waste of time waiting around. The music was fucking horrible! The two bands had different timing, so the music sounded terrible. I should've stayed home and not wasted my time on it. Then again, Mom collected Sean, leaving him at home. So, either way, something bad would've happened. Either the boring wait and awful music or Sean's whining and bitching about everything. The former was probably a better choice in the end.

Games and Pranks

I never received any word from Richard yesterday after completely missing out on the project. It makes me wonder if I've annoyed him in some way by not showing up to the project yesterday due to my left eye. I honestly hope I haven't angered him. I know I annoyed one person with it, and that was Mom. She told me that having conjunctivitis was no reason to miss the project. But, I wouldn't have been any use if I did turn up as I'd have spent most of the day just trying to get my eye to stop hurting. Monday will be when I find out if Richard is angry with me. Here's to hoping he isn't.

I began playing Shadow of the Colossus yesterday (the PlayStation 2 version) because I had nothing else to do. The game has been sitting unopened for a while now, and I was really curious about it, so I opened it and placed it in my PS2. The game is amazing. The music is beautiful! Just climbing up the colossal monsters with that tune playing makes you feel like you're achieving something epic in scale. It's the kind of music I'd love to have playing in the background while building out at the youth project. Even moving a piece of light wood would make you feel like you're achieving something amazing, even though it's not that much of an epic thing.

If you've not played the game and therefore don't know the music I'm talking about, check out this video of the battle with Valus. Wouldn't you love to have that playing while you're working, to feel like everything you do is HUGE!?

Another game I began playing was a survival horror game called Obscure. That's a weird game. It's all set inside a school. The school is not one you'd want to be trapped inside of as one of the school staff, I think it was the principal, is experimenting on the unlucky students who get trapped inside the school after school is over for the day. Your characters become a part of this twisted experiment, and you must locate a cure before you become a monster yourself.

I'd never even heard of Obscure before seeing it in a YouTube video about the top...10 or 20 horror games. I forget if it was a Top 10 or a Top 20 list. So because of that, I can't link to the video. But, if you're interested in seeing the game, you can go onto YouTube and search for it.

I checked out a few comical videos on YouTube today, too, because my sister mentioned that one of the invisible rope pranks was featured on some TV show recently. I decided to look for that video again. I looked at some videos in the "related videos" part of the screen. Check out the videos below if you're interested.

Invisible Rope Prank.
Funny Video - Invisible Rope Prank.
Funny Pranks - Invisible Rope Prank II.
Drive-Thru Pranks.

How the hell did that happen!?

My day has now been completely ruined, and I wasted money on stuff I don't need, like the return train ticket to Lostwithiel.

After getting into Looe and buying myself food for the youth project today, my left eye started hurting. After getting on the train, my left eye started to hurt even more. I risked going to Liskeard, hoping that by some dumb luck, it would stop hurting and that I could proceed to Lostwithiel. But it continued to hurt badly.

I texted Richard saying:

Ok. I'm at Liskeard now, however I think I'm going to return home again as my left eye is hurting bad. I'm not even sure why. Think I'll return to Looe and see if I can see the doctor right away. Hopefully, they can fix it and I can come in later. Sorry.

I managed to see the doctor shortly after arriving home and explained it to him. He took a look and told me I had conjunctivitis, then prescribed some eye drops and told me to use them twice a day and that that would probably last about three days. All I could think to myself at the time was, "Three days of this pain? Wonderful. Just what I needed to hear...".

I text Richard again while in the pharmacy collecting my epilepsy pill and these eye drops. I wrote:

Turns out I have conjunctivitus or something. Apparently gonna have to deal with it for 3-4 days. So, won't be in today as I'll be no help since I'll be no help. I'm so sorry about this. Is there any possible website work I could do so I'm not completely useless today?

Now, I just realised after reading that text that I wrote "as I'll be no help since I'll be no help." Why exactly did I start that twice? I have no idea!

I haven't received a call or a text from Richard. I think that's for one of two reasons. Either the O2 signal is once again dead in Lostwithiel, or he's annoyed with me for not turning up. I would mostly bet on the first, but you never know. He could be angry with me for not turning up. Would being in a lot of pain make someone angry that you never showed up?

I'm seriously hoping that it's just the signal has gone down again.

Your troubles have a first name - It's "S-E-A-N"...

I'm not doing too well today.

After getting up to deliver papers, Mom asked me what I was doing at Grandfather's place yesterday. I told her that we were just talking. She got suspicious about that and asked if I was talking about Sean. I figured there was no point in lying about it because she'd find out from Grandfather anyway if she went and visited him, so I told her I only mentioned that he asked why I was visiting, and I told him that it was because Sean was here. She then seemed rather annoyed with me about it.

I didn't think mentioning Sean to him would get Mom in trouble or anything. Still, she thinks mentioning Sean to my Grandfather will get her in trouble. The question is, if she's so worried about getting in trouble with Grandfather, why does she bother bringing Sean here at all? She should know by now that Grandfather will find out one way or another. It doesn't matter if I mention it or not. Someone who knows her and knows Grandfather is going to say something.

Not too long ago, Mom came upstairs and said my name. I sighed and asked, "What?" then she snapped, saying, "Why do I even bother talking to you!?". I guess she must have heard the sigh. Now, the reason I sighed is because I thought she was just going to demand something like not telling ANYONE about that fucking asshole she's dating. It doesn't matter how much she tells me not to say anything about him to Grandfather and all, I'll still do it.

I'm not telling family or her friends this stuff just because I want to see her in trouble. The main reason is that...who else do I have to talk to about it all? I can talk to people online about it, but in the end, who will care online? No one can help me out. No matter how much I mention those things to people, no one really knows the guy, my mother, or my family. I can't talk to Mom about any of the things I find out because I know she won't believe any of the stuff. She'll tell me it's all lies, and Sean is nothing like that. Without proof, it's my word against his. That's exactly what Mom's friend, Mary, told me yesterday.

Mom will believe Sean's word over anything I say. She's completely blind to how much of a complete scumbag the guy is.

The only reason anyone yells at Mom is because we all care about her, and being around Sean, all she's doing is setting herself up for a HUGE fall. Once I move out, I'm sure Sean will move back into the house. There are a couple of reasons I believe that.

Firstly, Mom seems fixed on the idea of me moving out. She'll tell me it's nothing to do with that asshole, just that she thinks it'll be better for me. Travelling to the youth project on the train would be unnecessary. Sure, it'll be good not to have to do that, but I don't believe that's why she wants me out.

Secondly, Sean seems fixed on the idea of me moving out. Whenever he talks to me about that crap, all he seems to hear is, "I'm not moving out." or something because he'll go bitching to Mom about how I'm never going to move out.

Why would both of them seem obsessed with the idea of me moving out if the plan isn't to get rid of me so he can move back in without the worries of all the family knowing?

I have no idea what to do anymore. All I seem to be doing to Mom is upsetting her, but there's only one reason for that, a reason SHE can fix: Sean. All she needs to do is tell him to fuck off, and that'll be it. No more getting into trouble with family and friends. No more sighs and annoyed tones of voice from myself and others. The cause of all of her problems is HIM! Sadly, she doesn't see that and instead keeps him around...

"...chicken pushed me."

Today was one of the most entertaining days I've had in a while. The reason? Two girls. One is Richard's niece, who was a great laugh, and the other is her friend. They're staying with Richard for six weeks. I wish I charged up the battery on my camcorder to record some of the things they were saying and doing. That's something I'm going to have to do next week.

After being told about PaperSailship's channel, a friend suggested that I should make my own channel. I told her I already had one, but nothing was on it except two videos of Lucy Lawless with a squirrel. She then said that I should make some videos of my own. After a little while of talking about it, I said that I'd have to charge up my camcorder and show the woodlands where we're currently setting up the project. She liked that idea. It's a shame I didn't do it today because I'm sure people would have gotten a great laugh from Richard's niece and her friend.

One of the funniest moments with the girls was when Richard's niece fell down one of the muddy banks after the two had climbed up to the top of the woodlands. However, Richard, Erik and I weren't at the woodlands when this occurred. We were just told about it by the girls. Apparently, the chickens had followed the girls up, and they tried to coax the chickens back down again when she slipped. Richard's niece was then constantly claiming that the chicken had pushed her and that it was laughing at her. Half of the stuff she was claiming happened was pretty damn funny, and I just wish I'd had video evidence of it all.

I seriously hope that a lot of funny moments with the girls happen over the next few weeks because it would be great fun to record a lot of it and upload it to YouTube. I'm not sure if either of the girls will be too happy with me recording some of these humorous moments if/when they happen.

What I'm wondering now is, what will those girls be thinking after the six weeks are over? Will they be glad to be away from it all, or will they miss all of the fun moments?

If every day out there were as humorous as today with the girls, it would be horrible when they have to leave for home. No more hilarious claims of chickens conspiring to hurt her and all of that kind of stuff.

I have some crazy friends

Today, I decided to check out the YouTube account of one of my Yahoo! friends. Her ID on YouTube? It's PaperSailship.

Now, I know that a few of her videos may seem somewhat childish, but I think she's fantastic in that silly attitude kind of way. In Yahoo! chatrooms, she can act a little crazy, but that makes her loveable to a lot of people. She will sometimes preach about the Nomz, which I guess you could say is like a "God".

A couple of videos were being talked about in the chatroom, which were sadly set to private at the time. When I noticed that she was back online again, I asked her to make those videos public again and that she shouldn't be ashamed of the silliness of the videos. They're great for a laugh if you're the kind of person who doesn't mind silliness. If you're a more serious kind of person, then her messing around in the videos may seem very childish to you.

Here are a couple of her videos that made me laugh.

Ghosts. It may be possible that this video came to be after I mentioned to her that I'd seen ghosts in my house and even showed her a picture of one. However, I don't know if that was the reason for it. After all, she made the video about three weeks ago, and I can't remember if I told her about the ghosts before that or whether it was only a week or so ago. Either way, what happens is pretty funny when her brother acts like a ghost. Take a look and see for yourself!
dog. The dog in this video has the kind of look on its face that just says, "What the fuck are you talking about?" It's rather amusing to see.
Waffle Radio three point 0. Have you ever heard of an Oprah singer? You will have after seeing THIS video!
songzin. A beautiful song for Chris Hansen. I'm sure the guy must be proud to have such a lovely song about him!
Nitty. This video is aimed at another person I know from the Yahoo! chatrooms. Paper and her friend get extremely giggly in this video. It's cute, and amusing

Now, the question is, how old would you think that PaperSailship is? From the sound of her voice, I'm sure that no one will accurately guess her age (Unless someone reading this already knows her)

Well, if you check out any of her videos, I hope you enjoy them and get a little bit of a laugh out of them.

Also, today, I had to make an appointment to see the doctor again. Like last Thursday, I ironically got to see the same doctor who refused to accept my request today. What I had to get from him last week was a Medical Certificate to say that I do have epilepsy. Still, he insisted that if they needed something like that to sort out my benefits, they'd request one themselves. Earlier this week, I received a letter from them telling me I should keep sending in medical certificates until I finish some work evaluation. I showed him that letter today, and he believed me then and filled out the medical certificate for me.

I wonder why he didn't believe me last week when I told him.

"I'm gonna be a stripper!"

I've been worried after a conversation about two days ago with an old friend.

On Monday evening (at least...I think it was Monday), I signed onto Yahoo! Messenger, and she messaged me. Not too long after messaging me, she stated that she was going to be a stripper. I'm not sure if it was a joke, but for some reason, I think she was being serious about it, which worries me. A lot of things can happen to a stripper, and I don't want any of those things to happen to her. Sadly, there's not much I can do if she's serious about it. I can't stop her. I don't think I'll see her online much if she is serious. She'll end up as one of those friends who I rarely ever see.

I told Richard on Monday when I went to the youth project about what I'd heard about Sean on Saturday. I don't think he was surprised at all, but then again, who would be? I'm sure I've stated enough information about him here and in other places that a lot of people will know by now that the guy is a no-good scumbag. I almost feel sorry for this Christine woman because she has NO idea what the fuck she's getting herself into by dating that asshole. Hopefully, she'll be wiser than my mom and get the fuck away as soon as possible.

"So, how's Christine?"

Once again, I learn something new about Sean. Even worse, I get home to find that Mom isn't here. She left to see that asshole.

Apparently, Sean's gone and started dating a 56-year-old named Christine. When someone asked him, "Aren't you dating a woman named Lynne?" he replied, "No. I'm just a lodger. I just rent a room from her." It just goes to further prove that the guy is a colossal scumbag. I told the person who told me this: "Next time I see him, I'll have to ask "So, how is Christine?". If I did that, what would his reaction be? Knowing the guy, I'm sure he'll say, "Who? I don't know any Christine."

I could also ask him, "So, where's the rent money?" Once again, I'm sure the reply would be, "What are you talking about?"

I'm sure some people would say, "But you're just being told a lie." However, I'd believe that lie from someone I know rather than accept something Sean says. I don't think it's a lie at all, though. He's that much of a scumbag. Mom is just letting herself in for a HUGE disappointment. She'd better wise up to the fact before letting him move back in, else she's going to lose her family, and when Mom wakes up to the fact he's a lying scumbag, she'll have nothing left.

A weird week

It's been a weird week this week.

Erik has joined us again on the project. Richard and I had worked with him before on a work experience week he'd had at school. Recently, he was removed from school because of a lot of problems and has joined us again. Hopefully, he will be helping us out quite a bit now. It'll be great to have another pair of hands on board.

His first day back with us wasn't the greatest. He rejoined us on Wednesday, the day Richard talked about getting the lads started on a general gardening/maintenance/dog walking/house sitting, etc.: a business he'd planned to get them started on. Because of this, there wasn't much for Erik and me to do other than listen in on it. When the guys took a break, Richard started discussing a business idea with Erik and me. After hearing all that stuff, he later asked if we think we could run a business for ourselves. At this moment, the answer would be no. Neither Erik nor I are that good at conversing with people. I'm sure that could change, but currently, the answer would be a no.

Today was a little more interesting for Erik because we got to do some work. Firstly, we had to sort out a Facebook-like icon on Rob Rowett's website. That was completed in no time.

The second task was to work on a website called Gucu. Erik asked what we should do with the site, and I mentioned that Richard said we should play around with it a little. This is where we got a little silly. Erik's first idea was to add Teletubbies to the website. The logo was changed to a HUGE picture of 2 Pokemon mixed into one. I can't recall the combination of the Pokemon, though. He then made the background out of a My Little Pony character. Finally, we created a webpage and embedded a YouTube video of a song with He-Man in it. The video was called He Man sings 4 Non Blondes (Original). Richard returned not too long after that, and we were laughing hard. Richard didn't see what we'd done to the site because we immediately had to remove all the stupid things we'd done, and we were told not to mess around with websites like that.

I'd screwed around with a website before when I had to add things to it, but I know why he got a little angry about that one because it was for a company. The Gucu website is apparently one of Richard's sites, though, so I thought it would be ok to mess around a little. But that wasn't ok at all. I'll have to remember that for next time. No screwing around with any websites.

I didn't have such a great day yesterday. A friend I hadn't seen since February had returned to chat, yet I couldn't remember anything about her. I felt fucking horrible when I mentioned it, and I think she probably hates me a little now for that. The sad thing is, I didn't forget her on purpose. I've been running into a memory problem a lot lately; sadly, she's one of the memories that has completely gone. I wouldn't be surprised if she completely hates me now for forgetting her. What can I do though? I can't go back in time and note everything down so I'd remember...sadly.

I hope that she'll forgive me. It's not like I wanted to forget her. I wish I'd never had to have gone to that DMT place. If it weren't for that place, I might not have developed epilepsy, and I wouldn't have a memory problem, either! But then again, if I hadn't had these problems, would I have met Richard and been involved in this youth project? How much different would things be if that crash never happened? Would they be better or worse than what I have now?

Jammed again

Once again, the house's front door has gotten jammed. It's annoying because it was only repaired on Monday. Five days later, it's busted again. We're going to be exiting via the backdoor of the house for a while again.

My brother and my uncle repaired the door on Monday, and I can see my uncle becoming very annoyed that it's already busted again; that is if he comes to fix it again. It's going to be a colossal hassle again.

The Nintendo DS game that I ordered from Amazon UK finally arrived today. It sure took the seller a long time to put it in the mail. I ordered the game on the 23rd of June, and it was only posted yesterday. I wonder what the hell took them so long to send it. Usually, it's sent within 2-3 days if you choose the Super Saver delivery option, not a couple of weeks. The game is a puzzle game called Chronicles of Mystery: Curse of the Ancient Temple.

After reading about the game on Wikipedia, I decided to go to YouTube to watch some videos of the game. I came across the entry for Chronicles of Mystery: The Scorpio Ritual, which is on the PC. The Scorpio Ritual and Curse of the Ancient Temple seem to be the same game, but the PC version looks much better; it's more like a point-and-click game than a puzzle game. Sadly, my computer probably wouldn't run the game. I'd love to try out the PC version. I'll have to settle for watching a YouTube walkthrough of it for now until I can finally get myself a new computer.

Will I get anywhere with this?

It was a rather short day out at The Street Outreach Project today.

I arrived at the woodlands to find that Richard had to go to the doctor, so I was left alone to do one of two jobs. I could either hammer some nails out of a piece of wood or nail up a piece of plywood. I opted for getting the nails out (or at least attempting to).

I managed to get out a few before Richard returned. Once he'd returned, he told me he couldn't do any more work today because he'd apparently busted his shoulder. So, instead, we went to do some computer work. This only lasted a short time, too. After being there for about 45 minutes, Richard told me he had to head home because he was feeling ill and dizzy. I left to catch the next train home.

I got home, and luckily, I didn't see Sean there, so I immediately got on the phone to try and claim this Employment and Support Benefit. Hopefully, I haven't screwed myself over with that because if I can get this, then I can possibly also get housing benefit, meaning that I could move to Lostwithiel and be close to the project. That would be a HUGE benefit to me. No more hour-long train journeys, and no more Sean! That'll be a dream come true!

I watched the school video once again today and was looking out for Adam because the first time watching it; I'd completely missed seeing him. I saw him in the video today, though. It was sad to see him in the video, knowing he's no longer around.

I've got to contact Richard tomorrow and see how he's feeling. I had a horrible thought not too long after getting home because he was telling me he was feeling dizzy. He had to drive himself home, and I'm curious if he made it back ok. I'm sure he has, but I must find out tomorrow. I'd have done it today, but since he's feeling unwell, it's best to let him rest. He could be sleeping, and I'd hate to wake him. So, that's something I've got to remember to do tomorrow.

Memories

It's been a nice day today.

I arrived at the project today to find that the weather wouldn't be as miserable as expected. Richard had to run off to sort something out, and I was left alone in the woodland for about an hour or so. I attempted to clear as much of this one area of the woodland as possible. After my arm started hurting, I walked down to the Royal Talbot to meet up with Richard.

I didn't do any more work after that.

I returned home to find a fair was being held at the old community school, so I decided to check it out. Disappointingly, there was nothing much there. I wondered how much the school had changed, so I asked if I could walk around the school and see what had changed. That was a bit of fun.

I discovered that an old video of myself and some classmates had been posted on Facebook. It was recorded in 1993 for some pen pals we had at the time who lived in Wales. It's incredible to see this video again.

If interested, view the video here.