I Forgot to Mention Insomnia

I saw a doctor today about the seizure I had on Sunday. I'd described, as best as I could, what I saw during the seizure. For the entire thing, I had this severe feeling of deja vu. I felt like I'd experienced that moment way too many times before. Seriously, it began with me reading through an old blog, and I was correcting old entries of it on Grammarly.

In one entry, I came across a video recorded back when I was in primary school. The video showed our Welsh penpals what our town was like. After this video, it automatically switched to a video about video games in the 90s. I swear I'd seen the channel name before. While watching that, I was scratching at my neck. I felt this horrible sense that I'd already experienced that moment 100s of times. But why? How did I live that moment before? Everything around me, from my body movements to things I saw and heard, felt like something I'd experienced before. Had I dreamed of the moment in the past? What happened to me?

I have the feeling I was having an epileptic seizure, only I was aware of everything, unlike previous seizures. And the deja vu feeling caused by that seizure was terrifying. I was saying things like, "If I walked down to that corner and jumped off of it, someone would laugh", or "If I killed myself, I'd find myself waking up back in 2003." I mentioned 2003 many times in this deja vu seizure, but why? What's so special about 2003? What happened back in 2003 that made me so fixed on that year?

The doctor didn't know what to say about it. He just told me, my girlfriend, and my Mom that it was so weird that he couldn't explain it. He just said he'd refer it to the epilepsy specialists I've seen in the past. He claims that they'd probably call me about it within two weeks.

I called my Dad at about 8 pm to tell him what happened at the appointment. He asked me if I'd talked to the doctor about my trouble sleeping recently. I thought, "Fuck. I completely forgot to ask him about that." If the epilepsy specialists call back within two weeks, I'll have to ask if they have any suggestions about how to sort that out. For now, I'll hope that these sleep aid pills that I've taken over the past two days are helping.

Quora: Is there life elsewhere in the universe?

I came across an interesting post on Quora today. The question was:

If our Galaxy "The Milky Way" has over 400 billion stars, and roughly 40 billion of these stars are similar to our sun and roughly 4 billion of these sun-like stars have Earth sized planets in their habitable zones; where is all the life?

The guy who was answering had this as an answer:

Good question. Very good question.

What do you estimate the odds were for life forming on our planet?

If we assume that there are 400 billion stars, (the current estimate is between 100 billion and 400 billion,) and the chances of life forming were one in a million, then only 400,000 stars in our galaxy should have life on one of its planets. But what if the odds were one in a billion?? What if the odds were one in 400 billion, or only one per galaxy???

It really depends on the odds, doesn't it?

Plus, the radio signals we have been sending out into space probably dispersed to almost zero strength at about a light year, which means they haven't even reached the nearest star. So if there were 4000 other Earth-like planets, how would we know? We can't even see them, we can only detect their presence with other means. We certainly would hear their radio signals.

So maybe the galaxy is full of life, and we just can't see it or detect it. Or maybe it's not full of life, and maybe the odds of life happening in this galaxy are around one in 400 billion.

OP: "If our Galaxy "The Milky Way" has over 400 billion stars, and roughly 40 billion of these stars are similar to our sun and roughly 4 billion of these sun-like stars have Earth sized planets in their habitable zones; where is all the life?"

I decided to comment on his answer. He seemed to like my comment. We even have a little bit of a conversation via the comments. Here's my comment:

So true. For all we know, all those planets could have life on them, but that life is just the animals like lions, deer etc. It took a while for humans to evolve here, and what were the chances of that happening? Then again, what if there is human-like life elsewhere? They could be just like us, wondering if there's life out there because they haven't been able to contact any "intelligent life" either. There may not be any of the intelligent alien-like life that we see in the movies and TV shows that can easily travel through space in UFOs. We just have no idea.

But what if the intelligent alien-like life we see in movies and TV shows did exist, but that was back in the dinosaur times here, and just went extinct before we created any kind of technology? Maybe they easily travelled to Earth, but all they saw were the dinosaurs, not humans. This question just leads to a lot of "What if…" questions. Who knows if it's all on a repeat too? Maybe we'll create those UFOs one day and go to a planet full of life, but that life is like the dinosaurs we had here. That planet eventually evolves human-like life; they create technology; they eventually travel here, but the humans here are now extinct. What if it just repeats like that over and over? No "intelligent life" discovers another because that intelligent life has gone extinct by the time they develop the correct technology. We just never know.

It's interesting to think about. What if we end up eventually evolving into the alien-like life we see in movies, TV shows, or even books? Which ones would we be? The friendly E.T. kind, or the War of the Worlds kind that wants to wipe out all life? What if stories like War of the Worlds actually happen, but this generation doesn't know because it's not going to happening until 2000 years from now? What if a planet has human-like life, but they're living the Dungeons and Dragons sort of life? So many what ifs…

He replies with a simple: Beautiful comment. Thank you. 🥰

I replied with yet another long comment. I said:

Thanks. I've thought a bunch of what if questions for years now. I tried to kill myself twice back in 2014 after an epileptic seizure. My mind went loopy after the seizure and I saw the world ending around me. This made me depressed, and I tried to drown myself in the local river, but the cold water snapped me out of it. I ended up in that illusion again after an hour or so and threw myself off a 2-story high wall. I broke my ankle and couldn't walk for quite a while.

While I was in that situation, I was thinking things like "What if I succeeded in killing myself twice on that day, but I've awoken in the form of myself on a parallel Earth?" Is it possible we can die, but we don't realise it because we just awaken as a version of ourselves on a parallel Earth? How many possible parallel universes now exist out there have a dead version of me, but I don't know about it because I'm now a version of myself that didn't die? If it's possible, then is it possible I've died several times by now and just don't know because I'm not that version of me anymore?

What if that's possible? Could this be the answer for things like the Mandela Effect? What if we died on a parallel Earth where the now non-existent movie does exist? We have a memory of it, but we're now a version of ourselves on a parallel Earth where it doesn't exist anymore? Is it possible? Who knows.

He disagreed with me on the multiverse/parallel universe thing. No problem with that. People have their own opinions. His reply:

Well, no, I don't think dimensional travel is possible. The Mandela effect is just because humans are forgetful and imaginative.

I'm sorry to hear about your experience. I hope you're doing better now.

I ended up replying to his comment by talking about entries on my blog. I was mainly referring to the post called Hurricane Chloe. I replied:

I know we're forgetful. I made a blog entry in 2014 about what I saw during that illusion. I read it yesterday and thought "Wow. I really was out of my mind at the time." I posted that I was thinking about Egyptians worshipping cats, that I saw a cat giving me a look like he wanted to tear me apart etc. But I don't remember any of that now. If I never noted it down in 2014, I wouldn't know what I saw in that illusion.

There are names of old friends in other blog posts, but my mind doesn't remember some of them. I remember Samie and Chloe, but who are Mandi and Tizzy that I spoke about in these blog entries? I'm lost on some of my old blog posts. I must have known them at one point, but they're lost to me now and I haven't spoken to any of them for years now. Samie vanished from the Net (to me anyway) years ago. Chloe was supposedly angry at me about something, but I have no idea why. It's not explained too well in my blog. I wish I had spoken about why Chloe was mad at me; I want to know what I did. Too late now.

I would love to know some things about that entry. Who are Mandi and Tizzy? I have memories of Samie and Chloe but no memory of Mandi and Tizzy. Another thing I'm curious about is about Chloe. In my last entry about her, she was extremely angry with both Samie and me. But why? I wish I had noted it down somewhere. It could be in a much older blog entry, one I haven't come across yet. Then again, what if there's nothing about it anywhere?

Are you serious!?

I was watching a WatchMojo video on YouTube, and I just ended up thinking, "WTF!?". Why? Well, it was due to one of the entries on the list. The video is called Top 10 Hated Disney Animated Shows; that entry is Gravity Falls. Seriously? How is one of the greatest cartoons of modern days one of the most "hated Disney shows"? I know I'm not the only one who is annoyed because there are so many comments that are angry about the inclusion of Gravity Falls.

What do readers of this think about Gravity Falls?

I see that the video has 1000s more hates than likes, and that's because of Gravity Falls being on the list.

Ok. The video is almost four years old now, but I only just realized when it was made. Good job pissing off 1000s of people, WatchMojo.

Making your mother proud?

I'm sure by now that many of you have heard of the 9-year-old who calls herself "Lil Tay". I saw this morning, on an SSSniperWolf video, that this "badass" 9-year-old isn't as badass as she tries to make herself out to be. One of the videos showed her almost crying. That video can be viewed here. I'm confused by this video, though. She says that she's trying to spread "positivity" and is just trying to make her "mother proud". How is swearing, saying the N-word, and bragging that you're rich (even though you aren't) going to make your mother proud? You'd think a parent would be proud if you were getting good grades in school or doing chores and such. You'd have to be an inferior parent if swearing, saying the N-word countless times, bragging about being rich, and offending every person struggling to live day to day is making you proud. Geez. Also, how does any of this stuff spread positivity?

In the end, all you're going to achieve is getting your ass kicked by someone who gets majorly offended by what you're saying. Would your parents be proud if you ended up in a hospital, all battered and bruised, possibly on the edge of death? Hell no. They're going to be disappointed and extremely upset. I'll never understand why people think acting like a "badass" is worth it. Way too many kids and teens are doing it these days, and it's majorly pathetic now. Do something positive, something worthwhile. Quit acting like some "badass" online when you know that, in real life, you're not as badass as you try to be online. You're possibly going to offend someone in real life, and if they meet you or live near you, they may kick the shit out of you. Is it worth that risk? I don't think so. But eh...maybe some of these people may think it is worth it. Who knows?

End of the world...again?

Ok. I Vented about this yesterday but figured I should blog about it here, too.

So, how is it going to happen now?

I was watching a time slip video on YouTube when I found out about this. After the video had finished, it switched to another video about some message from the black box of Malaysia Flight 370, which crashed sometime in 2014. This box supposedly called someone’s cell phone with a message, told in phonetic code, that aliens are going to be attacking the Earth on the 18th of April. Clearly, we’re all doomed again.

How many more “predictions” will we get? We had Y2K and the end of the Mayan Calendar in 2012. Now we have alien destruction on the 18th of April. I’m sure that day will pass, and absolutely NOTHING will happen. What’s coming next? The 23rd of June 2023, when we all die of shock due to a poodle exploding from a hug? For fuck sake people. Quit with this end-of-the-world bullshit!

Because of this, I decided to read up on upcoming end-of-the-world events. There are quite a few for 2018. Apparently, some passage in the Bible says we’re doomed in 2018. I have no idea which passage states this. Still, I reckon someone religious probably knows where this supposedly is. Nostradamus supposedly has a couple for this year, too. One is World War 3, and another is an asteroid which is going to wipe us all out. But, eh, I don’t think anything will happen.

I’m sure some people will be panicking about Nostradamus’s predictions since he supposedly predicted the rise of Hitler and stuff. But in the end, none of those were true. They were all just an “in hindsight” thing. They seem like hypothetical things. You could interpret his “visions” in anything. Just link them to some event after it’s already happened.

How many people will freak out about this year due to these “predictions” or idiotic Internet rumours?

Shamchat: Archived chats

It's been quite a long time since I've posted anything in this blog. But recently, I've discovered a new chat program called Shamchat, and I've got to admit that I've gotten quite a lot of laughs out of it. Sadly, I should've started archiving the chats I had before yesterday. One thing that sucks about the chat is that you have to go through about 50 skips before you even find someone who will talk to you. A few of the people I've spoken to have been kind of amusing to me as well. They can't even take a little bit of a joke. I think I've probably pissed off about seven people now. So, let's get to showing these conversations that I've saved.

Ace Harding vs. Electro
Electro: They Lied To Me
Electro: They Shot At Me
Electro: Afraid Of Me
Electro: They're Dead To Me
Ace Harding: Ok.
Electro: AND NOW THEY'RE ALL MY ENEMIES!!!
Ace Harding: So whatcha gonna do? Kill them in the Study with the Wrench?
Electro: I'm Going To Kill The Light
Ace Harding: Yeah...and after you kill the lights, will it be in the Library with the Rope?
Electro: They Will See Who I Really Am
Ace Harding: Professor Plum!?
Electro: Don't You Know
Electro: I'm Electro
Ace Harding: Lies! You're Mrs Peacock...and it was in the Study...with the Candlestick!
Electro: *Electricity Shoots From Hands*
Ace Harding: Well, that's pretty shocking, but it was still in the Study...but I guess it was with the Gun.
Electro has left the conversation.

Now, the reason behind all the Clue/Cluedo references in this conversation is because I'd been watching the movie Clue just before I ended up in the conversation with Electro. He didn't seem to see the funny side in it as he soon left the conversation, as you can probably see.

Ace Harding vs. a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: That's a dumb name.
Ace Harding: And yours isn't?
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: You're a dumb person! You're just dripping with dumb.
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: It's a tad disgusting, please clean that dumb from my floors.
Ace Harding: Oh no! I'm sooooooooo offended. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: What is wrong with my name?
Ace Harding: Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: I am Gidulra, first of my name!
Ace Harding: Stop being so mean! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: I-I'm a princess, please don't t-t-tease me!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: I c-could have you killed! *voice cracks*
Ace Harding: Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! I'm so dumb. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Ace Harding: So mean! You big old meany! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: *starts to cry*
Ace Harding: *hands you a tissue*
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: *blows snot into it*
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: P-please refrain from bullying me as I'm sensitive
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: Orc women are supposed to be all strong and tough.... but look at me. I'm as bony and fragile as your puny human women.
Ace Harding: Hey. You were bullying me, meany!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: I just do it to look tough!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: :c
Ace Harding: Meany!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: N-no you are the meany!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: O-oh Gods I'm crying again.
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: *sob sob sob*
Ace Harding: WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Ace Harding: You big meany face!
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: I-I'm l-l-leaving b-but not because you were m-mean, I... I'm a tough o-orc princess ;~;
Ace Harding: You're leaving cuz ya a big ol' meany face, huh?
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: If you n-need me I'll b-be eating a tub of ice cream in my chamber, crying and w-writing in my journal.
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously: You sir are the biggest bully :c
a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously has left the conversation.

Ok. This conversation with the orc princess was less amusing than others I'd had. Honestly, I wish I'd have saved the conversations before these two. There was one conversation with some guy trying to explain some guns to me. I think he was the first person on Shamchat that I truly pissed off as he was telling me to stop being a cheeky bastard and listen to him. Sadly for him, I didn't do that.

Ace Harding vs. Narrator
Narrator : And her or him came in
Ace Harding: "And her or him came in" the Narrator said. "Now what the hell are they gonna do?", he thought.
Narrator : He walk outside to enjoy the beautiful weather
Narrator : But he was mean to nature
Narrator : He distroy everything
Narrator : All the animals died
Narrator : And then he thinks to himself what I'm i
Ace Harding: "Oh! What a beautiful day!", the Narrator thought, letting a fart rip. "Oops!", he squealed as he watched a plant whither and die. "Ah, fuck."
Narrator : He had no life
Narrator : And this person was acting like a bitch
Ace Harding: "Oh right! I'm a bodyless voice. Of course I have no life.", thought the Narrator.
Narrator : Shut the fuck up I'm the narrator here and I'm just making a story okay bitch
Narrator : 😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡
Ace Harding: The Narrator was now getting really angry! His face was starting to turn bright red!
Ace Harding: "If you don't shut the fuck up, I'mma kick your ass, you bitch!", yelled the Narrator
Narrator : And ace got killed by the narrator and died
Narrator : Go to hell bitch I don't want to talk to a dirty ass so u can back off and shut the hell up
Ace Harding: And then Ace came back as a ghost. "Oh boy! This is so fucking cool!", thought Ace, as he creeped up behind the Narrator. "BOO!", Ace screamed. The Narrator jumped. "Holy shit! You scared me!", the Narrator said, a tear forming in his eye.
Narrator : Ewe gross boys r nasty and the narrator had a secret weapon and gutted the ace
Narrator : Hiited
Narrator : Hitted
Ace Harding: "Ha! You missed!", said Ace. "I'm a ghost now, dummy!" Ace said with a smirk.
Ace Harding: "Try again!"
Narrator : I kick him right in the guts what r u going to do now bitch
Ace Harding: "I'm gonna laugh at your butt for trying to hurt a ghost.", Ace said. "But...I'm awesome...I...I...I can do anything!" the Narrator stated, curling up in a ball. "I...I...", he sobbed.
Narrator : Hdowhedodvwuctwjebcfffwksvridhworbwoevfkcjqefifhwoghepfhwoctwjwpfjebcidduwbfowhdofnqkfbcosh
Narrator : Djwlwuejxpshwrofvepchwocehqieucivowbegpwhgichqbdohdbwocebfjqbdkdcjfwof
Narrator : Dkwgelfhwkcbsoxbsdkabdlfh
Narrator : Downdocbskabqlqdofjsbd
Ace Harding: "Erm...ok?", Ace said. "English. Do you speak it?"
Narrator : Sksgfqlsbqldbcjvsbckqbflwbfpdbwlcbfks
Ace Harding: Sadly, the Narrator had totally lost his mind when trying to hurt a ghost. "Ahjfsdfjskbgkjfhv jkshfkjdhg fjksahfj khfjksh fjklshjkfhsjkh sjkfhjskhfjkshfkjshjfhsdakjfhsdjkafhsjadkh jfhjksdhfjkshdjkfhsdajkfhsdjkfhjsakhfjska", the Narrator said.
Narrator : SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ass hole I'm just trying to tell a story just like a real narrator will do so ur dirty ass can get out of my face
Narrator : 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕
Narrator has left the conversation.

We can learn from this: Never narrate a Narrator. It really pisses them off.

Ace Harding vs. YOUR MOM
YOUR MOM: hi son
Ace Harding: Hi mom.
YOUR MOM: how r ur grades
Ace Harding: I dunno anymore. Been 16 years since I was in school.
YOUR MOM: no
Ace Harding: I think they were decent though.
YOUR MOM: ur grade plz
YOUR MOM: good
YOUR MOM: did u do ur chores
Ace Harding: I have chores? Why did no one tell me? Ah well!
YOUR MOM: SON!
YOUR MOM: YOU NEED TO DO YOUR CHORES
Ace Harding: But I don't have any. :D
Ace Harding: I'm awesome like that.
YOUR MOM: YES YOU DO HO
YOUR MOM: HOW DARE YOU DISRESPECT ME LIKE THAT
YOUR MOM has left the conversation.

Always respect your mother. But only if they are your mother. Haha!

Ok. There were two other conversations that I'd archived, but there's not too much to them that is worth noting here. Instead, I'll link all the conversations (including those I'd posted here) below. If you want to read the other two, you'll have to click the links below.

Shamchat: Ace Harding vs. Electro
Shamchat: Ace Harding vs. a short, lanky orc princess that nobody takes seriously
Shamchat: Ace Harding vs. Narrator - This conversation is one that I've linked several people to on Shamchat. It's given them all a pretty good laugh.
Shamchat: Ace Harding vs. YOUR MOM
Shamchat: Ace Harding vs. Shamchat - Ok. In this conversation, I didn't actually piss anyone off. This guy in this conversation claimed to be part of the team that worked on Shamchat. Can it be true? Most likely not.
Shamchat: Ace Harding vs. The FitnessGram Pacer Test is a multistage aerobic capacity test that progressively gets more diffic

I hope that people will enjoy these conversations. Be aware, though, that there are likely to be more conversations coming out at some point. If you enjoy these, I hope you return for more. I've no idea when I'll be posting more, though.

Happier Friends?: Day 2

I've spent just about the entire day watching Rob Dyke videos.

One video I saw today was titled YOU'RE a Hypocrite! And Here's Why! | SOCIAL AUTOPSY #3, which was a fascinating look at our lives. It talks about how we're all hypocrites in our own ways. For example, when one group of 40 people were asked whether they wanted to do an entertaining and easy task or a boring and more difficult task, 85% went for the easy and entertaining task. However, when another 40 were asked the same thing, those in the 85% who chose the entertaining and easy task in the group of the first 40 looked down on those who chose the easy task in the second group of 40. Irony. But amusingly enough, what was said in the video is pretty true. We're all judgemental of others. There are some things you do that you look down on others for, but as Rob points out, many of us will think that we're the special exception to whatever. None of us are a special exception, though.

Now the question is: what do you do that you judge others for? I've been wondering this myself. However, I can't think of what it is right now. I'm not saying I'm a special exception in any case. I do judge people on things, such as racists on my Twitch stream. But I can't think of that one thing I do that I judge others for.

I hope my friends are enjoying their second day without me around to depress them. :D