Terrified

I can't believe I did this. I've been bugged over and over by Mom and her boyfriend to claim unemployment benefits from the Job Centre, so that they can have the cash to buy food for "us all". A good friend of mine, Holly, also said today that I should do it, and that my excuse of being scared to death of this place, DMT, isn't good enough. So, I've done it. I signed up for unemployment benefits. Now what am I going to do? I have about six months now to find a job, or I end up being sent back to that dump of a place. God...PLEASE give me a job as soon as possible because I really do not want to be sent back to that place. I've already gotten epilepsy from going there. What am I going to get next? I really don't want to think about it. All I know is that I really, REALLY do not want to go back to that place.

I could always lie before six months is up, but there's the problem. They may contact the place that I use as a lie to find out if it's the truth. For that reason, there's no point in lying. I just have to go to that place if I can't find a job as soon as possible. Hopefully tomorrow, the weather is nice so I can walk into town and search around again for more jobs.

I have no idea what I'm going to do at the interview that is meant to be arranged. I'm meant to bring along two forms of ID as well as a C.V.. I don't think I have two forms of ID. I have a passport, but other than that, nothing. No drivers licence...nothing. I don't have a C.V. either. I gave my last one away when trying for a job. I hope somewhere gives me a job as soon as possible.