Job needed - badly

I definitely need a job as soon as I can possibly get one because I honestly can not deal with Mom and Sean anymore. Yet again, Mom came into my room when I was Skyping with Holz telling me that I need to get a job/get some money coming in or go and find somewhere else that'll let me live there for free. Not too long before that, I had Sean telling me what I should be eating everyday, and that I never go out. He was asking me things like "When was the last time you went out?" - That would've been the 12th May...for 7 hours. I go out everyday actually, but I know it's never longer than 30-60 minutes. Thinking about it, he doesn't go out any longer than I do; no one cares that he doesn't go out any longer than I do. I'll have to go into town to do another 7+ hours of aimless wandering again I guess. He and Mom won't be happy if I do that though. Seems like they never are. It appears they want me gone for hours every single day. 7 hours on the 12th was bad enough since I had nothing to do after searching around for work, and they want me to do that every day?

"When was the last time you went to the pub? When was the last time you had a pint?" - For fuck sake...I don't like alcohol! Why the fuck would I want to go down the pub? Other people can drink and all, but I don't, so leave me the fuck alone about that. I know that's how most people here have a social life, but I don't wanna go to the pub. I'll just seem like a major loser if I go there alone and don't drink or nothing. Then again, I think in most peoples' minds...I am a loser. Who gives a fuck about the guy walking around alone?

I can admit that I probably need to eat better meals, but how could I do that if I'm supposed to spend hours and hours outdoors everyday? Besides, it's not nice enough to do that kind of thing everyday. Name one person who would want to go around a place for hours and hours if they've got nothing to do? Ok...I'm sure there are people who would do that, but I get bored easily. I guess the next time the weather is kind of nice, I'll walk into town and spend several hours there again...and get bored out of my mind again. I'll then get home and be told I haven't gone out at all because those two are never fucking happy. They will be when I'm gone.

It saddens me to think that quote my aunt said "Love comes and goes, but family is forever." is basically complete and utter fucking bullshit when it comes to Mom. She'll be ecstatic when I'm completely gone from her life. I don't care what people think because that is definitely how it feels to me. She can't WAIT for me to be gone.