Money troubles

This isn't really about me, although I can admit that I am having trouble with money. The trouble being that I don't have alot of it. Anyway, this girl I met on OkCupid who's very interested in me, is currently in Africa and was buying antiques to sell from home, since that's what she does for a job. However, she budgeted herself a certain amount for the shipping of them back to the UK, and it turns out she's £347 short. She told me in her e-mail to me that she'd asked her clients and all for a loan of the £347 that she'd pay back, but was refused it by them all. So, she turns to me for help. But, due to not having a job and all, I don't have £347. I only have about £20 on me. That's not going to be alot of help. I kinda feel bad in a way that I am unable to help her.

I'm just hoping that she can find a way to get everything back to the UK, and doesn't have to end up losing some of the items to be able to get the rest back.

What saddens me more is that tomorrow, she'd like me to go and meet her at the airport in Bristol to pick her up. However, I cannot drive, so I would have to rely on Mom to drive me there. But, knowing Mom, she won't do that. I had less of a distance to travel a couple of years back when someone was selling a puppy that I wanted, and as we got real close to the place, Mom turned around and went back home again. I missed out on getting that dog because of that. From where I live to Bristol, it's a 139 mile journey, and I'm pretty sure that if I were to ask Mom to drive me, I'd get refused that since it would have to be a 2 way journey as I want to take Robin to a BBQ my cousin is having on Saturday. The journey in total would be 278 miles. That would definitely make it a big "NO!" from Mom if I asked.

What does this all mean? Well, I'm starting to wonder if she'll even want me after this. I can't get to the airport to pick her up. I can't loan her £347. Will she still be even remotely interested in me when I can't do shit to help her? I'm starting to doubt it. I just pray that she doesn't hate me for it because I've really been looking forward to meeting her, but I'm starting to wonder if I've fucked up totally with not being able to help her out at all in any way. I hate having no job. I hate having epilepsy and not being able to drive. Fucking hell. Why does nothing ever go correctly for me?