The job searching that I've had to do since losing my ESA hasn't been going too well. Every single job I've looked at in computing requires someone with previous experience in the field, requires a car, or requires a skill that I just do not have. Because of that, I widened the searching to all jobs within about 5-10 miles of where I live. That doesn't get me anywhere either because all of the jobs are either caring for the elderly, or driving HGVs/trucks. I have no experience in caring for the elderly. No college degree or anything in that area. But if I did, what good would I be to the job? My epilepsy is completely out of control and my ankle starts to really hurt after about 30 minutes of standing/walking around due to the broken bone.
With the blank outs I have due to my epilepsy, I don't think I'd be the best person to take care of anyone, whether that be elderly, kids, or even a loved one. Every time Dad has come to visit me, I've had one of these blank outs, so it's likely that I'm having them daily, only people need to be around me all day to possibly see me having one. Either that, or have some extreme luck to catch me having one. Usually when Dad is visiting me, he's around almost the entire day, which explains why he'd see them. If it is a daily occurence, how popular would I be with families if I blanked out for a good 30 minutes or more and come around to find the person I was caring for is laying on the floor in extreme pain or even possibly dead? I would be one of the most hated people with families requiring care for their loved ones. I just can't deal with that.
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