Thanks for ruining my day...

People sure know how to put a total downer on my day.

When I got to Liskeard to get my train back home, I sat down in the sheltered area, away from this family who were also sat there. Not too long after that, the mother (I assume) started laughing as she looked over to me, turned to her son (I assume) then pointed to me, still laughing. I've no idea what the fuck she was laughing about, but it sure made me feel like shit.

It's that kind of stuff that really lowers my self-esteem...and I don't have much of that to begin with! I've no real confidence in myself and all, and it doesn't help when some fucking bitch starts pointing and laughing at you for no apparent reason. Because of that, it's no real surprise I have no real friends locally anymore. I've no confidence to walk up to someone and start a conversation with them or anything. Seems so much easier talking to someone online because I'm not talking face to face with them and since they can't really see me, they don't really have anything to laugh at.

Is it my looks? The dirty jacket I was wearing because of working out at a muddy field? Everyone working out there gets dirty from the mud. If that's the reason for the laughter, then they've obviously never had to work outside in a dirty area. There's no way you can remain clean unless you don't do any work at all!

Ah well...fuck it. Fuck people like that. Thanks for ruining what was a good day really...

Anyway, back to the project. I got out to the project rather late due to the train being delayed by 42 minutes. I was dropped off at the field by Richard, and immediately after that, he had to take one of the younger guys down to St Austell to go to the Job Center. This left just myself and Abby out at the field. I finished nailing another partition together, and then moved onto fixing some pallet steps up to the building. That took a while to do, and I ended up finding out that the mud I was digging up to steady the steps shouldn't have been dug up. We're going to have to fill that area I dug out back in with mud from else where in the field. I've no clue where though.

We have two of the walls up now. One of them was up when I got out there today, and the other was put up while I was there (after Richard and the guys got back from St Austell). I think that by the end of next week (if not tomorrow) we should have just about all of the building up.

I'm not sure how much work will be done on Monday and Tuesday of next week as Richard will be busy with other things. I can turn up on Monday, but I'll have to walk out to the field. I'm not sure I really want to do that because it probably means that I have to walk back to the train station, and like yesterday, that could mean that I completely miss my train again and end up having to get a later train back home. I don't really want that to happen again, so I'll probably just relax at home.

On Tuesday, I definitely can't go out to the project as I have a doctor's appointment.

This means that after tomorrow, I'm more than likely not going to show up to the project until Wednesday. If the building isn't finished by the end of tomorrow, I wonder how much of it will be completed in the two days that Richard and I aren't there. It'll be interesting to see how much farther the project has advanced in those two days.

I've been taking my camera along with me for a couple of days now so that I could take pictures to show how the project is advancing. At some point, I'll have to take the pictures off of the camera and upload them for people to see.